a cause with cost, i found what i was looking for; blood runs hot, till it hits the sink
lifes a losing battle, an endless war; soldiers hold strong till, they see explosions in the sky
whats the occasion? perhaps a night to forget?; words hold their meaning, till she poors another drink
show me persuasion, perhaps an invitation to bed?; relationships ( Read more... )

sometimes i go for walks. i leave my house, walk out of my crescent and go do things all by myself. sometimes i go to the local convenience store and buy cigarettes to smoke while i walk. sometimes i stop at the local dive-bomb of a bar and knock back a couple double jacks to make my walk less of a walk and more of a stumble. sometimes i forget ( Read more... )

the gates were weathered and rusted, they squeaked and squealed as they swayed in the frigid breeze of an early autumn, bidding me to cross into their unfriendly borders. my footsteps fell upon the wasteland like pebbles in a still standing pond, stirring its surface and disturbing its eerie peace. the grass was grey and coated in a thick lifeless ( Read more... )

someone get me a number, cause you know i need that lift
face first in a mountain of snow, coming down from that drift
cause its never a good time unless it kills
and its never cheap, these are full price thrills
sinking 8 balls off the end of my cue
i chalk it up nightly till the tip turns blue
can i borrow a twenty i gotta make ends meet
and by meet i ( Read more... )

"pop the trunk and wait here" i said as i stepped out of the vehicle. i walked around the side and grabbed my suitcase, as i reached for it i noticed my hands were shaking substantially. sweat dripped down the side of my face and my knees buckled, was i dying? will my heart stop before i even reach your steps? will my organs melt and evaporate into ( Read more... )

one instant, thats all it took to tear everything loved and adored in life away from these people. its funny you know? 19 years of memories so carefully constructed, fragile lives held together by the most delicate of strings, relationships made out to be so beautifully strong. everything that we truly need, all that is truly important and in one ( Read more... )

one suitcase, thats all i needed to pack my life up and transport it away. its funny you know? nine teen years of christmases and birthdays, shopping sprees and souvenirs and all that i really need, all thats really materially important to me fits in a little carry on bag. its just one of those things i guess, we surround ourselves with all this ( Read more... )

your existence is detrimental to my cause
fuck this stage, fuck this cage, hold your applause
let loose my chains and cut my strings 
live life by my own devices, off to better things
erase the past and all its over symbolic tribulation
map out my future, rejuvenation
my heart once burnt hot, fueling my soul
i'll put it on a bed of ice now, let it turn ( Read more... )

and ill never foget what he said.
standing on that balcony's ledge.
arms shaking and fingers clenched.
he looked down below and just turned his head.
locked eyes with mine and simply said. 
"Will I ever feel again?"
and let go.

the next thing i remember was waking up on the southern shore gasping and coughing violently. my lungs took in air and filled themselves to capacity. my eyes squinted and watered as they tried to wash out the little grains of sand and dirt from my corneas. i was shaking uncontrollably, every muscle in my body twitched and convulsed, i was in shock ( Read more... )