GREAT NEWS! I'm happy again. Yes, that's right. Pretty quick I know, but yeah I'm okay. I'm not gonna lie and say I'm not in pain, because trust me I am, but I'm okay. I still feel weird when I reach around my neck, but it was a decision that at the time I felt I needed to do. Stupid ass Chris woke me up this morning at like 6am. Erg. Then I went ( Read more... )

Well for the most part many of you are going to be happy, a few dissapointed, but most happy. I have decided to forget this weekend. Fuck him. First off, when we first started talking we both mentioned we are very generous people and buy gifts all the time. Well today he told a friend of mine he thinks I'm trying to buy him. WTF is that. First off ( Read more... )

One thing I can't stand is someone being dishonest with me. Sean told me that he couldn't see me because he had to stay home all night with his dad. I canceled my Indiana trip because I knew I wouldn't have a good time until I met with him and talked, and he could have fuckin' done it yesterday. I know this because I called him and he was at Pam's ( Read more... )

Big K and I are getting close again. It scares me but I'm giving it hope. She did a lot of things that really hurt me, but I'm all about forgiveness and 2nd chances. And I do miss her and love her dearly all the same. She asked about the Sean situation so I sent her the conversation I had with him and then a few lj's and even the email I sent him ( Read more... )

So after the interesting afternoon I had, I knew I had a lot of thinking to do. And I had some friends to talk to. Alex didn't come by so yeah that was weird since he was the one who asked me. Oh well. Maybe I got the wrong day. Hmmm...lol. So I poored my heart out once again to my dear friend. And then I made some popcorn, layed in bed, and read a ( Read more... )

I got up this morning, downed a bowl of cereal, and headed straight for the gym. I got in a great workout. Only one problem. While doing my cardio I felt it. The feeling through my body I got in the summer that landed me in the hospital yet again. But I knew that if I passed out on the machine, I would probably have died. One, because it was high ( Read more... )

I look up into the dark night sky ( Read more... )

Today was a very big day for me. I made a decision I can never take back. For those of you who know me well, you know all about my most prized possession, the charm I wear around my neck at all times. The one of the crow that is engraved w/ the words "real love is forever". I never took it off, not once. Infact, it wasn't just a possession anymore ( Read more... )

I found out last night that my brother is going to jail. Three weeks ago his friend was driving drunk and got pulled over and he got possession of marijuana, breaking of probation, he failed his drug test, and all this other shit. Well isn't that just fucking peachy. After all I did to try and help him get his life back together and he goes and ( Read more... )

Death ( Read more... )