[FIC] Keeping The Change .Ten. ;PG-13
pairing : minkey
rating : pg-13 for now.
authors note : my new big project.
summary : when people have taken everything away from you , the only thing you can do , is try and take everything away from them.
YAY it works okay hardcore chapter now. writing the one after this right now.
COMMENT haha i'm holding the next chapter at ransom.
Lies and Losts
Lies and Losts
In the early morning when everything was still quiet to the world and everyone were still sound asleep Key slowly crept of Minho’s bed not before pressing a small kiss the his lips receiving a sight unconscious smile in return.
“ I love you , but please don’t be angry. I’ll see you when you’re back and find the courage to explain everything to you “ he whispers and quietly walks away letting himself out the door and to his. Changing and getting his belongings that had barely been unpack he leaves his keys at the front office. He steps out into the dim unlit morning and wonders where he should be heading. The concierge tells him they’ll send him to the train station because he would be in time for the first train back to Seoul.
The train ride was bleak and lonely , so different when he had taken it in the opposite direction. He switches his phone off not before sending Minho a message. As he leans his head back he finds the scenery no longer interesting without Minho by his side to enjoy it together.
How would he explain himself.
Maybe he should he should start off with telling Minho that he loved him. So much , so much it hurt everyday to think it had all started out as a game for him. That he regretted it and wanted to love Minho properly with this guilt rid of him.
When he gets home his mum is lack of anything but questions. Asking him why he was back 2 days earlier than planned or maybe they had fought , she asked Key not to be so stubborn because Minho was not one to let go off.
Two days passed and Key was slightly disappointed that Minho had not made any effort to contact him. Still he did tell Minho not to contact him till he got back because he needed time to think.
The day he sees Minho is 5 days later , work has just ended and he runs up to the boy a smile on his face ready to confess and face whatever there was to come. But as he reaches his hands out to hold the boy , he steps back.
Confused he takes a step forward one more time but it repeats itself and Minho distances himself further away.
“ Minho ? “ he asks.
Minho , his Minho , the one he now loved pulled out from behind him a familiar looking book and threw it at his feet.
“ You disappeared from me , i was so fucking worried Key , I sat there wondering if I had done something wrong, something that had mad you angry , made you walk away yet again. I sat there Key , i sat there and tried figure it out. I cried because i felt that you had sacrificed so much for me to be around Taemin and Jonghyun “
“ Minho , listen.......”
“ No , you listen. I’ve enough of listening to you and all these lies you’ve fabricated for me. I sat there and thought if I should dial your number , if i should leave right then and find you immediately to tell you I’d do everything and anything right again. I sat there till the cleaning lady handed me this book, she said she found it in your room Key. Your diary. Your dairy the one where you tell your secrets too , the one you told about how dumb and easy i was. How this was all revenge to put Taemin to tears and put the family in their place. “
Key hurriedly picks up the diary and flips to the most recent entries and tries to shove it into Minho’s hands.
“ No ... no , read the recent ones Minho , i changed my mind , i fell in lo....”
“ Get away from me “ he shouts and pushes Key away only to see the boy fling against the wall next to them. His shoulder hitting the wall with a resounding thud. The boy clutches on to his shoulder and tries again to get the boy to read his diary because it explained everything.
“ Minho , please just , I can explain , “ but Minho threw a punch at Key , only to hit the wall beside him.
“ Show your face one more time , and I’ll hit you Key , i really will cause my heart has been completely torn apart by you and I never fucking ever want to see you again Kim Ki Bum. “ He pushes himself away and turns his back.
Key runs after the boy and grabs onto his hand. Minho doesn’t even think twice before shoving the boy on to the floor. His knees are scraped and bleeding.
“ I loved you Key ! I fucking loved you , I loved you so much and how i wish this all wasn’t true that i’d wake up tomorrow and you’re the one I fell in love with, the one that didn’t write those things. The one i use to love “ he mutters from above.
The last few words hit Key worst than anything , a ton a bricks pounding him straight into the ground was nothing.
“ i left because i wanted to explain to you when you got back , i regretted everything i did Minho “
“ I can’t ever believe a thing you say anymore , ever. I have no more heart too”
Minho leaves and this time Key doesn’t hold him back. His love has run and gone out control. This was the day he dreaded the moment he fell in love. There was nothing to protect him anymore his vulnerable skin exposed for hurt , no thorns not pricks to hold back the pain around him. Because he had removed everything to be with Minho. Everything. Now he’s on the wet ground of an empty alley waiting for the world to eat him up alive.
When he manages to pick up the godforsaken book and drag himself off the ground, he stumbles across the empty roads at 4am in the morning oblivious to the rain , his body already cold from hurt. He finds himself outside Minho’s apartment block and he wants to hit himself inside. How did he become so spineless. Love came and went , so what was the big deal about loosing one now. How could he be crying his eyes out for a guy he had initially wanted to use in the first place.
“ Key ? “ He looks up and see’s Jinki standing worriedly with an umbrella over the both of them.
“ Jinki ... “ he mumbles in acknowledgment.
“ What are you doing outside here , its pouring and your clothes are drenched , does Minho know you’re here , come on hurry in i’ll find something for you to wear. “ he tries to usher the pitiful boy in but he doesn’t budge.
“ Minho won’t want to see me Jinki , i’ll go home now , thanks “ he quietly walks away back into the rain away from the shelter of Jinki’s umbrella.
“ Key ! ...... Key ! “
The boy disappears into the night. Jinki sighs and shakes his umbrella of water before taking the lift up to his floor. When he gets into the flat he see’s Minho lying on the couch , not drunk this time , but his eyes seemed glazed over with anger.
“ hey , i’m home “ the older one hangs up his coat and waits for some sort of response but is returned with silence.
“ I saw Key standing in the rain bellow our block “ he tries to get Minho’s attention. It works but not the way he wants it too.
“ Screw him , he’s probably here to tell me more lies “ Minho sits himself up and runs a hand through his hair.
“ His arm was red , his jeans scraped , without an umbrella too mind you , dripping from head to toe , but i’m sure you don’t care , so what happened this time “ Jinki sits himself down next to Minho who seems to let the things he just said run through his mind.
He notices Minho hasn’t even stole a glance at the window overlooking the entrance.
“ He lied , everything was a lie, i was a tool , a chess piece for him to take his fucking revenge on Taemin and his family , he didn’t love me at all Jinki , It was just a game “ he mumbles into his hand.
“ How did you find out ? “
“ I read his diary accidentally when he disappeared from us during the trip , he left it in his room “
Jinki shifts from his seat to the one beside Minho.
“ Did you let him explain himself ? Or did you just talk and leave him in the rain ? “ Age and wisdom run in direct proportions.
Minho tells him its not the point , he was hurt , betrayed and utterly broken apart. He cries a little , its awkward because he’s never cried in front of Jinki before. But he isn’t judged and Jinki has a arm over his shoulder telling him that he should think this through.
“ I should have just gone with Taemin and things wouldn’t have been like this “
“ Taemin is not your back wheel Minho , don’t , i beg you not to go to him and tell him your his to have , because we both know it will never be true . You love Key ! “ he is frantic , Minho rash actions are un thought and rough.
“ but , if I were with Taemin he’d be so happy. I owe it to him for hurting him this entire time Jinki , I owe it to them for believing in Key “
He stands up and looks at the insane boy , “ i’ve nothing to say Minho , do as you please , just keep the number of people you hurt at a minimal. I treat Taemin like a younger brother too , if your hurt him for no good reason, i’d hate you “ .
When Key returns home his mother is almost in tears at the sight of her son. His shivering so badly he can barely catch breaths. Forcing him into the bathroom to change , she tucks him under layers of blankets and quilt to try and bring warmth to his shaking bones. His mind is lost , he doesn’t seem to comprehend anything proper , everything is okay he thinks to himself. Subconsciously building a barrier to replace the torns that were once part of him. Minho’s face , his smile , his anger and his eyes were the only things drifting around in Key’s dream that night.
When he comes around in the evening the nest day , Key is burning up from the worst fever he has ever had. He wakes because of a incessant vibration coming from his bedside table. Taking his phone he flips it open and sees 7 messages and 5 missed calls from Jinki.
Jinki : Key , come and find Minho now , he’s gone crazy with talk about going overseas permanently with Taemin , we know his delusional. come tell him what really happened Key.
Jinki : Where are you ? He’s going to the mansion soon, he has completely disrespected me and what i have to say .
Jinki : Key your dad will never allow him to change his mind.......
Jinki : Key , save both of you , Minho will regret this , he’ll hurt himself , you and taemin.
There was nothing to explain to Minho anymore , because he would not believe anything Key had to say.
Key : He wont listen , but i’ll come I need to see Taemin.
Key puts on whatever he thinks might be appropriate to let the person you love go. He finds nothing in his closet and decides on something simple . His mum is worried that something might happen because last night almost cause her a heart attack finding Key so broken at their door step.
“ i’ll be fine , i’m strong am I not , I’ve never let you down right mum ? “ he asks as he kisses he on the cheek.
“ But you have never fallen in love Ki Bum “
“ Its like everything else mum “ he bids her goodbye and takes a longer walk to the mansion.
When he reaches the gates Jinki is waiting outside for him. He almost screams when he realizes how warm Key is. His skin is scorching hot , and his pupils are more or less dilated.
“ Key , talk to him , tell him , all of you are going to regret this “ he begs Key to change Minho’s mind.
The mansion is crowded to Key’s surprise , a gathering to celebrate his sadness how appropriate. Jinki tells him that Taemin originally had organized a gathering with his friends before Minho decide to barge in with his ideas and crazy speech.
“ So look who decided to turn up “ the voice makes Key want to hurl, he looks up to his step mother sitting by the biggest seat in the living room. Her eyes amused and obviously very pleased.
“ I’m here to talk to Taemin , just .... just for while “ he hates how the room is stuffy and he can barely breathe . Its hot and he’s starting perspire.
“ Hyung ! “ Taemin runs forward and meets him, his eyes bright obviously with joy , but you can tell he’s careful not to hurt Key. When he catches on to Key his eyes go bigger.
“ Key hyung , your burning “ he mutters. It doesn’t go unheard to Minho who’s behind him. His eyes looking everywhere but Key.
“ Taemin can i talk to you for awhile “ the boy nods and was ready to follow Key before Minho catches the younger boy.
“ Anything you want to say in front of him , you can say here , in front of me“ His words are bitingly painful, and Key bites onto his cheek to old in the tears.
“ You’re right. Taemin , I wanted to tell you that I’m sorry , I hated you I hated this family , I hated everyone here, but you know good always wins. You’ve got him now hold on tight , don’t let go. He’s the best that there is now. I.... I wanted to return this “ His eyes look occasionally at Minho who has the most confused look on his face. If he was going to loose he was going to loose with his head held high.
He reaches into his pocket and pulls out a funny looking stone attached to a necklace.
Taemin made it for him the first day they met. Key kept it because he thought it reminded him of how stupid Taemin was , but it actually reminded him how much he envied Taemin.
“ Hyung ...”
“ I need a drink “ he stumbles around the people to the table where the drinks were and grabs a shot of vodka off the table downing it immediately.
“ Come on guys , cheers to love lost and found , to my brother and his boyfriend “ He toasts and everyone is cheering away ignorant to what was really happening.
Jinki walks up to Minho with the hardest look he can manage. “ Don’t regret this , you don’t know how hard Key is holding himself back for you right now “.
Minho watches Key , walk around as though yesterday didn’t happen. That he didn’t shove Key against a wall , that he didn’t shout at the boy in the alley way. The boy doesn’t stop with the alcohol toasting with random people , while others kept feeding him drinks which Key didn’t even bother to refuse. What was this act , was this another lie , or had Key become someone even Minho couldn’t read anymore.
Jinki is close behind the prancing boy. Everyone in the crowd is all smiles and laughs but Minho’s eyes never leave Key. He see’s his eyes suddenly shut and the boy fall backwards, his instinct is to run forward but Jinki catches the fallen boy in time.
“ Key “ he mutters “ Key , come on we should leave “ He props Key up with his shoulders and tries to stumble through the crowd.
Minho watches this his heart aching all over again. This was not Key , Kim Ki Bum was never like this. he felt like he was watching an impending disastrous end. Unknowingly his feet carry him out the door to the drive through, Taemin close behind.
Jinki tries to hold Key down but the boy is frantic , but what could a clumsy one do with a crazy one.
“ Minho hyung “ Taemin calls out to the man in front of him.
Minho stops in his tracks and looks behind. Jonghyun is standing next to Taemin his eyes are telling Minho to choose his actions wisely. But all Minho’s heart is telling him is to go after Key because he might never see Key again .
“ I can’t “ he mutters and run’s after the two of them. He thanks the gods that they haven’t made it very far
“ Key ? Key?... Key , baby , talk to me , look at me “ he holds on to the frail form in front of him , the one that had always been unbreakable.
Jonghyun runs after him and grabs Minho by the arm “ You said you were sure , you said you knew what you were doing , What the FUCK ARE YOU DOING MINHO ?! “
“ he’ll die “ is all Minho can manage as he tries to shake Key out of his reverie.
“ Go away Minho , go and be with Taemin fly away together, i was so much stronger without you “ he mumbles and he tries to run free of his grasps.
“ Key please , please I’m sorry .... “ Key pushes himself aways and runs towards Jinki.
“ Bring me away please “ he begs and Jinki can only nod. He looks to Minho who has his heart in his mouth. The only thing he can do is follow behind the two.
Key decides against going home because he would never let his mum see him in such a horrible state. He talk to Jinki as though Minho is not there. They get on random buses and finally reach a lake , the huge lake at Minho’s school. The one Key came too before he met Minho. It was a beautiful lake and the air was the freshest there.
The sit by the edge and Key is leaning his weight on Jinki while they talk , only Key talks , Jinki just listens. Its weird because they were never close , but Jinki knows enough about Key. Minho only can watch.
“ I wish Minho were here with me , but he’s going so far away now “ he plays with the leaves on the ground around him. “ I .. I wish I had thrown that diary away because I changed Jinki , I changed for him , I pulled out everything that was bad about me to be with Minho. I pulled out everything that made me , me for him. I have no more defenses Jinki. “ He kicks his legs at the edge of the water splashing it a little.
“ Key “ Minho calls out and Key turns to look at him.
“ I’m sorry , Jinki , do we know him ? “
rating : pg-13 for now.
authors note : my new big project.
summary : when people have taken everything away from you , the only thing you can do , is try and take everything away from them.
YAY it works okay hardcore chapter now. writing the one after this right now.
COMMENT haha i'm holding the next chapter at ransom.
Lies and Losts
Lies and Losts
In the early morning when everything was still quiet to the world and everyone were still sound asleep Key slowly crept of Minho’s bed not before pressing a small kiss the his lips receiving a sight unconscious smile in return.
“ I love you , but please don’t be angry. I’ll see you when you’re back and find the courage to explain everything to you “ he whispers and quietly walks away letting himself out the door and to his. Changing and getting his belongings that had barely been unpack he leaves his keys at the front office. He steps out into the dim unlit morning and wonders where he should be heading. The concierge tells him they’ll send him to the train station because he would be in time for the first train back to Seoul.
The train ride was bleak and lonely , so different when he had taken it in the opposite direction. He switches his phone off not before sending Minho a message. As he leans his head back he finds the scenery no longer interesting without Minho by his side to enjoy it together.
How would he explain himself.
Maybe he should he should start off with telling Minho that he loved him. So much , so much it hurt everyday to think it had all started out as a game for him. That he regretted it and wanted to love Minho properly with this guilt rid of him.
When he gets home his mum is lack of anything but questions. Asking him why he was back 2 days earlier than planned or maybe they had fought , she asked Key not to be so stubborn because Minho was not one to let go off.
Two days passed and Key was slightly disappointed that Minho had not made any effort to contact him. Still he did tell Minho not to contact him till he got back because he needed time to think.
The day he sees Minho is 5 days later , work has just ended and he runs up to the boy a smile on his face ready to confess and face whatever there was to come. But as he reaches his hands out to hold the boy , he steps back.
Confused he takes a step forward one more time but it repeats itself and Minho distances himself further away.
“ Minho ? “ he asks.
Minho , his Minho , the one he now loved pulled out from behind him a familiar looking book and threw it at his feet.
“ You disappeared from me , i was so fucking worried Key , I sat there wondering if I had done something wrong, something that had mad you angry , made you walk away yet again. I sat there Key , i sat there and tried figure it out. I cried because i felt that you had sacrificed so much for me to be around Taemin and Jonghyun “
“ Minho , listen.......”
“ No , you listen. I’ve enough of listening to you and all these lies you’ve fabricated for me. I sat there and thought if I should dial your number , if i should leave right then and find you immediately to tell you I’d do everything and anything right again. I sat there till the cleaning lady handed me this book, she said she found it in your room Key. Your diary. Your dairy the one where you tell your secrets too , the one you told about how dumb and easy i was. How this was all revenge to put Taemin to tears and put the family in their place. “
Key hurriedly picks up the diary and flips to the most recent entries and tries to shove it into Minho’s hands.
“ No ... no , read the recent ones Minho , i changed my mind , i fell in lo....”
“ Get away from me “ he shouts and pushes Key away only to see the boy fling against the wall next to them. His shoulder hitting the wall with a resounding thud. The boy clutches on to his shoulder and tries again to get the boy to read his diary because it explained everything.
“ Minho , please just , I can explain , “ but Minho threw a punch at Key , only to hit the wall beside him.
“ Show your face one more time , and I’ll hit you Key , i really will cause my heart has been completely torn apart by you and I never fucking ever want to see you again Kim Ki Bum. “ He pushes himself away and turns his back.
Key runs after the boy and grabs onto his hand. Minho doesn’t even think twice before shoving the boy on to the floor. His knees are scraped and bleeding.
“ I loved you Key ! I fucking loved you , I loved you so much and how i wish this all wasn’t true that i’d wake up tomorrow and you’re the one I fell in love with, the one that didn’t write those things. The one i use to love “ he mutters from above.
The last few words hit Key worst than anything , a ton a bricks pounding him straight into the ground was nothing.
“ i left because i wanted to explain to you when you got back , i regretted everything i did Minho “
“ I can’t ever believe a thing you say anymore , ever. I have no more heart too”
Minho leaves and this time Key doesn’t hold him back. His love has run and gone out control. This was the day he dreaded the moment he fell in love. There was nothing to protect him anymore his vulnerable skin exposed for hurt , no thorns not pricks to hold back the pain around him. Because he had removed everything to be with Minho. Everything. Now he’s on the wet ground of an empty alley waiting for the world to eat him up alive.
When he manages to pick up the godforsaken book and drag himself off the ground, he stumbles across the empty roads at 4am in the morning oblivious to the rain , his body already cold from hurt. He finds himself outside Minho’s apartment block and he wants to hit himself inside. How did he become so spineless. Love came and went , so what was the big deal about loosing one now. How could he be crying his eyes out for a guy he had initially wanted to use in the first place.
“ Key ? “ He looks up and see’s Jinki standing worriedly with an umbrella over the both of them.
“ Jinki ... “ he mumbles in acknowledgment.
“ What are you doing outside here , its pouring and your clothes are drenched , does Minho know you’re here , come on hurry in i’ll find something for you to wear. “ he tries to usher the pitiful boy in but he doesn’t budge.
“ Minho won’t want to see me Jinki , i’ll go home now , thanks “ he quietly walks away back into the rain away from the shelter of Jinki’s umbrella.
“ Key ! ...... Key ! “
The boy disappears into the night. Jinki sighs and shakes his umbrella of water before taking the lift up to his floor. When he gets into the flat he see’s Minho lying on the couch , not drunk this time , but his eyes seemed glazed over with anger.
“ hey , i’m home “ the older one hangs up his coat and waits for some sort of response but is returned with silence.
“ I saw Key standing in the rain bellow our block “ he tries to get Minho’s attention. It works but not the way he wants it too.
“ Screw him , he’s probably here to tell me more lies “ Minho sits himself up and runs a hand through his hair.
“ His arm was red , his jeans scraped , without an umbrella too mind you , dripping from head to toe , but i’m sure you don’t care , so what happened this time “ Jinki sits himself down next to Minho who seems to let the things he just said run through his mind.
He notices Minho hasn’t even stole a glance at the window overlooking the entrance.
“ He lied , everything was a lie, i was a tool , a chess piece for him to take his fucking revenge on Taemin and his family , he didn’t love me at all Jinki , It was just a game “ he mumbles into his hand.
“ How did you find out ? “
“ I read his diary accidentally when he disappeared from us during the trip , he left it in his room “
Jinki shifts from his seat to the one beside Minho.
“ Did you let him explain himself ? Or did you just talk and leave him in the rain ? “ Age and wisdom run in direct proportions.
Minho tells him its not the point , he was hurt , betrayed and utterly broken apart. He cries a little , its awkward because he’s never cried in front of Jinki before. But he isn’t judged and Jinki has a arm over his shoulder telling him that he should think this through.
“ I should have just gone with Taemin and things wouldn’t have been like this “
“ Taemin is not your back wheel Minho , don’t , i beg you not to go to him and tell him your his to have , because we both know it will never be true . You love Key ! “ he is frantic , Minho rash actions are un thought and rough.
“ but , if I were with Taemin he’d be so happy. I owe it to him for hurting him this entire time Jinki , I owe it to them for believing in Key “
He stands up and looks at the insane boy , “ i’ve nothing to say Minho , do as you please , just keep the number of people you hurt at a minimal. I treat Taemin like a younger brother too , if your hurt him for no good reason, i’d hate you “ .
When Key returns home his mother is almost in tears at the sight of her son. His shivering so badly he can barely catch breaths. Forcing him into the bathroom to change , she tucks him under layers of blankets and quilt to try and bring warmth to his shaking bones. His mind is lost , he doesn’t seem to comprehend anything proper , everything is okay he thinks to himself. Subconsciously building a barrier to replace the torns that were once part of him. Minho’s face , his smile , his anger and his eyes were the only things drifting around in Key’s dream that night.
When he comes around in the evening the nest day , Key is burning up from the worst fever he has ever had. He wakes because of a incessant vibration coming from his bedside table. Taking his phone he flips it open and sees 7 messages and 5 missed calls from Jinki.
Jinki : Key , come and find Minho now , he’s gone crazy with talk about going overseas permanently with Taemin , we know his delusional. come tell him what really happened Key.
Jinki : Where are you ? He’s going to the mansion soon, he has completely disrespected me and what i have to say .
Jinki : Key your dad will never allow him to change his mind.......
Jinki : Key , save both of you , Minho will regret this , he’ll hurt himself , you and taemin.
There was nothing to explain to Minho anymore , because he would not believe anything Key had to say.
Key : He wont listen , but i’ll come I need to see Taemin.
Key puts on whatever he thinks might be appropriate to let the person you love go. He finds nothing in his closet and decides on something simple . His mum is worried that something might happen because last night almost cause her a heart attack finding Key so broken at their door step.
“ i’ll be fine , i’m strong am I not , I’ve never let you down right mum ? “ he asks as he kisses he on the cheek.
“ But you have never fallen in love Ki Bum “
“ Its like everything else mum “ he bids her goodbye and takes a longer walk to the mansion.
When he reaches the gates Jinki is waiting outside for him. He almost screams when he realizes how warm Key is. His skin is scorching hot , and his pupils are more or less dilated.
“ Key , talk to him , tell him , all of you are going to regret this “ he begs Key to change Minho’s mind.
The mansion is crowded to Key’s surprise , a gathering to celebrate his sadness how appropriate. Jinki tells him that Taemin originally had organized a gathering with his friends before Minho decide to barge in with his ideas and crazy speech.
“ So look who decided to turn up “ the voice makes Key want to hurl, he looks up to his step mother sitting by the biggest seat in the living room. Her eyes amused and obviously very pleased.
“ I’m here to talk to Taemin , just .... just for while “ he hates how the room is stuffy and he can barely breathe . Its hot and he’s starting perspire.
“ Hyung ! “ Taemin runs forward and meets him, his eyes bright obviously with joy , but you can tell he’s careful not to hurt Key. When he catches on to Key his eyes go bigger.
“ Key hyung , your burning “ he mutters. It doesn’t go unheard to Minho who’s behind him. His eyes looking everywhere but Key.
“ Taemin can i talk to you for awhile “ the boy nods and was ready to follow Key before Minho catches the younger boy.
“ Anything you want to say in front of him , you can say here , in front of me“ His words are bitingly painful, and Key bites onto his cheek to old in the tears.
“ You’re right. Taemin , I wanted to tell you that I’m sorry , I hated you I hated this family , I hated everyone here, but you know good always wins. You’ve got him now hold on tight , don’t let go. He’s the best that there is now. I.... I wanted to return this “ His eyes look occasionally at Minho who has the most confused look on his face. If he was going to loose he was going to loose with his head held high.
He reaches into his pocket and pulls out a funny looking stone attached to a necklace.
Taemin made it for him the first day they met. Key kept it because he thought it reminded him of how stupid Taemin was , but it actually reminded him how much he envied Taemin.
“ Hyung ...”
“ I need a drink “ he stumbles around the people to the table where the drinks were and grabs a shot of vodka off the table downing it immediately.
“ Come on guys , cheers to love lost and found , to my brother and his boyfriend “ He toasts and everyone is cheering away ignorant to what was really happening.
Jinki walks up to Minho with the hardest look he can manage. “ Don’t regret this , you don’t know how hard Key is holding himself back for you right now “.
Minho watches Key , walk around as though yesterday didn’t happen. That he didn’t shove Key against a wall , that he didn’t shout at the boy in the alley way. The boy doesn’t stop with the alcohol toasting with random people , while others kept feeding him drinks which Key didn’t even bother to refuse. What was this act , was this another lie , or had Key become someone even Minho couldn’t read anymore.
Jinki is close behind the prancing boy. Everyone in the crowd is all smiles and laughs but Minho’s eyes never leave Key. He see’s his eyes suddenly shut and the boy fall backwards, his instinct is to run forward but Jinki catches the fallen boy in time.
“ Key “ he mutters “ Key , come on we should leave “ He props Key up with his shoulders and tries to stumble through the crowd.
Minho watches this his heart aching all over again. This was not Key , Kim Ki Bum was never like this. he felt like he was watching an impending disastrous end. Unknowingly his feet carry him out the door to the drive through, Taemin close behind.
Jinki tries to hold Key down but the boy is frantic , but what could a clumsy one do with a crazy one.
“ Minho hyung “ Taemin calls out to the man in front of him.
Minho stops in his tracks and looks behind. Jonghyun is standing next to Taemin his eyes are telling Minho to choose his actions wisely. But all Minho’s heart is telling him is to go after Key because he might never see Key again .
“ I can’t “ he mutters and run’s after the two of them. He thanks the gods that they haven’t made it very far
“ Key ? Key?... Key , baby , talk to me , look at me “ he holds on to the frail form in front of him , the one that had always been unbreakable.
Jonghyun runs after him and grabs Minho by the arm “ You said you were sure , you said you knew what you were doing , What the FUCK ARE YOU DOING MINHO ?! “
“ he’ll die “ is all Minho can manage as he tries to shake Key out of his reverie.
“ Go away Minho , go and be with Taemin fly away together, i was so much stronger without you “ he mumbles and he tries to run free of his grasps.
“ Key please , please I’m sorry .... “ Key pushes himself aways and runs towards Jinki.
“ Bring me away please “ he begs and Jinki can only nod. He looks to Minho who has his heart in his mouth. The only thing he can do is follow behind the two.
Key decides against going home because he would never let his mum see him in such a horrible state. He talk to Jinki as though Minho is not there. They get on random buses and finally reach a lake , the huge lake at Minho’s school. The one Key came too before he met Minho. It was a beautiful lake and the air was the freshest there.
The sit by the edge and Key is leaning his weight on Jinki while they talk , only Key talks , Jinki just listens. Its weird because they were never close , but Jinki knows enough about Key. Minho only can watch.
“ I wish Minho were here with me , but he’s going so far away now “ he plays with the leaves on the ground around him. “ I .. I wish I had thrown that diary away because I changed Jinki , I changed for him , I pulled out everything that was bad about me to be with Minho. I pulled out everything that made me , me for him. I have no more defenses Jinki. “ He kicks his legs at the edge of the water splashing it a little.
“ Key “ Minho calls out and Key turns to look at him.
“ I’m sorry , Jinki , do we know him ? “