how I feel...read the the fucking lyrics, Mike...asshole
"Love Song" by 311
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
"My Happy Ending" by Avril Lavigne
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus]
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
[Chorus x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
"Best I Ever Had" by Vertical Horizon
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better
[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had
And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted
[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever
People keep asking me to tell them how I feel. Am I okay? Am I gonna be okay? Is everything okay? FUCK OKAY.
No, everything's not okay. And it won't ever be again. I will either be happy, or I will be depressed, or I will be dead. Pick one. I no longer care.
Mike, blow me. I fucking love you. I really do. And I thought we were doing good with the whole 'just be friends' thing. Like Saturday. Until the end, everything was FINE. It was fucking great. And then you ran your mouth to Sean. WHY COULDN'T YOU HAVE TOLD ME? Am I so unreachable? I think not.
I'm sorry about the previous entry, I know it sounded like I was about to kill myself, but I needed to say it. I'm sorry if it scared you guys. I love you all, and you know it. All I ask for is understanding, support, and of course Love.
It's my bread and water, my oxygen. It's in my blood, in my mind, in my heart, in my soul.
schuldige katze: ....i almost admire you ....how can you love everyone so much? even people who dont like you the same...it doesn't surprise me that you're 'losing it'...you've gone through enough shit for three people.... i wish there was some drink or something that i could give you to make everything go away, but only everything that you wanted to....(drink like magic, not drugs or alcohol...)
arabian ninjette: nepenthe
arabian ninjette: literally 'forgetfulness'
arabian ninjette: a clean slate...
arabian ninjette: as for my love...You never know when the person you're trying to love might be the one who really needs it. The one that will commit suicide, or murder, or die of a broken heart if you don't love them. The one that you could truly make happy. The one that could truly make YOU happy.
schuldige katze: meanwhile you're loving them and just draining yourself...
arabian ninjette: Give me a few days. I'll be back on my feet. Yes, it takes a little longer everyt time, and yes, I'm just a little more tired every time...but it feels good to love them. It feels right.
Don't you understand?
I must love this world, with all it's flaws, even in the midst of loss and chaos. I must love the world and forgive. Forgiveness is the path to peace.
Peace...all I need is some peace...peace.
SHaDiTH