Talking Muses May Prompt 4a - Too much of a good thing
"Too much of a good thing can be bad." - Punjabi proverbs
I'm a walking, talking example of that. If anyone had told me that I'd turn into a 'Lifetime Original Movie' I would have laughed. The nerd from Sunnydale high that thought being a rebel was eating a banana that wasn't at lunch time became an addict. Come on, I lived in Sunnydale. I couldn't become a crack head or an alcoholic. Nope, I became addicted to magic. Well, addicted to the power.
There's a part of me that wants to blame Amy for this. What the heck, I'll still blame her, but I know I was the one that kept going back to Rack. I was the one that didn't care I was pushing Tara and my friends away. All I cared about was the feeling of power.
In the beginning, I told myself it was because I wanted to be more helpful to Buffy. That I could do more if I was better at magic. That was a lie even then. I wanted to feel powerful. I wanted to feel like I did when everyone thought I was a vampire. I didn't want to see the fear in their eyes, but I did want people to listen to me. Not look over me like I wasn't there. With the power I got from Rack, I felt that way again.
That proverb is right. If I had kept it small, just using magic to help Buffy so many lives wouldn't have changed. Magic is good, it's when you overindulge that it harms everyone, especially yourself.
Muse: Willow Rosenberg
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Word Count: 255
I'm a walking, talking example of that. If anyone had told me that I'd turn into a 'Lifetime Original Movie' I would have laughed. The nerd from Sunnydale high that thought being a rebel was eating a banana that wasn't at lunch time became an addict. Come on, I lived in Sunnydale. I couldn't become a crack head or an alcoholic. Nope, I became addicted to magic. Well, addicted to the power.
There's a part of me that wants to blame Amy for this. What the heck, I'll still blame her, but I know I was the one that kept going back to Rack. I was the one that didn't care I was pushing Tara and my friends away. All I cared about was the feeling of power.
In the beginning, I told myself it was because I wanted to be more helpful to Buffy. That I could do more if I was better at magic. That was a lie even then. I wanted to feel powerful. I wanted to feel like I did when everyone thought I was a vampire. I didn't want to see the fear in their eyes, but I did want people to listen to me. Not look over me like I wasn't there. With the power I got from Rack, I felt that way again.
That proverb is right. If I had kept it small, just using magic to help Buffy so many lives wouldn't have changed. Magic is good, it's when you overindulge that it harms everyone, especially yourself.
Muse: Willow Rosenberg
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Word Count: 255