all my entries lately have made it seem like my life is horrible, which is exactly the opposite from the truth. i don't know if that's english, but bare with me. life is great, it's just that i need to patch some things and i don't know how to go about it. so i complain about it on here, because well, that's what these are for ( Read more... )

claw through my back straight to the other side.

so i'm about to go see joe and get wendys.
i'll make some phone calls.
have a good time tonight.
despite any potential for bad things.
when i was thick in your throat, now i'm sick to my stomach.
i suck.

i never fail to surprise myself

Oh tonight I will retire ( Read more... )

if you could only see...

i sitll don't know why i do this to myself.

i shouldn't be hard to find. i'll be the one with my big mouth moving, my big words saying nothing.

because i can't.

i want it.
for it to be true.
real.

i can't lie to myself and say that i have to figure out what i want.

i know exactly what i want.

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i had an epiphany before.

things are about to change drastically.

and there's a hole in my crotch. fuck.

oh well.

and...begin...

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the test i thought i had today...well let's just say today isn't the 16th. which i should have known because i've been anticipating the 12th for weeks ( Read more... )

pain disappear, i'll do anything ( Read more... )

yeah. i'm looking forward to this weekend ( Read more... )