This is ridiculous ...

[kerianth]

Warning: pathetic whine ahead.I've just emailed my friend about whether there's any teaching available for the new semester. Now I know there probably isn't any; she told me when I went for the thrice-damned interview that there was only likely to be money available for part-time teachers for practical classes and guess what, they've already got

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[pernwebgoddess]

God, you KNOW I feel the same way.

I feel so worthless, sitting here with this house falling down around my ears, literally and figuratively, knowing that since I'm home, surely I could do a better job of actually keeping it. I feel so helpless, so... lumpy. Like a great big lump.

I keep telling myself that I'm doing the best I can for my kids, but I know it's not true, because I KNOW I can do better.

*HUGHUGHUGHUGHUGHUG*

[pisceth]

I can completely empathize. It's very hard, feeling like you're not living up to your potential. And dealing with the tut-tuts that inevitably come from other sources in your life when people think they're doing righting some sort of cosmic injustice by pointing out something you're trying to ignore so you don't bloody cry.

The problem with being a woman lately, in my opinion, is that we ask too much of ourselves. We want to be good at everything. No -- perfect at everything. I want my house to be perfect. I want to make everything perfect for my husband, to make him happy. I want to kick ass at my job. I want to make tons of money to give him the things he wants so he's happy. I want to make enough money so I can feel justified in having babies.

And I feel I need to do all these things

[four_horsebears]

I don't know if I count as a woman, so I'm not sure if you want to hear whether or not I feel the same, but, well, I identify as a female, so I'd like to think I'm at least a girl, if not a woman. Bear with me, please.

At any rate, you know I empathize. I always feel worthless, and talentless, and, well, helpless, too. Unfortunately, me being as young and screwed up as I know I am, I don't really have much to contribute other than "Yeah! Right on! You are a woman, and I am theoretically a woman, and we feel the same things

[alisaura]

They all said it perfectly. You are awesome, you have done amazing things with your life, and are continuing to do them. You are an inspiration to me as well, for even attempting some of these things... like a family! Yikes