i've been crying off and on all day. this really is pathetic. i broke down in 4th period. i hate crying at school, but i did it. and im pissed at myself for it. i cried at the gas station because i was scared of a bum trying to attack. i cried when i got home from stress. i fell asleep. cried when i woke up cuz i wasnt supposed to fall asleep and ( Read more... )

this is dumb. stupid. not worth it. pointless.

as am i.

i really need to stop doing this to myself, really i do.

end..biotches.

a while doesnt ever last long enough with me. lots has happened. bad. yes. but lots nonetheless.

i wish things could be like they were back in fifth grade. yeah, fifth grade was good.

i am finished.

i only say what i witness...

this is the last you will hear from me for a while.

talking trash: def; saying things about someone that aren't true or that are exaggerated.
discussing: def; saying things that have occured, letting out your feelings, telling your friends what is going through your mind. okay, so i didnt get those from webster's or anything. but those are just my definitions...now that that is done with, i shall ( Read more... )

i havnt written in a while. been very busy. very stressed. so i decided just not to do it ( Read more... )

wooooooot

things have been good. make that really good. i smile a lot. which isn't normal. and i like smiling. so im glad for this change. i saw both kill bill and kill bill 2 yesterday. they were both very good. the artistry was done very well, and i like the imagry as well. some of the stuff most people probably dont catch..but there is lots of hidden ( Read more... )

i love it when my friends are honest with me. this is a conversation that occured yesterday at my car before school.

me: oh hi
chels: hey. how ya doin.
me: about as good as i look, or worse.
chels: you look like shit.
me: i dont feel any better.

i love that she can just tell me that. <3 most kids would get mad, but i love it. yeah. i'll post

i should be looking forward to everything. not stressed about it. im really gonna need help these next couple months. hopefully those close to me will stay close, and maybe even come closer. i hope that they are able to put up with me.