"I didn't see" - sam/gabe - fic exchange for sms_recs
Title: "I didn't See"
Author: kimisgirl
Rating: PG 13 for language
Genre and/or Pairing: Sam/Gabriel ; Secondary Pairing of Dean/Castiel
Spoilers: Blanket spoilers for season 5
Warnings: none
Word Count: 3,600 +
Author's Note: Written for the spn_gabriel_sam's fic exchange. For sms_recs
Prompt: Post-apocalypse...Sam goes back to school to finish his law degree. he never expected to find Gabriel sitting next to him in his Juvenile Law class.
Sorry about the porn fail :( my brain just won't write smutt at the moment *cries* hope this is still to your liking anyway :D
Summary: Sometimes Sam doesn't see what's been right in front of him all alone... sometimes it takes a push from an emotionally stunted brother and a shove off a cliff from an archangel for things to make sense.
“Why are you here Gabriel” Sam growled at the archangel in the mensroom of his Stanford law school building. He had finally made it back to College. The end of the world averted, Lucifer back in his cage, and return trip to hell and back later Sam was finally going to finish school. Dean had pushed him to it in the end, he knew Sam needed normal more than he ever would. Dean was still hunting, now though he was hunting with Castiel who had returned from his mission to ‘fix’ heaven after only a short two weeks. Apparently the angel and Dean just couldn’t function without each other. It didn’t surprise Sam at all really. He was a little amused at how domestic and sappy Dean had grown around Cas but he’d made the mistake of pointing it out to his brother once... the black eye he’d received for his troubles was encouragement enough to not do it again. Instead he sniggered from the back seat so to speak at how sickenly cute it all was.
So he was back at school and happy for the first time in a long time. He’d found a small flat off campus, had a job at the campus library and this morning he’d had his first class of the semester. Because he’d been away for so long he’d had to start all over again, none of his marks from before would count. He was a little annoyed at this, but he’d survive. The type of law he wanted to do had changed lately though. He had wanted to be a civil lawyer before, now though he decided to go the criminal route. That way, as he explained it to Dean, he’d still be helping save people.
Long story short, he’d walked into his first class, happy and feeling free from all the shit of his life from just months before... finally he was free of demons and angels and he’d managed to push it all from his mind and into the back of his brain somewhere where it just sat and left him alone. It was nice... and then, there he was... just sitting there, in a chair a few seats from the one Sam had been about to sit down in. The Archangel had turned his head in his direction winked and turned back to the front where the lecturer was now marking a roll.
Sam had wanted so badly to get up and drag the damned angel out of the room. Demand why he was there and tell him to leave, right the fuck now, thanks very much, instead he sat through the lecture and waited for his chance.
It came as soon as the class finished, Sam rushed after the angel and into the hall. He drew level with him and as they were walking past the mensroom Sam had grabbed him and pushed him roughly into the room. And that’s where they were now, Gabriel locked up against the wall by Sam and Sam demanding answers. Although Sam knew that if Gabriel wanted out it was only to easy for the angel to snap his fingers and be gone.
“Aw Sammy, it’s good to see you too kiddo” Gabriel replied playfully, smiling at Sam in a way that made Sam want to hit him.
“I’m not messing, why are you here. I am done with you and your goddamned brothers, so why are you here.” He growled dangerously.
“Because you did it Sammy, you stopped it, him... I...” Gabriel sounded alarmingly genuine and in awe of Sam, like he couldn’t quite believe it was real. It threw Sam off a little and he stepped back and let Gabriel stand on his own two feet. “I didn’t think you could do it kiddo”
“Yeah well clearly you don’t know me very well” Sam snapped back still angry that his nice new life had been invaded by an angel once again. Especially archangels, Sam really didn’t like archangels...
“Ah! But I do Sam, I have watched over you and Dean since you were born kiddo, I always knew you were important... I tested you so much because I needed to know you, everything about you. I had hoped... hoped that you’d be strong enough... there was always doubt though, always a question. I was always told that destiny couldn’t be beaten. That what was destined to happen was what happened, always, for what it’s worth Sam, I’m glad I was wrong this time...
“Yeah ok, wonderful” Sam replied exasperated, he just wanted Gabriel to go away... right now. “I’m awesome, you’re still a dick, glad we had this catch up, can you go now please? I’m done with angels and demons and heaven and hell. I’ve done my bit, and trust me it was more than anyone should ever be asked to do. Have you been to hell? It’s not fun Gabriel, so yeah, I don’t want to see or hear or even think about you or your brothers, or any of it ever again. Okay?”
Gabriel stared at him for what felt like far too long and made Sam twitch impatiently. “Nope sorry I like it here, I think I’ll stay around for a while. Learn me something” Gabriel smiled and took a step toward Sam. “I think you’re magnificent Sam, the most amazing human I’ve ever met, and I’ve met Gandhi... so yeah, I’m gonna stay for as long as it takes you” Gabriel’s eyes were full of humour and also seriousness that made Sam blink in surprise... because, What?
“You’ve met Gandhi?” and yeah ok, not really what he should be focusing on but... really? “And as long as it takes me to what exactly?” Sam was starting to get a headache. Maybe he should have just stayed in bed this morning.
“Yeah me and Gand’s got on like a house of fire! Great man, very interesting way of thinking... played a trick on him back in 1920, poor guy thought he’d eaten beef! He was not happy with me for a while let me tell you!” Gabriel laughed and Sam squeaked in disbelief. “You played a trick on Gandhi...” he said weakly and blinked at Gabriel like he was the most disrespectful lowest life form on the planet... maybe he was.
“As for what you’re going to do Sambo, well that’s simple, you’re going to fall in love with me and we will buy a house with a white picket fence, have two dogs a bunch of little kiddies and live happy ever after. Sound fun? Good, can we start with the sexing now?”
Sam felt the colour drain from his face and he had to lean on the wall because he felt somewhat faint. The idea of Gabriel tricking Gandhi added onto the utter crazy that had just left his mouth made his head spin. “You’re insane, like completely if you think for a second I’ll ever even like you.” Sam stated in disbelief.
“Oh honey, I’m not crazy and you will, you’ll see” Gabriel said like he already knew it was true.
“I’m not gay” Sam stated like that would win him this argument.
Gabriel just laughed at this and suddenly Sam had a face full of archangel. He was so stunned by the sudden occurrence of the kiss that he didn’t have time to think before he was wrapping his arms around Gabriel and kissing back. Damn traitorous body... ok so maybe he had some thoughts pertaining to men that weren’t completely innocent... and maybe he had always sort of found Gabriel attractive... maybe. Didn’t mean he’d ever love the Archangel.
He gasped as Gabriel pulled back and smirked at him and then he was gone in a snap of fingers and a rustle of wings.
“Cas never needs to snap to fly away...” he called after the angel a little breathless and more aroused than he liked to think about. “Show off” he muttered before leaving the bathroom and heading home to sulk for the rest of the night.
~*~
Three months… three months. That’s how long Gabriel has been messing with his head. Sam was about ready to go completely insane and kill the Archangel… and yes he knew how to do it thank you very much… and no he was absolutely sure he wouldn’t be able to get it done. Gabriel was too smart for a straight out attack like that, Sam would grudgingly admit. Still it was getting really hard not to lose his shit every time the angel would sit down in class next to him and smirk. Or every time he’d ask how Sam’s day was going… or when he’d bump his shoulder into Sam’s on the way out the door. Why did the stupid angel insist on walking along the halls with him anyway, Sam knew he didn’t need to walk anywhere.
And every time Sam asked why, Gabriel would just smile at him, in a way that was way too genuine in his opinion and answer quietly, “Not giving up Sammy.”
Sam would grumble and frown and walk away, it was becoming a routine. One he wanted to live without thanks very much…
So why then did he feel so put out and off balance the first day since the semester had started, when the angel wasn’t next to him in class. Wasn’t pushing his way out the door together with him shoulder to shoulder even though they both knew they didn’t fit out it that way together? Sam couldn’t explain it, all he knew was that Gabriel had become a part of his life and now he wasn’t there… it didn’t feel right. That night he called Dean to bitch and whine.
“Seriously, it’s just weird ok, first I can’t get rid of him and now he just doesn’t show up? The dude can bend time, there’s no reason for him not to show man. Not that I care, I’m glad, it was seriously annoying, but I mean, where did he suddenly go” Sammy bitched into the phone and Dean chuckled, he could almost see the bitch face Sam was pulling.
“Really dude, Gabriel?” Dean asked, clearly finding it entirely amusing and Sam was… confused. “What about him Dean?” he replied snappily. Causing another chuckle from his completely jerky brother.
“Whatever Sammy, sounds to me like you missed the little bastard today is all.” Sam almost choked on his tongue. “You take that back” he groused as he pouted into the phone.
Dean snorted “Seriously Sam? What are you twelve now, does college rob you of your maturity or something?” Sam just growled in response.
“If you’re really worried about your angel Sam, he’s fine, he’s with Cas” Dean finally turned serious. “He actually told me to tell you he’s sorry he wasn’t there today, then he added that he was sure you wouldn’t really care, other than to be happy he wasn’t annoying you today. Guy seriously looked hurt Sam, never seen him like that. It was disturbing man, I have enough chick flick moments in my life with Cas thanks very much, I don’t need your angel supplying them too. You need to fix this man”
Sam just stared at the wall opposite him and frowned. There were so many things wrong with what Dean was saying. “Ok first, he ain’t my anything, you’re the only one with an angel anything dude. Second, why the hell would he be hurt. Gabriel doesn’t do hurt Dean, he does contentious and arrogant, maybe on a bad day he’ll be serious about something, and get all vengeful archangel or something, but that’s about it.” Sam was starting to get annoyed right now, how did he become the bad one in this situation. And why did his chest keep clenching at the thought of hurting Gabriel? Clearly he was missing a big piece of the puzzle that was his life right now.
“Wow Sammy, you haven’t even tried to get to know the guy have you? Three months he’s been sitting through a goddamn law degree just to be closer to you and you’ve giving him nothing huh. No wonder he’s hurt man. Even I’d be sore after that…” Dean replied and it was like a smack to the face for Sam.
“Since when has he been your favourite person? It sounds like you want me to like get married to the guy or some shit. Dean I’m not gay.”
He heard Dean break down laughing at that and he scowled. “No Sammy, I’m not gay, and you see how well that worked out for me yeah? Listen, just… he’s a decent guy once you get past all the bullshit he’s wrapped around himself. He… he did something for me and Cas that I… I just never thought possible.” Dean’s tone made Sam take notice; whatever Gabriel did for them it must have been big.
“What’d he do?” asked Sam quietly.
“He... You know how Cas had to go back to heaven after... yeah well, just after, and I thought that was it, Cas was gone and there was nothing either one of us could do about it. Plus we were both too damn stubborn to actually say just how much it sucked. Anyway, turns out Gabriel noticed how... um... how sad Cas was up in heaven when he figured he should have been happy as Larry. His words not mine I swear, anyway, apparently Castiel kept telling him it was nothing, that he was fine. So, Gabe, as he does when he gets frustrated, got bored asking Cas and decided I might know something he didn’t... So he came down here and started annoying me. Drove me fuckin’ nuts too, he always showed up when you weren’t around which was weird at the time... makes more sense now though I guess.”
“So long story short, he kept asking what was wrong with Cas, I kept asking him why the hell I should know. He’d get annoyed and snap me into something nasty just to annoy me, and then Cas would show up, snap me back and glare at Gabriel for a moment without even looking at me and then he’d be gone. It tore me up inside Sammy, not that I’d ever admit that to Gabriel... didn’t really need too though, after a while he started to see it for what it was. One day he just laughed, said “Well fuck, I should've guessed” and then disappeared. Next thing I know, I wake up with a very confused and uncomfortable looking angel beside me on the bed... Turns out Gabriel had kicked Cas out of heaven and told him if he didn’t go to me something very bad would happen to both of us...”
Sam smiled... “And then Cas just decided to stay?” he asked knowing that this was a chance to get his brother to talk, it was so very rare for him to do so. He heard Dean chuckle.
“Wasn’t quite as simple as that Sam, you know me, I sort of flailed around a bit at first, told Cas I had no idea why Gabriel was doing what he was doing. I knew I... I knew I loved Cas...” he cleared his throat loudly after that, showing Sam clearly how hard it was even now for Dean to admit such things to anyone even his own brother. “But I couldn’t, wouldn’t say it.”
“In the end Castiel simply said he would not be returning to heaven as he was no longer needed there and that if he was to stay with me then I had better ‘man up’, he actually said those words man, it made me laugh so fuckin’ hard dude I swear, and tell him what I wanted or he would find something else to do with his time. I knew he wouldn’t, he’d never leave me, not by choice. But he was right, I was holding out for no reason, so yeah... um, you know the rest of the story. There was kissing and talking... and then really hot sex. I liked the hot sex part dude” Dean laughed loudly at Sam’s loud groan, he didn’t need to hear about his brother’s sex life.
“Seriously dude, I do not want to know.” Sam begged and Dean just kept on laughing. After a few moments Sam asked “So why didn’t Cas need to go back to heaven, I thought God had put him in charge of fixing it. I know he’s with you now because God came back and took over but...”
“Yeah,” Dean interrupted, “Gabe took over for Cas so he could be with me” he said softly and Sam took a shaky breath. “That was good of him” he said quietly.
“Yeah it was” Dean replied, “Give him a chance Sammy, I really think he’s genuine about... well about you. I wouldn’t have helped him come up with a plan if I didn’t” Dean’s smug smirk at that last piece of information Sam could all but hear through the phone and he growled. “You helped him with this? The... the... the... oh my god, you are the worst brother ever.”
Dean laughed again... loudly. “Or the best, let me know which after you’ve finally admitted that, gay or not, you’re totally into the archangel. I saw it when he died Sam, you might not have said anything, but it hurt you way more than it should have, way more than I was expecting.”
Sam was silent, because, yeah he remembered that, the empty feeling in his heart that he’d never understood when he’d been watching that stupid DVD of Gabriel’s. The way his stomach had dropped out under him and he’d wanted to curl up and cry at the angel’s easy, ’if you’re watching this, then I’m already dead’ clichéd opening line. Even then he’d not registered it for what it was... hadn’t even thought about it much really, there had been too many things to mourn back in those days. He’d just piled it onto the rest and moved on. It hadn’t even crossed his mind that he might have been... Oh god he let out a small sharp gasp and almost dropped the phone. “No” he whispered... “I can’t... why would I...” he sounded lost and strangled and it would be that moment that Gabriel appeared beside him and took his cell from his hand. Smiling softly at him as he quietly told Dean he’d have to call back later. Sam stared at him, mouth hanging open a little and eyes wide, blinking when the sting of staring forced it.
“I didn’t see...” Sam whispered, still in a state of shock.
Gabriel stepped toward him and smiled. “I know” he replied tenderly and reached up a steady hand to tuck a lose strand of Sam’s hair behind his ear. His hand falling to rest warmly at the back of Sam’s neck. Sam bowed his head, eyes never leaving the archangel’s and Sam gasped a little again as he slowly became aware that Gabriel had leaned up on his tip toes and pressed a soft kiss to his lips.
Gabriel was just pulling away when Sam finally kick started his brain and chased after the angel’s mouth to return the kiss. Deeper this time and full of passion. He groaned into Gabriel’s mouth and drew him into him, his arms wrapping up the smaller vessel and tucking it in close, so very close.
“I’ve loved you for a long time Sam” Gabriel mumbled against his lips and Sam felt like his knees might fall out from under him. “And I’ve known that you felt the same way for some time too, just needed to get you to see it...” he pulled back to look up at Sam, Sam whimpered a little and tried to chase after that mouth again, Gabriel stopped him, chuckling. “You’re as bad as Dean you know, for all the ‘I’m not emotionally stunted like my big brother’ you spout, you’re just as reluctant to talk about this as he was with Castiel”
Sam blushed and ducked his head, he wasn’t ready to talk, he didn’t feel ready to tell the angel he loved him, he knew now it was true, he understood now what he’d hidden so well before not even he could see it. He just... it was terrifying right now okay. It was so huge.
“You said something... something about a white picket fence, making me want it with you, when you first came here” Sam managed to struggle out. Gabriel stared up at him, nodding gently. “I... you... you did it okay, I want that... with you” Sam whispered, it was all he could give right now, he just hoped it was enough.
Judging by the huge smile on Gabriel’s face, it was, the archangel beamed up at Sam and then giggled, honest to god giggled. Sam might have thought it was a little bit adorable... maybe. “You’re gonna make the prettiest bride I ever saw Sammy” Gabriel chirped with a grin so big Sam wasn’t sure it was actually humanly possible without causing a rather large amount of pain.
Sam swatted the angel on the ass and scowled at him “Hey, no way in shit I’m the girl in this relationship buddy, you’re the one who just giggled like a girl, if anyone’s gonna be the bride, it’s gonna be you” Sam huffed.
Gabriel just laughed, so happy and true it made Sam’s heart swell with the sound of it. He did the only thing he could think of, he bent down and kissed his angel again. Murmuring happily about love and forever and all the things he couldn’t say directly just yet. He felt Gabriel shiver against him.
Fin
Author: kimisgirl
Rating: PG 13 for language
Genre and/or Pairing: Sam/Gabriel ; Secondary Pairing of Dean/Castiel
Spoilers: Blanket spoilers for season 5
Warnings: none
Word Count: 3,600 +
Author's Note: Written for the spn_gabriel_sam's fic exchange. For sms_recs
Prompt: Post-apocalypse...Sam goes back to school to finish his law degree. he never expected to find Gabriel sitting next to him in his Juvenile Law class.
Sorry about the porn fail :( my brain just won't write smutt at the moment *cries* hope this is still to your liking anyway :D
Summary: Sometimes Sam doesn't see what's been right in front of him all alone... sometimes it takes a push from an emotionally stunted brother and a shove off a cliff from an archangel for things to make sense.
“Why are you here Gabriel” Sam growled at the archangel in the mensroom of his Stanford law school building. He had finally made it back to College. The end of the world averted, Lucifer back in his cage, and return trip to hell and back later Sam was finally going to finish school. Dean had pushed him to it in the end, he knew Sam needed normal more than he ever would. Dean was still hunting, now though he was hunting with Castiel who had returned from his mission to ‘fix’ heaven after only a short two weeks. Apparently the angel and Dean just couldn’t function without each other. It didn’t surprise Sam at all really. He was a little amused at how domestic and sappy Dean had grown around Cas but he’d made the mistake of pointing it out to his brother once... the black eye he’d received for his troubles was encouragement enough to not do it again. Instead he sniggered from the back seat so to speak at how sickenly cute it all was.
So he was back at school and happy for the first time in a long time. He’d found a small flat off campus, had a job at the campus library and this morning he’d had his first class of the semester. Because he’d been away for so long he’d had to start all over again, none of his marks from before would count. He was a little annoyed at this, but he’d survive. The type of law he wanted to do had changed lately though. He had wanted to be a civil lawyer before, now though he decided to go the criminal route. That way, as he explained it to Dean, he’d still be helping save people.
Long story short, he’d walked into his first class, happy and feeling free from all the shit of his life from just months before... finally he was free of demons and angels and he’d managed to push it all from his mind and into the back of his brain somewhere where it just sat and left him alone. It was nice... and then, there he was... just sitting there, in a chair a few seats from the one Sam had been about to sit down in. The Archangel had turned his head in his direction winked and turned back to the front where the lecturer was now marking a roll.
Sam had wanted so badly to get up and drag the damned angel out of the room. Demand why he was there and tell him to leave, right the fuck now, thanks very much, instead he sat through the lecture and waited for his chance.
It came as soon as the class finished, Sam rushed after the angel and into the hall. He drew level with him and as they were walking past the mensroom Sam had grabbed him and pushed him roughly into the room. And that’s where they were now, Gabriel locked up against the wall by Sam and Sam demanding answers. Although Sam knew that if Gabriel wanted out it was only to easy for the angel to snap his fingers and be gone.
“Aw Sammy, it’s good to see you too kiddo” Gabriel replied playfully, smiling at Sam in a way that made Sam want to hit him.
“I’m not messing, why are you here. I am done with you and your goddamned brothers, so why are you here.” He growled dangerously.
“Because you did it Sammy, you stopped it, him... I...” Gabriel sounded alarmingly genuine and in awe of Sam, like he couldn’t quite believe it was real. It threw Sam off a little and he stepped back and let Gabriel stand on his own two feet. “I didn’t think you could do it kiddo”
“Yeah well clearly you don’t know me very well” Sam snapped back still angry that his nice new life had been invaded by an angel once again. Especially archangels, Sam really didn’t like archangels...
“Ah! But I do Sam, I have watched over you and Dean since you were born kiddo, I always knew you were important... I tested you so much because I needed to know you, everything about you. I had hoped... hoped that you’d be strong enough... there was always doubt though, always a question. I was always told that destiny couldn’t be beaten. That what was destined to happen was what happened, always, for what it’s worth Sam, I’m glad I was wrong this time...
“Yeah ok, wonderful” Sam replied exasperated, he just wanted Gabriel to go away... right now. “I’m awesome, you’re still a dick, glad we had this catch up, can you go now please? I’m done with angels and demons and heaven and hell. I’ve done my bit, and trust me it was more than anyone should ever be asked to do. Have you been to hell? It’s not fun Gabriel, so yeah, I don’t want to see or hear or even think about you or your brothers, or any of it ever again. Okay?”
Gabriel stared at him for what felt like far too long and made Sam twitch impatiently. “Nope sorry I like it here, I think I’ll stay around for a while. Learn me something” Gabriel smiled and took a step toward Sam. “I think you’re magnificent Sam, the most amazing human I’ve ever met, and I’ve met Gandhi... so yeah, I’m gonna stay for as long as it takes you” Gabriel’s eyes were full of humour and also seriousness that made Sam blink in surprise... because, What?
“You’ve met Gandhi?” and yeah ok, not really what he should be focusing on but... really? “And as long as it takes me to what exactly?” Sam was starting to get a headache. Maybe he should have just stayed in bed this morning.
“Yeah me and Gand’s got on like a house of fire! Great man, very interesting way of thinking... played a trick on him back in 1920, poor guy thought he’d eaten beef! He was not happy with me for a while let me tell you!” Gabriel laughed and Sam squeaked in disbelief. “You played a trick on Gandhi...” he said weakly and blinked at Gabriel like he was the most disrespectful lowest life form on the planet... maybe he was.
“As for what you’re going to do Sambo, well that’s simple, you’re going to fall in love with me and we will buy a house with a white picket fence, have two dogs a bunch of little kiddies and live happy ever after. Sound fun? Good, can we start with the sexing now?”
Sam felt the colour drain from his face and he had to lean on the wall because he felt somewhat faint. The idea of Gabriel tricking Gandhi added onto the utter crazy that had just left his mouth made his head spin. “You’re insane, like completely if you think for a second I’ll ever even like you.” Sam stated in disbelief.
“Oh honey, I’m not crazy and you will, you’ll see” Gabriel said like he already knew it was true.
“I’m not gay” Sam stated like that would win him this argument.
Gabriel just laughed at this and suddenly Sam had a face full of archangel. He was so stunned by the sudden occurrence of the kiss that he didn’t have time to think before he was wrapping his arms around Gabriel and kissing back. Damn traitorous body... ok so maybe he had some thoughts pertaining to men that weren’t completely innocent... and maybe he had always sort of found Gabriel attractive... maybe. Didn’t mean he’d ever love the Archangel.
He gasped as Gabriel pulled back and smirked at him and then he was gone in a snap of fingers and a rustle of wings.
“Cas never needs to snap to fly away...” he called after the angel a little breathless and more aroused than he liked to think about. “Show off” he muttered before leaving the bathroom and heading home to sulk for the rest of the night.
~*~
Three months… three months. That’s how long Gabriel has been messing with his head. Sam was about ready to go completely insane and kill the Archangel… and yes he knew how to do it thank you very much… and no he was absolutely sure he wouldn’t be able to get it done. Gabriel was too smart for a straight out attack like that, Sam would grudgingly admit. Still it was getting really hard not to lose his shit every time the angel would sit down in class next to him and smirk. Or every time he’d ask how Sam’s day was going… or when he’d bump his shoulder into Sam’s on the way out the door. Why did the stupid angel insist on walking along the halls with him anyway, Sam knew he didn’t need to walk anywhere.
And every time Sam asked why, Gabriel would just smile at him, in a way that was way too genuine in his opinion and answer quietly, “Not giving up Sammy.”
Sam would grumble and frown and walk away, it was becoming a routine. One he wanted to live without thanks very much…
So why then did he feel so put out and off balance the first day since the semester had started, when the angel wasn’t next to him in class. Wasn’t pushing his way out the door together with him shoulder to shoulder even though they both knew they didn’t fit out it that way together? Sam couldn’t explain it, all he knew was that Gabriel had become a part of his life and now he wasn’t there… it didn’t feel right. That night he called Dean to bitch and whine.
“Seriously, it’s just weird ok, first I can’t get rid of him and now he just doesn’t show up? The dude can bend time, there’s no reason for him not to show man. Not that I care, I’m glad, it was seriously annoying, but I mean, where did he suddenly go” Sammy bitched into the phone and Dean chuckled, he could almost see the bitch face Sam was pulling.
“Really dude, Gabriel?” Dean asked, clearly finding it entirely amusing and Sam was… confused. “What about him Dean?” he replied snappily. Causing another chuckle from his completely jerky brother.
“Whatever Sammy, sounds to me like you missed the little bastard today is all.” Sam almost choked on his tongue. “You take that back” he groused as he pouted into the phone.
Dean snorted “Seriously Sam? What are you twelve now, does college rob you of your maturity or something?” Sam just growled in response.
“If you’re really worried about your angel Sam, he’s fine, he’s with Cas” Dean finally turned serious. “He actually told me to tell you he’s sorry he wasn’t there today, then he added that he was sure you wouldn’t really care, other than to be happy he wasn’t annoying you today. Guy seriously looked hurt Sam, never seen him like that. It was disturbing man, I have enough chick flick moments in my life with Cas thanks very much, I don’t need your angel supplying them too. You need to fix this man”
Sam just stared at the wall opposite him and frowned. There were so many things wrong with what Dean was saying. “Ok first, he ain’t my anything, you’re the only one with an angel anything dude. Second, why the hell would he be hurt. Gabriel doesn’t do hurt Dean, he does contentious and arrogant, maybe on a bad day he’ll be serious about something, and get all vengeful archangel or something, but that’s about it.” Sam was starting to get annoyed right now, how did he become the bad one in this situation. And why did his chest keep clenching at the thought of hurting Gabriel? Clearly he was missing a big piece of the puzzle that was his life right now.
“Wow Sammy, you haven’t even tried to get to know the guy have you? Three months he’s been sitting through a goddamn law degree just to be closer to you and you’ve giving him nothing huh. No wonder he’s hurt man. Even I’d be sore after that…” Dean replied and it was like a smack to the face for Sam.
“Since when has he been your favourite person? It sounds like you want me to like get married to the guy or some shit. Dean I’m not gay.”
He heard Dean break down laughing at that and he scowled. “No Sammy, I’m not gay, and you see how well that worked out for me yeah? Listen, just… he’s a decent guy once you get past all the bullshit he’s wrapped around himself. He… he did something for me and Cas that I… I just never thought possible.” Dean’s tone made Sam take notice; whatever Gabriel did for them it must have been big.
“What’d he do?” asked Sam quietly.
“He... You know how Cas had to go back to heaven after... yeah well, just after, and I thought that was it, Cas was gone and there was nothing either one of us could do about it. Plus we were both too damn stubborn to actually say just how much it sucked. Anyway, turns out Gabriel noticed how... um... how sad Cas was up in heaven when he figured he should have been happy as Larry. His words not mine I swear, anyway, apparently Castiel kept telling him it was nothing, that he was fine. So, Gabe, as he does when he gets frustrated, got bored asking Cas and decided I might know something he didn’t... So he came down here and started annoying me. Drove me fuckin’ nuts too, he always showed up when you weren’t around which was weird at the time... makes more sense now though I guess.”
“So long story short, he kept asking what was wrong with Cas, I kept asking him why the hell I should know. He’d get annoyed and snap me into something nasty just to annoy me, and then Cas would show up, snap me back and glare at Gabriel for a moment without even looking at me and then he’d be gone. It tore me up inside Sammy, not that I’d ever admit that to Gabriel... didn’t really need too though, after a while he started to see it for what it was. One day he just laughed, said “Well fuck, I should've guessed” and then disappeared. Next thing I know, I wake up with a very confused and uncomfortable looking angel beside me on the bed... Turns out Gabriel had kicked Cas out of heaven and told him if he didn’t go to me something very bad would happen to both of us...”
Sam smiled... “And then Cas just decided to stay?” he asked knowing that this was a chance to get his brother to talk, it was so very rare for him to do so. He heard Dean chuckle.
“Wasn’t quite as simple as that Sam, you know me, I sort of flailed around a bit at first, told Cas I had no idea why Gabriel was doing what he was doing. I knew I... I knew I loved Cas...” he cleared his throat loudly after that, showing Sam clearly how hard it was even now for Dean to admit such things to anyone even his own brother. “But I couldn’t, wouldn’t say it.”
“In the end Castiel simply said he would not be returning to heaven as he was no longer needed there and that if he was to stay with me then I had better ‘man up’, he actually said those words man, it made me laugh so fuckin’ hard dude I swear, and tell him what I wanted or he would find something else to do with his time. I knew he wouldn’t, he’d never leave me, not by choice. But he was right, I was holding out for no reason, so yeah... um, you know the rest of the story. There was kissing and talking... and then really hot sex. I liked the hot sex part dude” Dean laughed loudly at Sam’s loud groan, he didn’t need to hear about his brother’s sex life.
“Seriously dude, I do not want to know.” Sam begged and Dean just kept on laughing. After a few moments Sam asked “So why didn’t Cas need to go back to heaven, I thought God had put him in charge of fixing it. I know he’s with you now because God came back and took over but...”
“Yeah,” Dean interrupted, “Gabe took over for Cas so he could be with me” he said softly and Sam took a shaky breath. “That was good of him” he said quietly.
“Yeah it was” Dean replied, “Give him a chance Sammy, I really think he’s genuine about... well about you. I wouldn’t have helped him come up with a plan if I didn’t” Dean’s smug smirk at that last piece of information Sam could all but hear through the phone and he growled. “You helped him with this? The... the... the... oh my god, you are the worst brother ever.”
Dean laughed again... loudly. “Or the best, let me know which after you’ve finally admitted that, gay or not, you’re totally into the archangel. I saw it when he died Sam, you might not have said anything, but it hurt you way more than it should have, way more than I was expecting.”
Sam was silent, because, yeah he remembered that, the empty feeling in his heart that he’d never understood when he’d been watching that stupid DVD of Gabriel’s. The way his stomach had dropped out under him and he’d wanted to curl up and cry at the angel’s easy, ’if you’re watching this, then I’m already dead’ clichéd opening line. Even then he’d not registered it for what it was... hadn’t even thought about it much really, there had been too many things to mourn back in those days. He’d just piled it onto the rest and moved on. It hadn’t even crossed his mind that he might have been... Oh god he let out a small sharp gasp and almost dropped the phone. “No” he whispered... “I can’t... why would I...” he sounded lost and strangled and it would be that moment that Gabriel appeared beside him and took his cell from his hand. Smiling softly at him as he quietly told Dean he’d have to call back later. Sam stared at him, mouth hanging open a little and eyes wide, blinking when the sting of staring forced it.
“I didn’t see...” Sam whispered, still in a state of shock.
Gabriel stepped toward him and smiled. “I know” he replied tenderly and reached up a steady hand to tuck a lose strand of Sam’s hair behind his ear. His hand falling to rest warmly at the back of Sam’s neck. Sam bowed his head, eyes never leaving the archangel’s and Sam gasped a little again as he slowly became aware that Gabriel had leaned up on his tip toes and pressed a soft kiss to his lips.
Gabriel was just pulling away when Sam finally kick started his brain and chased after the angel’s mouth to return the kiss. Deeper this time and full of passion. He groaned into Gabriel’s mouth and drew him into him, his arms wrapping up the smaller vessel and tucking it in close, so very close.
“I’ve loved you for a long time Sam” Gabriel mumbled against his lips and Sam felt like his knees might fall out from under him. “And I’ve known that you felt the same way for some time too, just needed to get you to see it...” he pulled back to look up at Sam, Sam whimpered a little and tried to chase after that mouth again, Gabriel stopped him, chuckling. “You’re as bad as Dean you know, for all the ‘I’m not emotionally stunted like my big brother’ you spout, you’re just as reluctant to talk about this as he was with Castiel”
Sam blushed and ducked his head, he wasn’t ready to talk, he didn’t feel ready to tell the angel he loved him, he knew now it was true, he understood now what he’d hidden so well before not even he could see it. He just... it was terrifying right now okay. It was so huge.
“You said something... something about a white picket fence, making me want it with you, when you first came here” Sam managed to struggle out. Gabriel stared up at him, nodding gently. “I... you... you did it okay, I want that... with you” Sam whispered, it was all he could give right now, he just hoped it was enough.
Judging by the huge smile on Gabriel’s face, it was, the archangel beamed up at Sam and then giggled, honest to god giggled. Sam might have thought it was a little bit adorable... maybe. “You’re gonna make the prettiest bride I ever saw Sammy” Gabriel chirped with a grin so big Sam wasn’t sure it was actually humanly possible without causing a rather large amount of pain.
Sam swatted the angel on the ass and scowled at him “Hey, no way in shit I’m the girl in this relationship buddy, you’re the one who just giggled like a girl, if anyone’s gonna be the bride, it’s gonna be you” Sam huffed.
Gabriel just laughed, so happy and true it made Sam’s heart swell with the sound of it. He did the only thing he could think of, he bent down and kissed his angel again. Murmuring happily about love and forever and all the things he couldn’t say directly just yet. He felt Gabriel shiver against him.
Fin