This is it
This is it
The last time where I will fall in love with someone.
I'd rather be single and never fall in love with anyone rather than feeling sick like this. It hurts so much, now I cannot not believe if I'm cursed in love. Every man I love will always hates me in the end.
Maybe that's my fault in the first place. Maybe I'm too desperate but no, I'm not that desperate with my first love, I'm taking it slow but still. And the second time I dare myself but got no responses. Third time is bad because it's really to the point but fortunately I'm not that hurt that time. Because I already given up since the very beginning and knowing it wont be possible.
This time, it really hurts that I wanted to die. Never did a person whom I loves so much can makes me hurt a lot. Especially when I dont even know hows his face nor his physic but I already loved him this much.
I helped him in many ways but maybe thats what makes me looks so dumb and fool. Theres no man will ever like this kind of girl like me. Seeming so desperate and helpless. So stupid of me.
And usually I cant force myself to love someone who I dont love, thats why I also dont want to force anyone to love me back if they dont.
Its just sad. Am I really gonna be single forever? If thats the case, then thats fine. I'll just try to move on again and never going to fall for the third time.
Maybe, if only, I can die without being sinful..
I'll choose that way..