Comments | kimandgary: Sudden wave of phobia

kimandgary

Sudden wave of phobia

May 11, 2010 14:58

I really don't know what has gotten into me lately, but the past few weeks have been increasingly unbearable. I hate to admit fear. I really find that it's a huge issue with me to even admit it. I really believe that fear is the mind killer, and I have been fairly successful in keeping it at bay for most of my life. Right now though I am taking on ( Read more... )

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lioness_syl May 11 2010, 19:03:26 UTC

Make sure this is your own fear vs. someone elses. If it is your own fear, try to meditate and remember, sometimes happen beyond your control! It helps for me! be careful you dont want to make yourself sick!

kimandgary May 11 2010, 20:51:57 UTC

It could be someone else's it's hard to tell where it started, but my daughter is angry... like me she usually prefers to express her insecurities as anger. I can't do it this time though, or I would. I'd rather be angry. I know my husband seems very discontent, and he's complaining about everything, so he's experiencing some negative emotions too. Of course this could be because I am not acting normally. So it's hard to tell which came first. Also even though I was feeling odd for a while, it got a LOT worse Saturday after seeing the aftermath of a fatal train/pedestrian accident... which was possibly a suicide. I don't see how else one could be hit by a train, but I suppose it's possible. Anyway I got a really powerful empath off the death. Sudden fatal head trauma leaves a very bizzare and unique residual energy... which I had noticed before. Anyway it seems to have been a last straw for my nerves. I didn't know the guy but still... it was overwhelming. I had the shakes all day Saturday, and it seems I've been agoriphobic ever ( ... )

lioness_syl May 12 2010, 12:42:49 UTC

It sounds like you need a bath with some sea salt or epsom salt. I usually add that to some calming scent I am familiar with (vanilla or lavender) Soak in for at least 15 minutes and clear your mind. Ask gary for help. You need to get this out of your system and fast.

kimandgary May 13 2010, 19:59:16 UTC

I need to do something. That's for sure. It seems better... Lots of farmville on facebook seems to help in some ways. It reminds me of my childhood really. All the neighbors and farms. It really was like that. Well except there was a lot more sweat involved. LOL

saavik May 12 2010, 01:23:47 UTC

Sorry you're going through such stress. I've been feeling the same way for th last several days myself, and I have not witnessed any traumatic events to cause it.
Is Mercury still retrograde?

kimandgary May 12 2010, 02:27:26 UTC

Well it could be something like that... I'm not really familiar with mercury being retrograde, what would that do? Could it cause this? Anyway you are right it could be just conditions, or planet alignment. I have been feeling pretty rough for a while, but the accident really really pushed me over the edge.

Also lately even my "normal" Family members are having memory glitches. I've experienced a few myself. One very very weird one has been driving me quite crazy. Do you remember in the 80's when the space shuttle blew up. Well I could sware that Sally Ride blew up with it. I am 99.99% positive that she was memorialized and eulogized on TV. Anyway she's recently resurfaced writing books... or more like booklets and she made a TV appearance. It's really weird. Can you by any chance remember that occurance? I know when I saw her on TV I nearly flipped... I mean I am glad she's not dead, but I was just certain she was. What could be wrong with me?

saavik May 13 2010, 21:35:38 UTC

I'm not really attuned to astrological events per se, but I know some who are. Consider the "mercury retrograde" comment as a place holder for weird subliminal sh*t below our conscious level of awareness. Such things can mesh by pure synchronicity and cause a lot of unexplained anxiety, at least, IME. So it's not clear that *anything* is necessarily wrong with *you* or me. It could be just the circumstances around us.

Some kind of meditation to bring things under conscious consideration might be useful, by whatever protocol or "ritual" you prefer.

diablosmx May 12 2010, 04:34:35 UTC

I'm not aware of any significant energy shifts with planetary alignments, but I'm not tuned into them as much as some people may be.

Anger is only a negativity you want to avoid adding fuel to. Think of the energy around your home as a significant flame, not something you wish to grow. However, something is containing this convolution of energies. This may explain that shaking fear, by fueling it or being fueled by it. As for cause, I think it's only explained in part.

What you need to do, Kim, is RELAX. Take a deep breath, cast a ward, and relax your mind. Look deeper into yourself, let that fear come to your consciousness so you can look at it, know it for what it is by cause and definition. Don't let it consume you, but reveal it so you can recognize it.

Hopefully, this should help you find out what happened and work on fixing what caused the mess.

kimandgary May 12 2010, 16:15:12 UTC

Thanks Kata, that helps a lot, just a bit of rationality. I really do not know exactly what's causing this, though I can think of a lot of excuses or possible reasons, I have no idea what's at the bottom of it all. I do need to examine it... and BTW could you tell me somewhere, maybe the other site, if you prefer, how to cast a ward? I really don't think I have anything similar that I do.