I've been reading a lot of your posts lately, Jess, and I'm bummed to see that you've been feeling down and that your roommates are gross (though I can't say much, since I hate cleaning and generally avoid it, too). ^^;;
Anyway, maybe this was a really long time ago, but I thought you wanted to be a pastor? O.o What happened with that? Not to be a nosy douchebag or anything, but I think it's good to have dreams.
I don't think I ever really wanted to be a minister. I thought I could do it, and that maybe I would stumble through seminary and find something else similar, but... I don't know. I feel like it was something I just told myself I could do and that if I got through the process of the schooling that I'd have a secure job. Maybe that's just all the time that's gone by talking. Maybe I really did want that at some point, before I failed out and gave up and realized that I wasn't cut out for that.
I'm just catastrophically depressed. It's hard to focus on anything but what's wrong, and everything seems to wear me out anymore. Hopefully, I will move in the next two months and I will be forced to rethink things as I struggle to start over again in a new place.
Are you going to be living by yourself, or are you going to be living with Jinya? You seem to get along pretty well with her, IIRC.
Anyway, I'm really sorry that you're battling with everything right now, and I wish I knew what to say to people in times like this, but I really don't, so I guess all I can offer is a pair of ears if you ever want to vent about crap? I know it's not easy, not knowing what you want to do with your life, but maybe see if there are career searches or something you can do online to see the kinds of jobs you'd like best? I suppose the hardest part of getting your dream career is not knowing what it IS, ugh. @.@;;
I really do hope your new living conditions help you out emotionally, though. I know how awful it is living with a passive-aggressive roommate (which your one roomie seems like she definitely is). And I can understand the frustration that comes from feeling like you're walking on eggshells and like you're not even welcome in your own damned house, too. So if you ever want to talk, I'm definitely
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I APPROVE OF THIS RESOLUTION VERY MUCH
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Good luck writing, though!
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Anyway, maybe this was a really long time ago, but I thought you wanted to be a pastor? O.o What happened with that? Not to be a nosy douchebag or anything, but I think it's good to have dreams.
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I'm just catastrophically depressed. It's hard to focus on anything but what's wrong, and everything seems to wear me out anymore. Hopefully, I will move in the next two months and I will be forced to rethink things as I struggle to start over again in a new place.
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Anyway, I'm really sorry that you're battling with everything right now, and I wish I knew what to say to people in times like this, but I really don't, so I guess all I can offer is a pair of ears if you ever want to vent about crap? I know it's not easy, not knowing what you want to do with your life, but maybe see if there are career searches or something you can do online to see the kinds of jobs you'd like best? I suppose the hardest part of getting your dream career is not knowing what it IS, ugh. @.@;;
I really do hope your new living conditions help you out emotionally, though. I know how awful it is living with a passive-aggressive roommate (which your one roomie seems like she definitely is). And I can understand the frustration that comes from feeling like you're walking on eggshells and like you're not even welcome in your own damned house, too. So if you ever want to talk, I'm definitely
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