i know nobody reads these of mine anymore...but who cares. typing out my feelings and problems helps a bit so thats what i'm doing. i didn't cry myself to sleep last night like i expected i would. but i did wake up crying. it really sucks to have everything i've done so wrong continuously circulate through my mind. i don't think its ever going ( Read more... )

This hasn't happened in a while...me updating that is. Work tonight blew ass more than ever. I couldn't go up an aisle to pull shoes w/o having the sudden urge to start bawling...quickly wiping away the tears before i got to the end hoping nobody noticed. I went to the bathroom once to cry in private though. And spent my whole lunch break ( Read more... )

so why not do it now? i'm up and have nothing else to do. uhmmm...Astrid Haven show is this weekend. i think i may be going. hopefully i'll be buying some new plugs at Infinity's End...cuz Alyssa and i are going there early Saturday afternoon. work has been work as usual. the hair on the right side of my head is growing back...slowly but ( Read more... )

work sucks...but not too bad. my computer sucks more. stupid fucking viruses! but at work we're actually starting to get hours! my lord...i'll be damned. we get paid this thursday which we'll probably be working all night...so afterwards i can just head straight to WalMart to get my check cashed. still haven't figured out exactly what special ( Read more... )

yup...just like last week, and the week before, and the one before that and that...we've got Thursday off again. its a nice long weekend, but the paycheck next thursday is gonna blow ass, especially since i'm getting insurance now...so that'll be taken out of it too. damn the man ( Read more... )

well...i don't have to work at all tomorrow...today? on Thursday. things have been going really slow and nothing needs to be shipped that bad obviously. so i'm gonna go get my check from work...then Craig and i are gonna go over to John's house...John who we work with...and watch Napoleon Dynamite, because John hasn't seen it yet. we'll probably ( Read more... )

it's Chrismas Eve bitches. and it's pretty cool. all week it hasn't really felt like tomorrow should be Christmas...and it still doesn't. But i'm sure i'll deal. presents will be good...i've bought more this xmas for people...and i'm getting less than ever...no thanks to wrecking my car. fuck! but once again...i'm sure i'll deal. ChYMe has ( Read more... )

the n...yeah if you know me you know what the N stands for ( Read more... )

will come and go. just like they all do. But hey...work is over, we have band practice tomorrow, and we're probably gonna finish up another song this weekend. so then we'll have 7 originals. We're gonna cover Mister Superstar by Marilyn Manson before our January 8th show with SG...so we'll have 8 songs to play this set. Afterwards we'll begin ( Read more... )

well it has been quite a while since i've blown the dust offa this site and updated my shit. Last night...being Saturday night...we, ChYMe, played out second show. Like the first one we had some difficulties. My throat got dry as fuck, and Shaun our drummer fucked up several times. The funny thing is i'm not even pissed off about it. It's our ( Read more... )