so things are pretty good.... with the whole exception of freaking out because i'm leaving in 6 days and I have a shit ton of things to do. Of course on the plus side the only academic things to do are study for 4 finals, hard? yes, but manageable ( Read more... )

So how does it feel? I'm not in a very compilatory mood right now so I prefer the brief list of what's going on ( Read more... )

Nobody cares about this ( Read more... )

So... its amazing how one act can make things all better. I think its biological and not psychological, because nothing was really worked out. Its still kinda fucked up, but I'm not that upset about it any more. WEIRD. I was so mad that I was crying and now... I'm happy as a clam. Well thats actually not true because if I stop to think about it its ( Read more... )

Wow, what a surprising turn of events. Its amazing how much my plan can change with circumstances and various amounts of alcohol ( Read more... )

Do I dare get excited ( Read more... )

Something real happened, it didn't involve alcohol and it didn't involve sex. It involved closeness. My stomach was shaking and I was very aware of how fast my heart was beating. I forgot how amazing that felt... It almost made me forget that it's doomed to end. End abruptly and horribly. In one fell swoop of pain. There is always the chance of ( Read more... )

I feel really alone right now. I've got the what am I doing blues. I actually had a pretty good weekend and day, and yet life is getting me down. What is good? Dancing and "dancing" this weekend, 93 on my Geo exam, I got into my study abroad program (Yay for Christchurch, NZ this spring), I'm almost 21 ( Read more... )

The worst feeling in the world is that you messed up something you really wanted. And something that makes that situation even worse is when you don't even realize what you did until its too late to fix it. And the frikin' cherry on the top of it all is when someone involved makes it even harder by not even trying to understand ( Read more... )

So, I haven't posted in a long time and I realized that this is probably the one thing that will make me feel a little bit better ( Read more... )