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[kim_watkins]

It's been a month since Roger took him. Every day I make it a point to go to the police station myself; every day I contact the FBI. I have a bag packed and ready in case they find him in another state and I have to fly immediately to him. There's clothes for me and for him, his favorite book and his teddy bear. I'd bring his cat if I could

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[da_renee]

I'm sure they'll find him...

[kim_watkins]

I'm sure they will too. I just don't know when, or how.

[couch_tomato]

I just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you. I'm going to Easter mass tomorrow and will light candles for you and Leo.

[kim_watkins]

I can't tell you how much that means to me, but I suppose you know or you wouldn't do it.

Luka... how did you survive? How did you make it past losing your family? I'll understand if you don't want to talk about it but... I just feel like maybe I should prepare myself. I don't want to expect the worst, but if it happens and I am completely raw... I don't think I could survive it.

[couch_tomato]

I'm not sure it's something you ever get past. It's never completely behind you. Even now, it's been almost twelve years, and still things will trigger...a reaction. But I'm getting ahead of myself here, and not being very encouraging, either. It does get better. You do get to the point where the grief isn't all-consuming. Time. They say time heals all wounds, and that's not true, but it does certainly help

[kim_watkins]

Don't worry, Luka. I would rather you be honest with me than tell me things just because they might be deemed encouraging or things you think I want to hear. I asked you because I knew what you'd been through and I knew you would give me an honest answer. Perhaps because that's what you have always wanted? Or at least because you understand the need for honesty. It's such a fine line though. Honesty is needed, but comfort is as well, especially since the people offering it truly want you to feel better. It's easy to lose side of that and to want to lash out sometimes. It's just that you're constantly pushed to the breaking point, and despite help from others you're the only one who can truly pull yourself back from the edge

[jordansmuse]

*pulls up in front of Kim's house and slowly gets out of the car*

*walks up to the door and rings the bell, waiting for Kim to answer it*

[kim_watkins]

*Kim is standing at the open back door when she hears the knock, because she tries not to smoke in the house. It's late afternoon and she's not expecting anyone* Hold on. I'll be right there. *She drops the cig on the back step and grinds it out before going to answer the front door. She smiles when she sees Jordan, even though it almost feels hard to do that these days* Hi. Come in.

[jordansmuse]

*hugs Kim tentatively; smells the smoke, but decided not to say anything*

Hey. I just got done with my physical terrorist and wanted to come and see how you're doing.

[kim_watkins]

How's that going anyway? It seems to be doing something good. *she leads Jordan in, purposefully not looking at the stairs where Roger attacked her*

[cme_macy]

Kim...I'm sorry we had to do that like we did today, but that was the only way that we could be sure. If we get anymore information or leads...I'll let you know.

[kim_watkins]

*nods* I understand, Dr. Macy. I know it needed to be done, and I guess in part I should be glad because if it comes to that, I mean if it's ever Leo I need to identify, at least I'll be prepared to know what to expect.

[cme_macy]

*shakes head* Kids are always the hardest...even for me.

[kim_watkins]

So Jordan says. I think you'd have to be a pretty awful kind of person if they did. For the record, I told Jordan my respect for her went up a ton knowing firsthand what she has to go through every day. That goes for all of you I guess. You and Trey and Nigel and the others.