Broken Promises
Another oneshot.. :)
I'm back! With another oneshot to hold you all off as I work slowly on my multi-chapter fic. Hehe. Well enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, I lack the drawing skills. :(
Warnings: Contains hints of one-sided ItaNaru if you look close enough :D Oh and character death :(
It was when I was young I made the first promise to myself, the promise to show no true emotions, to not let myself get hurt anymore. I made that promise when I was five, and you were the one who saved me. I didn’t know it at the time, but it was you, always you. You were the first one to be gentle and kind to me, the first one to truly care about me. Your kindness was so foreign to me, but I liked it.
You didn’t show your emotions on your face, or in your voice, but rather in your eyes. I wanted to be like you, hide my true emotions, only instead of hiding them behind an emotionless façade, I wanted to hide behind a happy one, it was the only choice I had. The Hokage noticed my improvement right away, and his smile was always a little bit larger when he saw me. No one asked any questions because no one cared to.
When you left, I didn’t feel anything, nothing at all. There was neither loss nor any painful grief of heartbreak. Years and years were spent; creating and perfecting the façade they all see. My true emotions I welcomed when I went home every night, and wept when I parted with them the next day. It became a routine, engraved in my mind.
When I left for training with Jiraiya, that was the first time I slipped, I showed him a part of my true self, and just with that one glimpse, he knew that I had so much more potential then I showed. I let him think it was a fluke though.
Then he took me to a hotel and that was when it happened. In that one moment, all my barriers fell, destroyed. You opened the door, and when I first saw your face I thought you were your brother, but then I saw your eyes, the same eyes I had seen years ago, and everything fell into place. But it was also in that one moment, that I knew, nothing could be, nothing could happen. Your destiny was to kill me to retrieve the wretched demon I was cursed with. I quickly recollected myself, and screamed and yelled when you started beating your brother.
Every night those eyes haunted me, plagued my dreams and my nightmares. I had many sleepless nights and suffered from sleep deprivation and fatigue. Everyday I would drag myself out of bed and join the world in its constant motion, for who are we but two individual beings brought together by sheer coincident. We’re like hairs on a head, if you lose one, no one cares and no one notices. That’s not necessarily true however; although we do not make a huge impact on the world as a whole, we create a gigantic impact on those around us.
I didn’t know how much and impact you had made on my life until that day. It was a joyous day at first but as time went on, it was as though a little part of myself was ripped out and then torn to shreds, bit by bit. At first it was so small that I hardly noticed, but eventually it was as though a huge gaping hole was ripped out. If only things were different, if only I could have done something, anything.
It was that night I wrote:
"Here lies Uchiha Itachi, even if he is not remembered by the world he will always be remembered by Uzumaki Naruto, of whose life he impacted so much."
Maybe in death, we can be reunited again.
Eek! -ducks all objects thrown- I know I'm taking forever with the multi-chap fic I'm supposed to be working on, but my muse is being stubborn. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this extremely confusing oneshot! So love it? Hate it? Review and let me know so I can improve! CC is always welcome!
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