[FIC] Almost Losing Christmas; ;PG-13
Almost Losing Christmas
Rating : PG-13
Genre : a bit of everything
Author : dribbledrabs
Summary : Christmas is a gift , something you hope to never loose
Cause it doesn't make sense anymore.
Why should he.
Why should he sit around and wait for Kibum’s attention, for him to notice him. He shouldn’t be waiting. After all he was Kim Ki Bum’s boyfriend. But Minho never says anything more, because its too tiring , to much energy and though as much as he loves Kibum he just can’t do it .
Kibum loved his members. From the oldest Dubu, to now attached Jonghyung right down to their beloved maknae Taemin. Minho, fits somewhere in between he thinks. But he’s still not sure. Even if his boyfriend has whispered soft ‘I love you’s and snuggles close to him at night. It still doesn’t make up for holding hands with Jonghyung , or grabbing Jinki to go shopping him or smothering Taemin with so much motherly love.
He feels absolutely pissed when he opens the car door for Key and Key slams it into his hand accidentally. The hand is all bruised up and swollen but his boyfriend is more worried about Taemin being hungry.
Where does that put him really. Minho decides soon enough he’s going to let it be , he’s not going to try and get Key’s attention or cal him when he’s coming back late ( key doesn’t do it too ). He’s not going to bring him out on a date or grocery shop together because simply there were three other people who seem to do a better job of occupying his boyfriends attention.
His plan goes into action the next day , after he see Jinki and Key laughing animatedly at their seats during a StarKing studio session. Minho takes residence as a assistant MC next to Kang HoDong and he ignores Key. He ignores the looks that the feline boy is shooting his way , or the way he smiles when Minho starts to talk. Because he knows when he steps back into the dorm , he’s forgotten thrown aside and dealt with latter like a forgotten toy.
Right after the shoot , Minho changes and grabs his back pack , his manager hurrying him from the door telling him he’s going to be late for DreamTeam recording and the competition segment was today. He runs in to Key and Jinki at the hallway and gives a quick bye , which leaves Key entirely confused. Because usually even in public, Minho would grab his hand and give it a light squeeze telling Key that he would be safe and to sleep early.
Jinki asks if they fought. Key shakes his head and stares at Minho’s retreating back.
What was wrong.
The two reach the dressing room and Key pulls out his phone from his bag , his fingers run across the touch screen before theres a small sound telling him that the message was sent.
To : Min
Baby , is something wrong?
Key waits for the whole day and there is no bloody reply , his angry and worried at the same time. What had gotten over him, maybe his phone was dead. Minho had a habit of forgetting to charge his phone and would walk around the whole day being entirely un contactable. It didn’t matter if they had schedules together the entire day , but it mattered when Minho was off filming Dream Team in some distant part of the city.
He dials the number again , its already nine in the night when the number goes through and it starts to ring.
“ Hello ? “
“ Minho ! What happened you haven’t replied me the whole day or called , Where are you filming at ? Will you be back home early today ? “ He’s worried because the weather is getting cold and though Minho got sick very seldom , it still wasn’t good to be out so late.
“ I don’t know don’t worry “
“ Get home as soon as you finish alright , the weather sucks , and everyone is out ironically “
The last few words make Minho flare up a little.
“ Just because everyone is out right Kibum , just because everyone is fucking out “ He hangs up the call on Key.
Key is really not sure how he is feeling. Because Minho has never , and he is really not exaggerating, Minho has never been angry and him ever or anyone else to be exact. Even if he’s sort of angry its just a small frown and its gone before you know it because his temper is just really that good. Swearing was entirely new to Key as well.
He calls Minho but the phone is switched off. Even though he’s relatively angry and wants and explanation right now , he knows he has to wait till Minho is back home.
Key makes dinner for himself and Minho unsure whether the latter has eaten or not. He could always pack it into the fridge ready for the next hungry monster who walks in , after Minho that is.
1am , theres a click sound coming from the door followed by a beep and someone pushes the door open to reveal a tall figure. Key walks to the door and switches on the light over the entrance.
“ Your back “ He says.
Minho just nods and keeps his shoes in the rack. He walks past Key and dumps the bag of used clothes into the clothes bin.
“ Have you eaten ? “ Key asks.
“ Yes “
He reaches out and holds Minho’s hand to stop him from moving away to whatever he wanted to do next.
“ Are you still hungry ? “
“ Nope “ He wiggles out from Key’s grip and heads to his and Jonghyung’s bed room before shutting the door on Key.
Morning comes , Key is sitting outside the toilet waiting for whoever it was inside to come out. Because today that person beat him to it. Key always too the longest in the toilet , so he’d wake up extra early to maximize his usage.
He hears the shower turn of and sounds of footsteps on wet floors, and soft breaths. The door knob turns and a small gush of steam emits along with the user.
Key looks up from where he is sitting against the wall opposite the toilet door. Minho has the towel over his head and he doesn’t see Key.
“ Morning “ Key greets as he stifles a yawn. Minho drops the towel from his head and looks to his left.
“ Morning “ he replies. It short , but not sweet. There’s no morning kiss that should follow or a nice warm hug to engulf him in Minho’s scent.
“ Minho, “ Key calls out again just before the younger boy walks away.
“ Hmm ? “
“ Is something wrong , why you giving me the cold shoulder all of a sudden , since yesterday after filming ? “ He can’t hold it in and demands an explanation for being treated like that.
“ Nothing “
“ Stop it with your one word answers , and I don’t believe its nothing “
Only Kim Ki Bum would be ready for a fight this early in the morning.
“ you don’t need an explanation from me Ki Bum go find someone else for one. “ and he walks away towards to kitchen
“ Wha... what? YAH ! “ but he’s shouting to the empty hallway his voice resounding off the sides of the walls.
“ Key? “ Jonghyun pop his head out of the room.
Key’s still slumped against the wall , shock registering all over his face. “ Key? What happened ?! “
“ I ... I don’t know ... YAH CHOI MINHO “ he shouts , his diva attitude completely overwhelming him , he can’t think straight anymore. He pushes past Jonghyung and walks to where Minho is standing.
He turns around and leans against the counter top to face his angst of a boyfriend.
“ What do you mean I don’t need it , I’m your boyfriend Minho I demand one now. “
“ Stop demanding and ask for one Key “ It shuts him up for a few seconds because Minho doesn’t really call him Key , except when they fight or upset , which was never.
“ What is it with you ?! “ The whole band is gathered in the small kitchenette already, Onew is trying to get Minho to stop edging Key on , while Jonghyung and Taemin are trying to calm the diva down.
Minho can’t take it anymore and steps towards Key , he’s so close but it isn’t warm and comfortable , its scary and threatening.
“ Go focus your attention on someone else Key , you know it doesn’t matter what I feel or think as long as your leader has food on his table , Jonghyung isn’t worried about hitting the note when he sings or Taemin goes to school on time. Because the rest doesn’t matter to you anymore , you assume I’m always fine. Well I’m not this time. “
Key grabs his hand before he walks away.
“ Minho , don’t be so bloody childish “ He immediately regrets when he sees hurt flicker across Minho’s eyes. He wants to say sorry and take the statement back because he doesn’t mean it but Minho pulls out of his grasp. He picks up a sweater hanging by the chair and walks out.
“ Umma ...” Taemin asks as he holds on to Key who’s fallen to the floor. Completely shocked and broken.
“ Key , Minho.... he’ll come back later and you guys talk okay, you shouldn’t have said that , you know he loves you and just misses you being close to him I think. “ Onew tries to console the now crying boy.
“ He was upset that day when you completely ignored him after he hurt his hand he knew he was just being petty so he didn’t say anything. Its still swollen if you noticed. “
Key realizes he didn’t notice, at all.
Minho comes back an hour later just in time to leave for their schedules , no time for Key to pull him aside to talk.
Their sitting in their waiting room but Minho isn’t anywhere. Key gets up and walks out of the room to look for him. Maybe this time they’d get to talk. Key finds him in the Super Junior Hyungs room , talking to Donghae who has a hand on his back gently rubbing it.
“ KEY ! “ Heechul shouts from inside and Minho looks up instantly. Donghae is whispering something to him. The older Diva runs forward and pulls Key into a hug.
“ Are you looking for Minho , he’s here come in, you two are so sweet , come on , DONGHAE MOVE OVER so the couple can sit together. “
Donghae is shooting dirty looks at Heechul because he obviously wasn’t informed that they fought.
“ Its okay , Key can sit here , I’m leaving already “ he stands up and tugs a little on his clothes before he makes his way out the door.
“ Minho “ Key stops him , but is dutifully ignored.
“Minho can i talk to you for a bit “
Heechul notices this and pushes them out of the room to the empty one opposite. “ Talk okay whatever it is , if I had the chance to talk before he left I would have, now go “
He shuts the door behind them.
Minho is by the door while Key is just a few steps in front. He doesn’t want to talk, because he was never good at it. Letting out a sigh he turns on his heels and opens the door.
“ Please “
Then he shuts it again.
He doesn’t want to turn back to face the boy , because he knows he’d give in immediately and not want to pick a fight anymore , because he missed that nagging boy.
He hears the boy walk closer and stop just behind him. Key tugs on his hand and holds it gently in his.
“ Its still swollen isn’t it ? “ he mutters.
The younger boy simply nods. Key runs his finger over it gently with pressure , trying to soothe the pain in his hand.
“ You should have told me ...... no , I should have noticed you were hurting “ Minho knows he meant something more than just his hand. Key continues rubbing it , trying to disperse the bruise under the skin.
Something catches his attention , its cool on his skin , like drops of sad rain. He looks up and sees a trail of tears running down Key’s face.
Key doesn’t realize Minho is starring and continues to rub the swollen hand. They’re both quiet , Minho deosn’t know how to face a crying diva , all he can do is stand there and not make a sound till Key was ready to speak.
He glances at his watch they’ve got five minutes more till they had to be on stage.
“ Kibum , we need to go , they’re probably looking for us”
“ but i want to talk to you , all we’ve done is fight “
“ later then “
Key knows that later , would probably be different. Later would mean Minho deciding that he didn’t want Key as a boyfriend anymore. Later would mean breaking up. Later would mean loosing everything he wants to say to this perfect guy in front of him. But he would have to wait for later anyway because Minho has already opened the door and walked out
The opened door lets him see , Minho and Donghae standing just slightly away , talking in low voices. Minho is shaking his head , while the hyung is offering some hushed advice.
Heechul looks up and shoots him questioning looks.
“ What happened ?”
He can’t speak because he knows the moment the first word comes out tears would fall carelessly down his cheeks and he wouldn’t know what excuse to make for his tear stricken face. So he shakes his head and walks away .
_____________________________________________________
Today he’d set Minho free.
Minho walks in from another overworked session of training for the next big episode of DreamTeam.
“ You’re back “
“ yea , why aren’t you sleeping yet ? “
“ I wanted to talk to you “
“ Oh , now ? “
“ If you don’t mind , we could talk another time “ trying his best to subtly rid the conversation so that he wouldn’t need to put both of them through this. But as much as he hates this , he hates floating in a sea of uncertainty much more.
“ Now’s as good as any other time “
He sits himself on the couch and waits for Key to sit beside him but he doesn't
“ Minho ..... would it be better ? “
Minho senses where this conversation is going and his eyes turn a different shade of brown. His heart seems to have stop beating in his own chest.
“ I mean we never properly talked about this but through out the last week I think we both got the idea so I thought we should just get this over and done with “
“ Ki Bum what are you doing ?”
“ I’m ..... “
“ What are you saying Ki Bum , are you asking me for a breakup? , “
“ I don’t want to ...... “
Then Minho realizes what all this was. Key had assumed that after a week of thinking for both parts, that Minho wanted a break up.
“ How could you ever , ever assume I want to break up with you “ Minho is more angry then he is hurt. Cause in the split second he felt like Key didn’t know him at all. Even more so after the recent events.
“ How could you ever think that I’d give up so easily , I just wanted time for both of us to cool it off , not break up with you. I wanted to apologize for that day , we should talk this through like adults but i guess... “
Key is helpless, Minho is crying and no one has seen that ever.
“ Minho.... “
“ This just makes me realize how much you really have yet to know about me Kibum “
HI heartbreaks so hard its shattering to pieces on the floor and Key doesn’t know if he could ever put it back together again. He sees the tears gently shaping Minho’s face. Minho reaches out and gently hold his hands, before digging into his pocket and placing a cold metal chain into the palms of Key’s hand.
“ I wanted to tell you that we should just start over, from day one, get to know each other and fall in love all over again. But maybe this could be easier, easier to get over and done with “
Key stares at the pretty chain pressed into the palms of his hands , but nothing could compare to the warmth and touch of Minho’s hands on his.
Minho lets go slowly , undoubtedly painfully of Key’s hand and walks away. All the diva hears is the light click of the knob . It was the second time he had walked out , and Key could only realize how disappointed Minho must be of him.
He wants to tell him that this is not what he wants. Key wants to push open the bedroom door and take back what he said, tell Minho he was just confused and that he wants to be with Minho for as long as time allows them too. But for once in his life courage escapes him and all he can do is sit by the door .
Its 4am in the morning and his still outside , everyone is asleep so no one knows his there. The cold draft from the kitchen window seeps through the gaps and crawls across the heated floors almost mocking them for their lack of use. It reaches Key and digs under his skin, but he is already to cold to move from where his is. His head resting in an awkward manner but he insists that his comfortable.
The door clicks again for the second time , its been 3 hours already since.
“ What the fuck Key ! “ Jonghyun exclaims , shaking Key lightly from his unconsciousness.
“ You scared the shit out of me , don’t you have a room to sleep in ? Its cold out here. “
“ I forgot to go back to the room “ Key mutters in reply.
“ Key are you alright ? “ Even in the dark , Jonghyun can see how colourless the younger boys face is.
“ hmmm “
Jonghyun steps closer and kneels down to pul the boy up to his feet.
“ Your skin is ice cold Key! Oh My God “ Jonghyun runs to his room and grabs the blanket of the bed and throws it around the shivering boy. The commotion doesn’t go unnoticed. Minho can only barely make out the conversation since their speaking in whispers. He pushes off his cover and walks quietly to the door careful not to make a sound. Peaking from the side he feels a cold hand clench relentlessly onto his heart.
“ Key .... Key.. do you want to go to a doctor ? “
“ hmmm its fine I’ll go back to my room “ Jonghyun tries to help him but Key refuses any sort of aid , he slips the blanket off his shoulders and hands it back to the confused boy. He stumbles a little while getting up , he knows it , he can feel it , that he is going to fall the moment he takes his first step towards his room. His legs are already frozen stiff from the cold. It happens and Key half expects to fall back to the floor or have Jonghyun catch him midway but both don’t happen. He finds himself slumped onto a taller warmer body.
Minho bites his tongue at the sudden chill from Key’s skin, but nothing hurts more than seeing Key like this.
“What are you doing Ki Bum , sitting out here in the cold?”
Key is pressed flushed against Minho , Jonghyun takes this as his cue to leave and walks into the triple room and decides to sleep on Key’s bed for the rest of his slumber.
“ I don’t want to break up with you “ Key mutters as he tries to steady himself up.
Minho is taken aback slightly.
“ I don’t want to be without you because thats just stupid. I’m sorry for everything for calling you childish , for taking you for granted , not caring how you feel .... “ he can’t finish because he starts to cough the cold must have gotten to him already.
“ Ki Bum I ... “
“ I’m sorry for asking us to break up , I’m sorry , ......... i really am ......”
Key’s crying into Minho shirt and its completely soaking up. Minho runs his fingers through the hair of the boy is his arms and whispers softly.
“ But if you think you still hate me ........ “
“ Shut up “ is Minho’s only reply before he leans down and runs a kiss across the Diva’s lips. Sweet and concluding.
Key lifts his hand and gently unclenches his fist. Inside gathers in a small neat pile in his palm was the chain that Minho had given him. It had made small dent marks because he had clutched it too tightly.
On it wrote.
If i had three wishes,
i'd wish for your happiness and
get my own for free.
Merry Christmas Kim Ki Bum
Rating : PG-13
Genre : a bit of everything
Author : dribbledrabs
Summary : Christmas is a gift , something you hope to never loose
Cause it doesn't make sense anymore.
Why should he.
Why should he sit around and wait for Kibum’s attention, for him to notice him. He shouldn’t be waiting. After all he was Kim Ki Bum’s boyfriend. But Minho never says anything more, because its too tiring , to much energy and though as much as he loves Kibum he just can’t do it .
Kibum loved his members. From the oldest Dubu, to now attached Jonghyung right down to their beloved maknae Taemin. Minho, fits somewhere in between he thinks. But he’s still not sure. Even if his boyfriend has whispered soft ‘I love you’s and snuggles close to him at night. It still doesn’t make up for holding hands with Jonghyung , or grabbing Jinki to go shopping him or smothering Taemin with so much motherly love.
He feels absolutely pissed when he opens the car door for Key and Key slams it into his hand accidentally. The hand is all bruised up and swollen but his boyfriend is more worried about Taemin being hungry.
Where does that put him really. Minho decides soon enough he’s going to let it be , he’s not going to try and get Key’s attention or cal him when he’s coming back late ( key doesn’t do it too ). He’s not going to bring him out on a date or grocery shop together because simply there were three other people who seem to do a better job of occupying his boyfriends attention.
His plan goes into action the next day , after he see Jinki and Key laughing animatedly at their seats during a StarKing studio session. Minho takes residence as a assistant MC next to Kang HoDong and he ignores Key. He ignores the looks that the feline boy is shooting his way , or the way he smiles when Minho starts to talk. Because he knows when he steps back into the dorm , he’s forgotten thrown aside and dealt with latter like a forgotten toy.
Right after the shoot , Minho changes and grabs his back pack , his manager hurrying him from the door telling him he’s going to be late for DreamTeam recording and the competition segment was today. He runs in to Key and Jinki at the hallway and gives a quick bye , which leaves Key entirely confused. Because usually even in public, Minho would grab his hand and give it a light squeeze telling Key that he would be safe and to sleep early.
Jinki asks if they fought. Key shakes his head and stares at Minho’s retreating back.
What was wrong.
The two reach the dressing room and Key pulls out his phone from his bag , his fingers run across the touch screen before theres a small sound telling him that the message was sent.
To : Min
Baby , is something wrong?
Key waits for the whole day and there is no bloody reply , his angry and worried at the same time. What had gotten over him, maybe his phone was dead. Minho had a habit of forgetting to charge his phone and would walk around the whole day being entirely un contactable. It didn’t matter if they had schedules together the entire day , but it mattered when Minho was off filming Dream Team in some distant part of the city.
He dials the number again , its already nine in the night when the number goes through and it starts to ring.
“ Hello ? “
“ Minho ! What happened you haven’t replied me the whole day or called , Where are you filming at ? Will you be back home early today ? “ He’s worried because the weather is getting cold and though Minho got sick very seldom , it still wasn’t good to be out so late.
“ I don’t know don’t worry “
“ Get home as soon as you finish alright , the weather sucks , and everyone is out ironically “
The last few words make Minho flare up a little.
“ Just because everyone is out right Kibum , just because everyone is fucking out “ He hangs up the call on Key.
Key is really not sure how he is feeling. Because Minho has never , and he is really not exaggerating, Minho has never been angry and him ever or anyone else to be exact. Even if he’s sort of angry its just a small frown and its gone before you know it because his temper is just really that good. Swearing was entirely new to Key as well.
He calls Minho but the phone is switched off. Even though he’s relatively angry and wants and explanation right now , he knows he has to wait till Minho is back home.
Key makes dinner for himself and Minho unsure whether the latter has eaten or not. He could always pack it into the fridge ready for the next hungry monster who walks in , after Minho that is.
1am , theres a click sound coming from the door followed by a beep and someone pushes the door open to reveal a tall figure. Key walks to the door and switches on the light over the entrance.
“ Your back “ He says.
Minho just nods and keeps his shoes in the rack. He walks past Key and dumps the bag of used clothes into the clothes bin.
“ Have you eaten ? “ Key asks.
“ Yes “
He reaches out and holds Minho’s hand to stop him from moving away to whatever he wanted to do next.
“ Are you still hungry ? “
“ Nope “ He wiggles out from Key’s grip and heads to his and Jonghyung’s bed room before shutting the door on Key.
Morning comes , Key is sitting outside the toilet waiting for whoever it was inside to come out. Because today that person beat him to it. Key always too the longest in the toilet , so he’d wake up extra early to maximize his usage.
He hears the shower turn of and sounds of footsteps on wet floors, and soft breaths. The door knob turns and a small gush of steam emits along with the user.
Key looks up from where he is sitting against the wall opposite the toilet door. Minho has the towel over his head and he doesn’t see Key.
“ Morning “ Key greets as he stifles a yawn. Minho drops the towel from his head and looks to his left.
“ Morning “ he replies. It short , but not sweet. There’s no morning kiss that should follow or a nice warm hug to engulf him in Minho’s scent.
“ Minho, “ Key calls out again just before the younger boy walks away.
“ Hmm ? “
“ Is something wrong , why you giving me the cold shoulder all of a sudden , since yesterday after filming ? “ He can’t hold it in and demands an explanation for being treated like that.
“ Nothing “
“ Stop it with your one word answers , and I don’t believe its nothing “
Only Kim Ki Bum would be ready for a fight this early in the morning.
“ you don’t need an explanation from me Ki Bum go find someone else for one. “ and he walks away towards to kitchen
“ Wha... what? YAH ! “ but he’s shouting to the empty hallway his voice resounding off the sides of the walls.
“ Key? “ Jonghyun pop his head out of the room.
Key’s still slumped against the wall , shock registering all over his face. “ Key? What happened ?! “
“ I ... I don’t know ... YAH CHOI MINHO “ he shouts , his diva attitude completely overwhelming him , he can’t think straight anymore. He pushes past Jonghyung and walks to where Minho is standing.
He turns around and leans against the counter top to face his angst of a boyfriend.
“ What do you mean I don’t need it , I’m your boyfriend Minho I demand one now. “
“ Stop demanding and ask for one Key “ It shuts him up for a few seconds because Minho doesn’t really call him Key , except when they fight or upset , which was never.
“ What is it with you ?! “ The whole band is gathered in the small kitchenette already, Onew is trying to get Minho to stop edging Key on , while Jonghyung and Taemin are trying to calm the diva down.
Minho can’t take it anymore and steps towards Key , he’s so close but it isn’t warm and comfortable , its scary and threatening.
“ Go focus your attention on someone else Key , you know it doesn’t matter what I feel or think as long as your leader has food on his table , Jonghyung isn’t worried about hitting the note when he sings or Taemin goes to school on time. Because the rest doesn’t matter to you anymore , you assume I’m always fine. Well I’m not this time. “
Key grabs his hand before he walks away.
“ Minho , don’t be so bloody childish “ He immediately regrets when he sees hurt flicker across Minho’s eyes. He wants to say sorry and take the statement back because he doesn’t mean it but Minho pulls out of his grasp. He picks up a sweater hanging by the chair and walks out.
“ Umma ...” Taemin asks as he holds on to Key who’s fallen to the floor. Completely shocked and broken.
“ Key , Minho.... he’ll come back later and you guys talk okay, you shouldn’t have said that , you know he loves you and just misses you being close to him I think. “ Onew tries to console the now crying boy.
“ He was upset that day when you completely ignored him after he hurt his hand he knew he was just being petty so he didn’t say anything. Its still swollen if you noticed. “
Key realizes he didn’t notice, at all.
Minho comes back an hour later just in time to leave for their schedules , no time for Key to pull him aside to talk.
Their sitting in their waiting room but Minho isn’t anywhere. Key gets up and walks out of the room to look for him. Maybe this time they’d get to talk. Key finds him in the Super Junior Hyungs room , talking to Donghae who has a hand on his back gently rubbing it.
“ KEY ! “ Heechul shouts from inside and Minho looks up instantly. Donghae is whispering something to him. The older Diva runs forward and pulls Key into a hug.
“ Are you looking for Minho , he’s here come in, you two are so sweet , come on , DONGHAE MOVE OVER so the couple can sit together. “
Donghae is shooting dirty looks at Heechul because he obviously wasn’t informed that they fought.
“ Its okay , Key can sit here , I’m leaving already “ he stands up and tugs a little on his clothes before he makes his way out the door.
“ Minho “ Key stops him , but is dutifully ignored.
“Minho can i talk to you for a bit “
Heechul notices this and pushes them out of the room to the empty one opposite. “ Talk okay whatever it is , if I had the chance to talk before he left I would have, now go “
He shuts the door behind them.
Minho is by the door while Key is just a few steps in front. He doesn’t want to talk, because he was never good at it. Letting out a sigh he turns on his heels and opens the door.
“ Please “
Then he shuts it again.
He doesn’t want to turn back to face the boy , because he knows he’d give in immediately and not want to pick a fight anymore , because he missed that nagging boy.
He hears the boy walk closer and stop just behind him. Key tugs on his hand and holds it gently in his.
“ Its still swollen isn’t it ? “ he mutters.
The younger boy simply nods. Key runs his finger over it gently with pressure , trying to soothe the pain in his hand.
“ You should have told me ...... no , I should have noticed you were hurting “ Minho knows he meant something more than just his hand. Key continues rubbing it , trying to disperse the bruise under the skin.
Something catches his attention , its cool on his skin , like drops of sad rain. He looks up and sees a trail of tears running down Key’s face.
Key doesn’t realize Minho is starring and continues to rub the swollen hand. They’re both quiet , Minho deosn’t know how to face a crying diva , all he can do is stand there and not make a sound till Key was ready to speak.
He glances at his watch they’ve got five minutes more till they had to be on stage.
“ Kibum , we need to go , they’re probably looking for us”
“ but i want to talk to you , all we’ve done is fight “
“ later then “
Key knows that later , would probably be different. Later would mean Minho deciding that he didn’t want Key as a boyfriend anymore. Later would mean breaking up. Later would mean loosing everything he wants to say to this perfect guy in front of him. But he would have to wait for later anyway because Minho has already opened the door and walked out
The opened door lets him see , Minho and Donghae standing just slightly away , talking in low voices. Minho is shaking his head , while the hyung is offering some hushed advice.
Heechul looks up and shoots him questioning looks.
“ What happened ?”
He can’t speak because he knows the moment the first word comes out tears would fall carelessly down his cheeks and he wouldn’t know what excuse to make for his tear stricken face. So he shakes his head and walks away .
_____________________________________________________
Today he’d set Minho free.
Minho walks in from another overworked session of training for the next big episode of DreamTeam.
“ You’re back “
“ yea , why aren’t you sleeping yet ? “
“ I wanted to talk to you “
“ Oh , now ? “
“ If you don’t mind , we could talk another time “ trying his best to subtly rid the conversation so that he wouldn’t need to put both of them through this. But as much as he hates this , he hates floating in a sea of uncertainty much more.
“ Now’s as good as any other time “
He sits himself on the couch and waits for Key to sit beside him but he doesn't
“ Minho ..... would it be better ? “
Minho senses where this conversation is going and his eyes turn a different shade of brown. His heart seems to have stop beating in his own chest.
“ I mean we never properly talked about this but through out the last week I think we both got the idea so I thought we should just get this over and done with “
“ Ki Bum what are you doing ?”
“ I’m ..... “
“ What are you saying Ki Bum , are you asking me for a breakup? , “
“ I don’t want to ...... “
Then Minho realizes what all this was. Key had assumed that after a week of thinking for both parts, that Minho wanted a break up.
“ How could you ever , ever assume I want to break up with you “ Minho is more angry then he is hurt. Cause in the split second he felt like Key didn’t know him at all. Even more so after the recent events.
“ How could you ever think that I’d give up so easily , I just wanted time for both of us to cool it off , not break up with you. I wanted to apologize for that day , we should talk this through like adults but i guess... “
Key is helpless, Minho is crying and no one has seen that ever.
“ Minho.... “
“ This just makes me realize how much you really have yet to know about me Kibum “
HI heartbreaks so hard its shattering to pieces on the floor and Key doesn’t know if he could ever put it back together again. He sees the tears gently shaping Minho’s face. Minho reaches out and gently hold his hands, before digging into his pocket and placing a cold metal chain into the palms of Key’s hand.
“ I wanted to tell you that we should just start over, from day one, get to know each other and fall in love all over again. But maybe this could be easier, easier to get over and done with “
Key stares at the pretty chain pressed into the palms of his hands , but nothing could compare to the warmth and touch of Minho’s hands on his.
Minho lets go slowly , undoubtedly painfully of Key’s hand and walks away. All the diva hears is the light click of the knob . It was the second time he had walked out , and Key could only realize how disappointed Minho must be of him.
He wants to tell him that this is not what he wants. Key wants to push open the bedroom door and take back what he said, tell Minho he was just confused and that he wants to be with Minho for as long as time allows them too. But for once in his life courage escapes him and all he can do is sit by the door .
Its 4am in the morning and his still outside , everyone is asleep so no one knows his there. The cold draft from the kitchen window seeps through the gaps and crawls across the heated floors almost mocking them for their lack of use. It reaches Key and digs under his skin, but he is already to cold to move from where his is. His head resting in an awkward manner but he insists that his comfortable.
The door clicks again for the second time , its been 3 hours already since.
“ What the fuck Key ! “ Jonghyun exclaims , shaking Key lightly from his unconsciousness.
“ You scared the shit out of me , don’t you have a room to sleep in ? Its cold out here. “
“ I forgot to go back to the room “ Key mutters in reply.
“ Key are you alright ? “ Even in the dark , Jonghyun can see how colourless the younger boys face is.
“ hmmm “
Jonghyun steps closer and kneels down to pul the boy up to his feet.
“ Your skin is ice cold Key! Oh My God “ Jonghyun runs to his room and grabs the blanket of the bed and throws it around the shivering boy. The commotion doesn’t go unnoticed. Minho can only barely make out the conversation since their speaking in whispers. He pushes off his cover and walks quietly to the door careful not to make a sound. Peaking from the side he feels a cold hand clench relentlessly onto his heart.
“ Key .... Key.. do you want to go to a doctor ? “
“ hmmm its fine I’ll go back to my room “ Jonghyun tries to help him but Key refuses any sort of aid , he slips the blanket off his shoulders and hands it back to the confused boy. He stumbles a little while getting up , he knows it , he can feel it , that he is going to fall the moment he takes his first step towards his room. His legs are already frozen stiff from the cold. It happens and Key half expects to fall back to the floor or have Jonghyun catch him midway but both don’t happen. He finds himself slumped onto a taller warmer body.
Minho bites his tongue at the sudden chill from Key’s skin, but nothing hurts more than seeing Key like this.
“What are you doing Ki Bum , sitting out here in the cold?”
Key is pressed flushed against Minho , Jonghyun takes this as his cue to leave and walks into the triple room and decides to sleep on Key’s bed for the rest of his slumber.
“ I don’t want to break up with you “ Key mutters as he tries to steady himself up.
Minho is taken aback slightly.
“ I don’t want to be without you because thats just stupid. I’m sorry for everything for calling you childish , for taking you for granted , not caring how you feel .... “ he can’t finish because he starts to cough the cold must have gotten to him already.
“ Ki Bum I ... “
“ I’m sorry for asking us to break up , I’m sorry , ......... i really am ......”
Key’s crying into Minho shirt and its completely soaking up. Minho runs his fingers through the hair of the boy is his arms and whispers softly.
“ But if you think you still hate me ........ “
“ Shut up “ is Minho’s only reply before he leans down and runs a kiss across the Diva’s lips. Sweet and concluding.
Key lifts his hand and gently unclenches his fist. Inside gathers in a small neat pile in his palm was the chain that Minho had given him. It had made small dent marks because he had clutched it too tightly.
On it wrote.
If i had three wishes,
i'd wish for your happiness and
get my own for free.
Merry Christmas Kim Ki Bum