WriterCon dilemma
My heart's pounding with a bit of fear and trepidation as I write this.
I cut because I care.
I don't know to do about WriterCon.
Do I go or not?
Is there even any more spaces available? Is there always spaces available?
Is there a hotel room available?
Is there someone to stay in that room with? I don't have any LJ friends that I've met in RL, so I feel sooo skeered about this aspect.
Are there even any people left who don't have a roommate?
If so, do I want to stay with a stranger? Do they?
Will I feel like a lost puppy if I go?
Will everyone I admire and worship, yes, let's be honest here, be in groups that already know each other?
Will I feel left out? If not, will I feel that I'm included only out of pity?
Have I waited too late to answer any of these questions and make a decision?
I'm totally freaking out about this though I know it's really stupid!
Help! What do I do?
I've already got the time off from my day job, so I just need to request the days of from my night job.
But the room sitch and the not knowing anyone in a face-to-face way and the not having someone that will be there that I know I can pal around with and not be wandering around on my own (yes, I can see this in my mind. I makes me sick to think about!) is so frightening!
I know if I don't go, with WriterCon being so close by, I'll be in a horribly depressed state at the time on the 'con. I'll be furious with myself in July.
But right now fear rules me.
I'm not sure what I expect (want) anyone to say to all this angst, but I just had to force myself to get this out!!!
It's time to fish or cut bait! It's JUNE!
Please, tell me what/why/how to do this thing?
I cut because I care.
I don't know to do about WriterCon.
Do I go or not?
Is there even any more spaces available? Is there always spaces available?
Is there a hotel room available?
Is there someone to stay in that room with? I don't have any LJ friends that I've met in RL, so I feel sooo skeered about this aspect.
Are there even any people left who don't have a roommate?
If so, do I want to stay with a stranger? Do they?
Will I feel like a lost puppy if I go?
Will everyone I admire and worship, yes, let's be honest here, be in groups that already know each other?
Will I feel left out? If not, will I feel that I'm included only out of pity?
Have I waited too late to answer any of these questions and make a decision?
I'm totally freaking out about this though I know it's really stupid!
Help! What do I do?
I've already got the time off from my day job, so I just need to request the days of from my night job.
But the room sitch and the not knowing anyone in a face-to-face way and the not having someone that will be there that I know I can pal around with and not be wandering around on my own (yes, I can see this in my mind. I makes me sick to think about!) is so frightening!
I know if I don't go, with WriterCon being so close by, I'll be in a horribly depressed state at the time on the 'con. I'll be furious with myself in July.
But right now fear rules me.
I'm not sure what I expect (want) anyone to say to all this angst, but I just had to force myself to get this out!!!
It's time to fish or cut bait! It's JUNE!
Please, tell me what/why/how to do this thing?