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[kenny_vasoli]

see you all in two or three or five weeks!

Comments

[ally_hilfiger]

QUIT IT

[kenny_vasoli]

no, i need a fucking break. i've been waiting forever for you to update and i'm in one line and the next line is going on about your "husband" then nate comments and you ask him to get you from the airport i can't fucking take this i quit, i'm out of the race to win your heart or whatever i can't take this anymore ally i can't

[michelle_nolan]

:-\

[kenny_vasoli]

i'm sorry michelle i just need a break, i don't know. i don't really want to go but this ally shit is really starting to hurt me. i don't know what else to do than detatch myself and get away from her, this constant rejection shit is killing my esteem

[michelle_nolan]

i really don't think she's doing it on purpose kenny, but do what you need to do i guess

[kenny_vasoli]

i would hope she isn't, but it's just hard i don't have anything to hold onto

[ally_hilfiger]

i love you kenny i'm sorry for i don't know why you are mad at me

[kenny_vasoli]

i think you are missing the point i just feel let down and unimportant, i've been waiting forever for you to update and i'm in one line thrown in at the end. i feel like shit, i feel like i'm not needed, and besides i said you could stay with me but noo you're at an airport, then get all eager when nate offers to pick you up and you told me he's asked you out what the fuck am i supposed to do i have nothing to hang onto i can't help but give up

[ally_hilfiger]

k that was a shit update, I even told myself to write something more but I don't post every single thing in there I don't know what you want me to do or say you make me feel bad constantly i'm sorry for upsetting you, i like hanging out with people you'd have to understand that first if you ever wanted to be together

[kenny_vasoli]

well i would feel a little more secure if i knew i had you at all but i don't so it hurts. i was hoping you'd say anything about me but you said one line and it sucks, it hurts. i'm sorry, i know you don't care but i really don't want to be together with you anymore, i don't want to like you, i don't want to deal with this on a daily basis i'm not strong enough to wait to be with you, not that you ever wanted to anyway

[taralipinski]

awww hugs i hope everything is okay.

[kenny_vasoli]

*hugs* thanks :-/ other than the fact i'm fighting back tears and i want to leave for two or three weeks for real i'm perfectly fine :-/

[steineckert]

do not take this as an attack, but i was just reading through comments because it is late and hey i have nothing to do, and i saw you were upset over ally's update or something, and just a little advice, sometimes people don't write out in their updates how they feel, because they don't want people getting involved in their business and trying to ruin it, and rather keep it personal, i know it may hurt, but just personally, i know that's how i am, so i thougt i'd just give a heads up i'm not trying to be a dick or anything so dont take it that way.

[kenny_vasoli]

thanks branden no i know what you mean thanks for not attacking me or anything, i'm probably being oversensitive but i've just been stretched out so bad the past few days fighting for her affection with matt skiba and these other guys that want her and it's just tough. i just wanted something to hold onto because it's harder to like her than it is to just give up and take a break or move on

[steineckert]

haha you do not need to thank me for that, and i see well i do not know really what is all going on, i just know sometimes people are more personal about their feeligns, but i can see why you would be bothered by other guys, but i mean i see her commenting up in this post, and if she had no interest or was more attracted to the other guys she wouldn't try to convince you other wise you know? she wouldn't waste her time, so i am sure she thinks a lot of you but i can understand why you were hurt by it.

[kenny_vasoli]

that is a good way to think of it i didn't think of it like that. sometimes it just does a real number to your esteem having to fight for someone you know? i'm not the type of person to want to fight for someone especially if they don't want me that much i just want to stay at home and be a pussy and cry it's pathetic. i've tried to stay strong but it's just starting to get to me is all