Comments | kidsinthefloor: A first.

kidsinthefloor

A first.

Sep 18, 2009 16:38

I fucking hate you.

I fucking loath you.
I hate that I think about you both EVERY FUCKING GOD DAMN DAY.
I hate that it hurts my heart that you are now his best friend, it hurts my heart that people who were supposed to be so close to me hurt me so bad and I turn out to be the bad one.

I can't believe how these 2 situations effected me so bad ( Read more... )

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livncontrdction September 19 2009, 17:55:25 UTC

oh danni. :( i have never experienced the situation you did so i can't truly empathize with it, but i do know what it feels like to be surrounded by people and still feel completely and utterly alone. i live my entire life that way. :( I also know what it's like to be sad and unhappy and not be able to get any of it out because of the medication... and yet, the medication is better than the extreme feelings that occur when not on it. sometimes i wonder what the fuck is wrong with me... why do negative situations play themselves over and over in my brain? it sounds like the same thing is happening to you. the only thing i found that actually helps is rather than letting things go, feel them to the extreme. don't try to ignore them, don't try to pretend it's okay and move on. feel it. feel it and acknowledge it and face it. then you can start to let it go. we definitely need to talk about all this. i guess you never thought you would end up this way, being "this type of person"... but that kind of person is who i have been since i was ( ... )

kidsinthefloor September 21 2009, 17:06:08 UTC

"sometimes i wonder what the fuck is wrong with me... why do negative situations play themselves over and over in my brain?"

This is perfect, this is how I feel a lot of the time and I try to switch my mind frame to something else, something pretty, happy, BETTER. But it only is temporary for the thoughts come back.

"feel them to the extreme" I think I will take your advice for nothing you have ever said to me has effected me in a negitive way, plus, I want to feel but I just don't want to feel like crap"i wish all four of you could just erase all the bullshit that's happened and be friends again ( ... )