Happy Birthday Jennie. I still miss you each and every day.

I followed my head and told him we can only be friends and that I cannot be the other girl.
While I didn't get the reaction that most girls in my position would hope for, I feel relieved I was able to get it off my chest.

I hate when guys say one thing and then do another. Why bother?
Why would you stay in a position you hate to be in and with someone ( Read more... )

You know what I mean
When I say that I come from a place that hurts
You fit in my scene
....and I want you
I do.

It has been 5 years since that dreadful accident. I still remember the phone call. I still remember Jennie coming home early from Spring Break in Texas to be with me. Shawna, you were an absolute joy to be around and you are still thought about and missed dearly ( Read more... )

I find myself treating others poorly because of my own unhappiness and frustrations. That's not the life I want to live and that's not the person I want to potray. That isn't me. It isn't right nor is it fair.
I know exactly what I have to do but I am so selfish that I won't do it. I want to have my cake and eat it, too. However that old saying goes ( Read more... )

I wish I knew what I was doing wrong. I hate this.

I am driving myself crazy over this.
Haven't slept in weeks and honestly it's just bringing me down.

Hate not know what could have been.
Hate feeling like I am missing out on something because you are scared.

Feelings suck. Gross.

I don't know what I am looking for exactly but I can damn sure tell you what I don't want.

It is as though I will never learn. I always fall for the unattainable and push away the really good guys.
I look for everything that could possibly go wrong and dissect every tiny detail in anyone who is ever interested in me that could possibly be good for me.
Am I trying to get someone to prove themselves to me? I don't understand.
Am I really ( Read more... )

you said you hate my suffering
and you understood
and you'd take care of me
you'd always be there
.............well where are you now?