hmm. well so far today sucks except for the mail i got. supposed to go to the soccer game but no ride. and that is gay. but i guess we got that football game tonight and hopefully something cool will happen after that. i am so damn bored here. all i can do is make it work for me until i get out of this shithole. hmm.. i watched the debate and bush ( Read more... )

this has been the most uneventful fucking friday night of my life. fuck this town and fuck the people. come back

man. i hate online journals. either that or my life is just really really boring. i mean. i can look forward to talking to erica every night. that gets me through each day. and going to pit grill every night keeps me sane and gets me out of the house. nip/tuck and real world keep me going through the week and makes me look forward to tuesdays. i ( Read more... )

my heart is broken. all i ever wanted was to give you everything i had.

well i dont have anything to say right now. and i know your the only one who reads this because i didnt give my name to anyone else. so i dont really know what to say. im sorry i always get upset all the time. but i can relate it to something. watch saving silverman and think of me as sandy perkis and think of you as daren silverman.. but after ( Read more... )

hmm.. so then i ask myself what is important. what do i want.. well.. besides the slipknot background?.. i dunno.. love.. happiness.. what does anyone want? to be loved back? to be trusted?.. i need to be wanted. if your not gonna want me someone else will.. so where are you gonna be when she comes? where are you gonna stand? i dunno.. what do you ( Read more... )

wow. i am soo confused.

choices choices choices. i wasn't equpied to handle all these decesions on my own. but. i guess it's something i have to do ya know. <3

ugh.. i hate it i hate it i hate it. i am ready to leaaaaavveeee...
i'm ready to go be with the girl of my dreams.. i dunno.. i dont know what i'm feeling right now.. boredom? love loss? frustration? hope?...false hope??????

i dont really have anything to say at the moment, i guess.