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Sometime during the holiday my back went out pretty bad. I was very stir-crazy yesterday and felt vaguely okay, so Matt and I went out to go to the grocery store and the library. I was driving and I turned down a bad street and we got stuck in the snow. An awesome Good Samaritan neighbor heard our tires spinning and drove over with his Jeep and

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[starrynytes4me]

Don't give up partly because there is nothing much to give up TO. It takes years of appeals to get on disability, which pays about $800 a month at best usually all told

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Thank you for your kind reply. I know you know what it is like to feel like you are so stuck and like you are panicking.

I have to make sure my new insurance will do the fusion. I'm hoping that my surgeon is covered under it. I had no choice but to change insurances because of the downsizing my company did. I think that is part of what makes me feel so uncertain and freaked out.

I'm glad to hear that your Mom's surgery worked. That is good to know.

Thank you again. :)

[starrynytes4me]

Wow, I totally understand about the insurance.

My Mom recommends having a neurosurgeon if possible (her words) and NOT an Orthopedic surgeon. I do pray and I'll be praying for you. I get really scared I'll lose my job because we have layoffs and the pain makes me less reliable and positive than I could be otherwise. I can't imagine trying to do school on top of it.

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Yeah, a neurosurgeon did my last two surgeries. I have been really happy with her. She comes very highly recommended.

[coyotegoth]

Aargh; haing had to deal with a herniated spinal disc (and operation for same) a few years, I can definitely sympathize. Very, very much wishing you the best.

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Yeah, it's kind of freaky now how I can differentiate between muscle spasms and OH SHIT MY DISC IS MESSED UP pain. Once you've had it happen, it's particularly memorable, even years out. Maybe part of my depression is dreading that pain.

Thank you. :)

[greytweed]

You've got my prayers.

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Thank you, R. I appreciate it.

Are you taking any RELIG courses in the Winter? I'm doing 202 but it strikes me that you may have already taken that one, given your background...

[genders]

My shrink says that just because some people have it worse is no reason to think you're "lucky" to just be in the pain you're in.

Chronic pain is no walk in the park. I hope you get some relief and soon.

[marzipan_pig]

Oh bun. Good luck to you, and listen to everything L. says above :)

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Thank you. :)