it's not necessary to read this. im just keeping it here for safe keeping.

[kephanieanne]

*are you sure you're ready for this

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just when you probably thought you'd never have to hear from me again ;)

[alifelesslustre]

i think it is very brave and humble of you to write this and i hope that people recognize and appreciate your honesty. i know it's nothing to do with me but your entry was basically how i feel or have felt about the same sorts of things. i often feel like i want more from friendships, and I want to give more to friendships too, only it is hard to take the friendship to that level if the other person doesn't realize this. I basically want authentic friendships. When i was in high school i actually (this is a little sad) made a list of all my friends. I did it to reassure myself that I had quite a lot of friends. but then i realized that some of the people on my list probably didn't even know the real me, at least not very well. i think a lot of people go through life content to have shallow freindships but i just couldn't do that.

Re: just when you probably thought you'd never have to hear from me again ;)

[kephanieanne]

nina! i miss you.
thanks a lot. it didn't go so well with my friends though. i don't know that it'll get better. i think im the one who's gonna have to change. which maybe that's what was needed all along.
but again, thanks.

[lanesmergeahead]

stephanie! im sad for you, and i miss and love you. i know it probably doesnt seem like it since i have kinda dropped off the face of the planet but i do. and you can come hang out with me anytime. call me sometime 618-530-6537

[kephanieanne]

VAL! someone just asked me about you the other day and it made me sad because i didn't know how you were or what you were up to and it made me realize that i hadn't talked to you in forever! hopefully soon i'll remedy that.

- i miss you too -