"Of the whole incident, what matters is that I had to go before the Great Council and remake the deal - without Enri - to let the people of Earth manage their own rehabilitation. Thank God they were sympathetic." - Enensi Keter Tzal, reporting to the Bibir An-ki'ama-argi (Holy Earth-mother (Ama) Restoration Taskforce - HEaRT)The rules of engagement ( Read more... )

"Of the whole incident, what matters is that I had to go before the Great Council and remake the deal - without Enri - to let the people of Earth manage their own rehabilitation. Thank God they were sympathetic." - Enensi Keter Tzal, reporting to the Bibir An-ki'ama-argi (Holy Earth-mother Restoration Taskforce ( Read more... )

Enri's host and I had a conversation last night, in which he flatly lied to me...either during that conversation or one before it. Less than a week ago, he told me he needed a girlfriend (which told me I needed to gather my courage and make my bid before I lost him to silence too long kept) and then last night he told me he had given his heart to ( Read more... )

I would like to know how it is that I was brought to this point oh-so-deliberately, each step a logical outgrowth of the one before it...and the moment Enri entered the world, chaos ( Read more... )

This is one of those times when I feel just like a quarter in the dryer...I'm going around and around and making a lot of noise, but am I going anywhere really? Everything is hurry-up-and-wait. Almost everything I've worked for is either proving useless, or is right in front of me but still just beyond reach.

I'm really starting to have an issue with the New Age thing. There are some truly lovely people there, and that's why I tolerate the rest, but others are just toxic. The Twin Flames thing is one...the Ascension thing is shaping up to be another...I'm sorry, but these two subjects just are too delicate and personal for most people to tolerate ( Read more... )

This has been a really tough week, and I did not get done all of my tasks for this weekend, so next week will be even tougher. The good news is that the feeling in my lower body has almost completely returned, and I was able to successfully rollerblade for nearly an hour today - I'm making progress there ( Read more... )

I was listening to a recording of myself in a meeting recently.  I said very little, but you could hear ENTJ commander (which I am) in every word, even the ones I hoped would be funny.  Mine is the spirit of the sword whether I want it that way or not.  Still there is nothing more effective for getting things done, and the alone/unloved thing ( Read more... )

Whether of the one-foot-in-front-of-the-other kind or the precipitous leap into an unknown Abyss, it's time for me to get real and to make real.  I don't know what I'll be at the end of this process, other than "different." Make your jokes now and move on.  ;o)

Embrace the Void even closer still,
Erase your doubts as you surrender everything,
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