he was my best friend. but no longer. maybe he grew out of me. maybe i grew out of him. either way, i havnt seen him for about 4 months. if he ever calls, he finds a reason to laugh at me. if i ever call, he finds a reason to leave. everyone has seen him, but me. i thought that i would have been one of the first he contacted when he decided to come ( Read more... )

its gotten to that point. i really dont know whats wrong. im happy at some select moments. and a couple people are thanks for those select moments. *cough jake and chelsea cough* (chris is fun too) but...besides those moments. i just dont know ( Read more... )

why wont you ever let me be happy?

just leave me, let me play dead.

so, i have been informed that there is a rumor going around about me. hmm. to those of you who think im fucking people, ha. sorry for you, im not! im not a little slut. the things i say are purely jokes, and usually inside jokes. so dont assume things because it makes you look like an ass. have a nice day! <3

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things have been going good lately. finally. something that makes me smile. makes me smile a lot.

i still feel scared. uneasy. insecure.

one day. everything will be better. one day. i will be alright. one day. i will solve this. i will fix myself. i will be okay.

they are coming. and when they come. what shall we do?

so im at home. because i decided to stay home from school today. i needed a day to rest. my body is worn out. and im sore. i've been doing too much lately. but i guess its better than complaining that i have nothing to do ( Read more... )

this is set in once upon a time. but not the time you're thinking. this time is in your mind. so now we proceed. there was a princess. your classic princess. long flowing dress. pretty short hair. and a beautiful pair of black wings. okay, so maybe she isnt as ordinary as i thought. this princess led an ordinary life. she played with her monkey, ( Read more... )

not a light to be seen. no warmth to be felt. not a sound to be heard. its as if im the only one here. the only one who knows. because they dont understand. you see, they are blinded by what i am. i am their greatest fears. their worst nightmares. their unfinished stories. and their stories of old that have already been set in stone. i am the words ( Read more... )

it seems i have a lot to say lately.

i swear i make everything a tragedy.
nothing is good enough to make me smile.
i bring everyone around me down.
i should just make it so no one is around me.

arrrgh times a thousand.

shea. our day or night will come soon.