Late night.

[khalil_greene]

[this is a private post into the thoughts of the character. it is meant to be seen and read, but not to be commented on. enjoy.]



I wish it could just all magically be perfect, with no hard work, but where would I be with no hard work?

I wish I had the faith to just believe in everything, believe in life and love and happiness.

I wish I didn't worry the small things.

I wish that we stay friends no matter what, because above all he's a good friend.

I wish I could tell him how right and how good it feels without sounding inept.

I wish he could be totally happy, with me.

I wish it was easier to let go and put my shields down after all the time building them up.

I wish I wasn't so insecure.

I wish I didn't need a plan for everything.

I wish I had the answers for every question.

I wish I was 100% sure that I'm doing the right thing rather than 99%.

I wish that my faith doesn't waver in this.

I wish I knew what he was thinking.

I wish I could just go with this and be carefree and not worry.

I wish that he holds me while I fall asleep.

I wish that I wake up and he's curled against me.

I wish that Power Rangers made t-shirts big enough for grown men.

I wish I were a better cook.

I wish I could stop wishing for things and just go to sleep.

I just want him to be happy. I just want me to be happy. I hope this works out. Help me, o Lord, to keep my faith in all things, be it life, love, happiness, or human compassion.