Have I set myself up for failure? Do I believe in dreams that can only be just that, dreams? I'm trying not to run away this time. I'm trying to stand up and suck it up. He doesn't want me, but he's my best friend. He wants me to approve of her, whoever she is, before she meets his family even. (There is no 'her,' but there will be eventually.) I ( Read more... )

So, apparently you can advertise on LJ too, who would've thought? Anyone looking for a roommate in Syracuse? No rush, but maybe by fall. Early Septemberish ( Read more... )

I'm in a good mood. I ended up having a good weekend, I got to spend a lot of time with Ryan, I wasn't hungover and bedridden, and it's actually a bit chilly this morning and ungodly hot. I almost hate to ruin it by having to call the BBB. My parents are willing to pull together and get my car fixed for me, my dad said he'd go talk to the garage ( Read more... )

I'm living in Syracuse (oh my goodness I gave my location online!) but I don't know why I'm here. I followed a friend out, and then that friend moved away. I don't want to stay here forever, but I like the city. Especially downtown. I've never lived in a city before so sometimes I feel out of place and scared, but that passes when I'm with friends ( Read more... )

Oh my GOD I'm bored. My roomies are in the shower, and Bob's on his way over soon... he went to play paintball today and I opted out. I'm still glad I did, because I didn't want to play paintball, but I have watched way too much, TV today, knit way too much, and been way too bored. It's times like this I miss having the car. No hassle of busses or ( Read more... )

Got up with a hangover, took some motrin and a lot of water. I can handle that. I still don't feel great, but I can survive and make it to work. But then I'm like, hey, I'll check and see if anything is on my lj comments. Ouch. The girl I've called my best friend for years now said not to call her that anymore, apparently I've been a shit friend to ( Read more... )

I copy people. I don't mean too, but I start to imitate certain aspects of the people I hang out with. I've been caught acting like Desy, talking like Ryan... I still even have some aspects of Dan left. It's really strange. How am I supposed to know who I am if I keep immitating others? maybe I'm just trying out other thigns until I find mine. Huh.

Have any of you ever seen "The Holiday"? It's a chick flick, so some of you are excluded, but I want to ask a favor. If I EVER become Kate Winslet's character, someone help me. I'm not there yet, and Ryan's not that kind of a dick, but if I ever find someone that is and they do that to me PLEASE wake me up. Other than that, absolutely loved the ( Read more... )

It's amazing to think that you've changed so much in a year. A year ago I was cramming into my last week of finals. Papers upon papers upon exams upon projects. I was trying to get a passport to fly out to Germany. I was trying to spend as much time with friends as possible ( Read more... )

You know those mornings when it seems nothing seems to go right? This was one of those mornings. I woke up on the side of the bed, Ryan was laying in the middle (the hogging bastard), so I moved him over. I also thought he was trying to accuse someone of being a russian spy, since my dreams don't quite end when I wake up lately. Wierd. Then the dog ( Read more... )