[FIC] Keeping The Change .Eleven. ;PG-13
pairing : minkey
rating : pg-13 for now.
authors note : my new big project.
summary : when people have taken everything away from you , the only thing you can do , is try and take everything away from them.
A couple of chapters more and its going to be over !!!!
Delusions.
Delusions.
“ I’m sorry , Jinki , do we know him ? “
Jinki looks at him completely shocked at the words that are falling out from Key’s mouth. “ Key , its Minho, thats Minho. “ he answers
Key laughs and tells Jinki he’s lying because Minho was with Taemin and that he’d never come after him. Minho wasn’t his anymore.
Minho rushes to his side, “ Key its me Minho , your Minho , look at me. “
“ Minho ? You’re not him , don’t lie , I’m sure i can recognize the person I love. “ He turns back to Jinki who reaches out and presses his palm to Key’s forehead.
Jinki jumps and hurriedly grabs Key up. “ Minho he’s burning up much worst that just now we need to bring him to the hospital “
Key’s protests to go home instead is unheard and Minho picks him up effortlessly and they run towards the university hospital. The sick child is muttering incoherently , mind delusional and lost from the fever. He’s shouting to get some attention when he reaches the emergency area. When a doctor reaches them , he’s pushed away so that they are able to examine Key in peace.
“ Jinki ..... what have I done ? “ he mumbles his fists pounding against the wall in the waiting area.
“ We both know this is your rashness biting you hard. Key will be fine, at least I pray that he will. “ Jinki sits down on the old overused couch waiting for the doctors results. The man in the white coat walks in after half and hour with a solem look on his face.
“ Are you his family member ? “
Minho’s brain goes blank for a moment , but JInki is fast enough for once and tell the doctor he is.
“ Your brother has be diagnosed with pneumonia , its very serious due to the fact that the infection has gone down into his lungs already. I’m baffled at why no one brought him here earlier. It would have been much easier to treat. We’ll be keeping him in the ICU for the next couple of days because his condition would be at extremes. He could get well really fast or completely lose it. “
Minho is slumped on the floor the moment her hears the last few words. Regret is eating him bit by bit. He didn’t care what Key had done, he just wanted him to be safe , safe enough so that he could punch MInho and ask why he had been such a idiot.
They are told to wait for a while till the hospital had the room ready for him to be transferred. Key’s has wires plugged into him, he’s saying things Minho can’t make sense. But he knows he hears one thing right. He tells Jinki to look for Minho because he wants to tell Minho the truth.
“ Minho doesn’t care anymore Jinki , he doesn’t care. I’m back to where i came from. Alone. Always alone “ he mumbles into the mask. The fever has obviously short circuited his brain pulling him further away from reality by the second.
“ Key I care , I care I’ll find that Minho and beat him up till he can’t stand anymore, because he did this to you. What was he thinking to not believe you.” he doesn’t bother to hide his tears. His hand a vice grip on Key’s one.
Jinki returns after calling Key’s mother. As much as Key didn’t want it , personal choice was not in line at a time like this.
Time seems to come to a stand still where they were , even when when nurses come in and wheel a already sleeping Key out the room everything seems frozen cold. It a matter of time they see is mother close to crying trying her best to hurry to where they were.
Jinki tells her the best he can , and puts things as optimistically as possible. Minho holds on to her before she falls in fear and shock.
“ I should never have let him leave the house , I ..... he was so sick but he kept insisting telling me that you were meeting him , that he had to see you today. He came home drenched and shivering last night. “ She tries to recount what happened but she doesn’t finish and she’s gripping on to Minho for dear life telling him she can’t loose Key like she did Gwiboon.
“ Minho , i don’t know what happened but ...... but if you could just pretend , pretend for me that you still love Key maybe he’ll get better faster then after that I’ll tell him never to bother you again. “ She’s fallen on her knees begging the boy and Minho hurriedly pulls her up telling her there was nothing to pretend. That he loved Key so much thats why it hurt even more when he read the diary.
Minho looks at Key through the glass window while the nurses hook him up to even more machines. He realised how skinny the boy had seemed to become. His warm fingers almost completely bones and his cheeks were now hollow and sunken.
The doctor leaves the room after making sure everything is proper.
“ I’ve given him all the necessary medication. Once he’s crossed 2 nights , his condition should stabilize, so hold on to him as best as you can for this 2 nights. He’s fever has caused some slight delusion but it won’t last too long “
Two nights.
“ He always said he ate when he came home late , he hasn’t eaten at home in a week. Telling me his full or that he had dinner with you “
“ I haven’t met him in almost a week. “ he replies.
Key’s mum is speechless , but not surprised. The last thing Key would ever do is to make her worry. She remembers something and reaches into her bag before pulling out the book that had burn through everything like a wild uncontrollable fire.
“ He threw it aside after he came back from the rain. Its more or less dried i think. I never read it but i think you should read it. “ She pushes the book into Minho’s hand. “ As a mother, I don’t think I know my own son as well as i should. He’s always so strong and independent. This diary is the only thing he confides in and there would be no reason to lie. Read it , finish it and then decide if you can find it in your heart to forgive him for whatever he has done. “
He holds the book in his hand its different from the last time he’s seen it. Dent marks and smudged sides give it a new cover. As much as reading this would hurt him , he had to , he owed to Key. He sits by the bed never ever wanting to so much as move his chair away. When sleep overwhelmed him , he simply laid his head on the side of the bed waiting for Key to finally wake up.
Time passed slowly , too slowly for his liking. Because the sooner the two days were up , the sooner he could be with Key again. He picks up the book from the table beside him and gingerly flips through it. He see’s the entries he read before and bites his tongue to not the emotions get the best of him. But as the days in the diary passed Key’s emotions changed bit by bit. From the biting sarcastic person he was , he seemed to have been rid of everything. This person was learning to be understanding, trying to look at things from more than a singular point of view. This person believed that there was something in the world now to believe in. Key wrote about Minho , how he made him grow , how he loved him never missing to write the little bits of how Minho had made him fall and believe in love.
Day 70
Minho picked me up today , he told me he’d taken the day off for me already and we went out to catch a movie. I write like a love sick school girl but someone cares for me now besides mum. its heart warming. Should i even tell him my initial intentions. I know he will hate me and then i’ll be alone again.
Day 90
I’ve no more pride left I’ve opened myself to him completely. My torns were thrown out to sea. I hope this makes things better between us. i’m willing to learn how to change.
Day 150
We’re going on a trip next week. I’ll tell Minho the truth , i hope he loves me enough to forgive. Sometimes I secretly think that Minho still has a small part of his heart dedicated to Taemin. Because I’d never be able to hold any power against him. He is kind , beautiful and forgiving. I’m the opposite. I’m scared Minho will realize this one day.
Day 157
I’ve lost. Minho is Taemin’s for the taking. He read you. And i’m back where I started. Diary , who will love me now.
Minho shuts the book not willing to read every entry because he knew for certain he’d break apart from the boys honesty and sincerity. Taking Key’s hand in his he holds it against his cheeks. The beeping from the machines become faster and small tiny minute words fall from his dried parch lips.
A nurse rushes in and checks the machines with the most terrified look on her face.
“ Whats wrong ? “ he asks curious of her fumbling of the buttons.
‘ Give me a second “ she ignores Minho’s anxiety and continues, before he knows he she has run out the door shouting for the doctor.
He isn’t sure what is happening or why everyone was panicking .
“ key , key .... baby , whats wrong, “ There isn’t much of a reply , but Key starts to cry , shouting and screaming in pain. The doctors come in Minho is dragged aside not without a fight , he tells them he wants to know whats wrong but they’re all silent trying their best to save Key from whatever it was.
“ Wait outside sir , he’s almost not going to make it. “
Minho slumps against the door , Jinki rushes over and holds him up.
“ Don’t go .... not now , not like this “ he cries. Key had a whole day more before he was past the safe zone.
It feels like months and years before the door swings open and the doctors step out.
“ We managed to pull him back, he’s fighting really hard , keep talking to him it helps , he’ll wake up soon , tomorrow latest. “ They leave and Minho finds his place next to Key again. Silent from fear , tired from the lack of rest , he’s almost as frail as the sick boy. Zombie, he looked like a zombie in Jinki’s eyes. Hair unkept because he didn’t bother with it after showering. They stopped by the grocer to pick up some food and went straight to the hospital.
Why was this happening to Key , of all the people in the world. Key was just fighting to live from the start , he never meant real harm. He hated but he loved , and in loving he made up for all the hatred.
The book keeps creeping to the corner of his eye. Minho’s not sure if he should , he couldn’t cry anymore. He reached over and pulled it towards him. Flipping through the entries he read he realized an envelope wedged in between that wasn’t there before. He picks it out and looks over for a name or initials. There was a tiny post it pasted at the back in familiar hand writing.
Minho
I found this in the mail box you were sleeping when i came back I didn’t want to wake you so i kept it here hope you see this. I think Key left in our mail box that night when it was raining it was wet when i found it , hope the letter is not smudged.
Jinki
Letter from Key ? He sticks the note in the book and proceeds to open the envelope. Its crumpled and weirdly crisp.
Minho :
Its been a day since everything ended. Its been the longest day of my life. The thin line that exists between love and hate is too fine and I never noticed how delicate it was.
I’m sorry , but I know it wouldn’t break through the ice you’ve built between us. I don’t need you to forgive me because I wouldn’t have either. If there was even a tiny part of your heart that still sort out for me please come to the club tomorrow. I wanted to say all this in person so I waited but you never came out. I figured you wouldn’t so i wrote this. Thank you for everything you’ve given me. I don’t know what to say now really, just that i hope you’ll read this. This might be the last thing I ever write if I don’t see you tomorrow. I love you Minho , with everything I could ever give to you.
Your’s Sincerely
Key
rating : pg-13 for now.
authors note : my new big project.
summary : when people have taken everything away from you , the only thing you can do , is try and take everything away from them.
A couple of chapters more and its going to be over !!!!
Delusions.
Delusions.
“ I’m sorry , Jinki , do we know him ? “
Jinki looks at him completely shocked at the words that are falling out from Key’s mouth. “ Key , its Minho, thats Minho. “ he answers
Key laughs and tells Jinki he’s lying because Minho was with Taemin and that he’d never come after him. Minho wasn’t his anymore.
Minho rushes to his side, “ Key its me Minho , your Minho , look at me. “
“ Minho ? You’re not him , don’t lie , I’m sure i can recognize the person I love. “ He turns back to Jinki who reaches out and presses his palm to Key’s forehead.
Jinki jumps and hurriedly grabs Key up. “ Minho he’s burning up much worst that just now we need to bring him to the hospital “
Key’s protests to go home instead is unheard and Minho picks him up effortlessly and they run towards the university hospital. The sick child is muttering incoherently , mind delusional and lost from the fever. He’s shouting to get some attention when he reaches the emergency area. When a doctor reaches them , he’s pushed away so that they are able to examine Key in peace.
“ Jinki ..... what have I done ? “ he mumbles his fists pounding against the wall in the waiting area.
“ We both know this is your rashness biting you hard. Key will be fine, at least I pray that he will. “ Jinki sits down on the old overused couch waiting for the doctors results. The man in the white coat walks in after half and hour with a solem look on his face.
“ Are you his family member ? “
Minho’s brain goes blank for a moment , but JInki is fast enough for once and tell the doctor he is.
“ Your brother has be diagnosed with pneumonia , its very serious due to the fact that the infection has gone down into his lungs already. I’m baffled at why no one brought him here earlier. It would have been much easier to treat. We’ll be keeping him in the ICU for the next couple of days because his condition would be at extremes. He could get well really fast or completely lose it. “
Minho is slumped on the floor the moment her hears the last few words. Regret is eating him bit by bit. He didn’t care what Key had done, he just wanted him to be safe , safe enough so that he could punch MInho and ask why he had been such a idiot.
They are told to wait for a while till the hospital had the room ready for him to be transferred. Key’s has wires plugged into him, he’s saying things Minho can’t make sense. But he knows he hears one thing right. He tells Jinki to look for Minho because he wants to tell Minho the truth.
“ Minho doesn’t care anymore Jinki , he doesn’t care. I’m back to where i came from. Alone. Always alone “ he mumbles into the mask. The fever has obviously short circuited his brain pulling him further away from reality by the second.
“ Key I care , I care I’ll find that Minho and beat him up till he can’t stand anymore, because he did this to you. What was he thinking to not believe you.” he doesn’t bother to hide his tears. His hand a vice grip on Key’s one.
Jinki returns after calling Key’s mother. As much as Key didn’t want it , personal choice was not in line at a time like this.
Time seems to come to a stand still where they were , even when when nurses come in and wheel a already sleeping Key out the room everything seems frozen cold. It a matter of time they see is mother close to crying trying her best to hurry to where they were.
Jinki tells her the best he can , and puts things as optimistically as possible. Minho holds on to her before she falls in fear and shock.
“ I should never have let him leave the house , I ..... he was so sick but he kept insisting telling me that you were meeting him , that he had to see you today. He came home drenched and shivering last night. “ She tries to recount what happened but she doesn’t finish and she’s gripping on to Minho for dear life telling him she can’t loose Key like she did Gwiboon.
“ Minho , i don’t know what happened but ...... but if you could just pretend , pretend for me that you still love Key maybe he’ll get better faster then after that I’ll tell him never to bother you again. “ She’s fallen on her knees begging the boy and Minho hurriedly pulls her up telling her there was nothing to pretend. That he loved Key so much thats why it hurt even more when he read the diary.
Minho looks at Key through the glass window while the nurses hook him up to even more machines. He realised how skinny the boy had seemed to become. His warm fingers almost completely bones and his cheeks were now hollow and sunken.
The doctor leaves the room after making sure everything is proper.
“ I’ve given him all the necessary medication. Once he’s crossed 2 nights , his condition should stabilize, so hold on to him as best as you can for this 2 nights. He’s fever has caused some slight delusion but it won’t last too long “
Two nights.
“ He always said he ate when he came home late , he hasn’t eaten at home in a week. Telling me his full or that he had dinner with you “
“ I haven’t met him in almost a week. “ he replies.
Key’s mum is speechless , but not surprised. The last thing Key would ever do is to make her worry. She remembers something and reaches into her bag before pulling out the book that had burn through everything like a wild uncontrollable fire.
“ He threw it aside after he came back from the rain. Its more or less dried i think. I never read it but i think you should read it. “ She pushes the book into Minho’s hand. “ As a mother, I don’t think I know my own son as well as i should. He’s always so strong and independent. This diary is the only thing he confides in and there would be no reason to lie. Read it , finish it and then decide if you can find it in your heart to forgive him for whatever he has done. “
He holds the book in his hand its different from the last time he’s seen it. Dent marks and smudged sides give it a new cover. As much as reading this would hurt him , he had to , he owed to Key. He sits by the bed never ever wanting to so much as move his chair away. When sleep overwhelmed him , he simply laid his head on the side of the bed waiting for Key to finally wake up.
Time passed slowly , too slowly for his liking. Because the sooner the two days were up , the sooner he could be with Key again. He picks up the book from the table beside him and gingerly flips through it. He see’s the entries he read before and bites his tongue to not the emotions get the best of him. But as the days in the diary passed Key’s emotions changed bit by bit. From the biting sarcastic person he was , he seemed to have been rid of everything. This person was learning to be understanding, trying to look at things from more than a singular point of view. This person believed that there was something in the world now to believe in. Key wrote about Minho , how he made him grow , how he loved him never missing to write the little bits of how Minho had made him fall and believe in love.
Day 70
Minho picked me up today , he told me he’d taken the day off for me already and we went out to catch a movie. I write like a love sick school girl but someone cares for me now besides mum. its heart warming. Should i even tell him my initial intentions. I know he will hate me and then i’ll be alone again.
Day 90
I’ve no more pride left I’ve opened myself to him completely. My torns were thrown out to sea. I hope this makes things better between us. i’m willing to learn how to change.
Day 150
We’re going on a trip next week. I’ll tell Minho the truth , i hope he loves me enough to forgive. Sometimes I secretly think that Minho still has a small part of his heart dedicated to Taemin. Because I’d never be able to hold any power against him. He is kind , beautiful and forgiving. I’m the opposite. I’m scared Minho will realize this one day.
Day 157
I’ve lost. Minho is Taemin’s for the taking. He read you. And i’m back where I started. Diary , who will love me now.
Minho shuts the book not willing to read every entry because he knew for certain he’d break apart from the boys honesty and sincerity. Taking Key’s hand in his he holds it against his cheeks. The beeping from the machines become faster and small tiny minute words fall from his dried parch lips.
A nurse rushes in and checks the machines with the most terrified look on her face.
“ Whats wrong ? “ he asks curious of her fumbling of the buttons.
‘ Give me a second “ she ignores Minho’s anxiety and continues, before he knows he she has run out the door shouting for the doctor.
He isn’t sure what is happening or why everyone was panicking .
“ key , key .... baby , whats wrong, “ There isn’t much of a reply , but Key starts to cry , shouting and screaming in pain. The doctors come in Minho is dragged aside not without a fight , he tells them he wants to know whats wrong but they’re all silent trying their best to save Key from whatever it was.
“ Wait outside sir , he’s almost not going to make it. “
Minho slumps against the door , Jinki rushes over and holds him up.
“ Don’t go .... not now , not like this “ he cries. Key had a whole day more before he was past the safe zone.
It feels like months and years before the door swings open and the doctors step out.
“ We managed to pull him back, he’s fighting really hard , keep talking to him it helps , he’ll wake up soon , tomorrow latest. “ They leave and Minho finds his place next to Key again. Silent from fear , tired from the lack of rest , he’s almost as frail as the sick boy. Zombie, he looked like a zombie in Jinki’s eyes. Hair unkept because he didn’t bother with it after showering. They stopped by the grocer to pick up some food and went straight to the hospital.
Why was this happening to Key , of all the people in the world. Key was just fighting to live from the start , he never meant real harm. He hated but he loved , and in loving he made up for all the hatred.
The book keeps creeping to the corner of his eye. Minho’s not sure if he should , he couldn’t cry anymore. He reached over and pulled it towards him. Flipping through the entries he read he realized an envelope wedged in between that wasn’t there before. He picks it out and looks over for a name or initials. There was a tiny post it pasted at the back in familiar hand writing.
Minho
I found this in the mail box you were sleeping when i came back I didn’t want to wake you so i kept it here hope you see this. I think Key left in our mail box that night when it was raining it was wet when i found it , hope the letter is not smudged.
Jinki
Letter from Key ? He sticks the note in the book and proceeds to open the envelope. Its crumpled and weirdly crisp.
Minho :
Its been a day since everything ended. Its been the longest day of my life. The thin line that exists between love and hate is too fine and I never noticed how delicate it was.
I’m sorry , but I know it wouldn’t break through the ice you’ve built between us. I don’t need you to forgive me because I wouldn’t have either. If there was even a tiny part of your heart that still sort out for me please come to the club tomorrow. I wanted to say all this in person so I waited but you never came out. I figured you wouldn’t so i wrote this. Thank you for everything you’ve given me. I don’t know what to say now really, just that i hope you’ll read this. This might be the last thing I ever write if I don’t see you tomorrow. I love you Minho , with everything I could ever give to you.
Your’s Sincerely
Key