yeah...that about says it all. i think i should consider myself single, maybe its for the best. then again, maybe its not. its not like i can do any better. i dont know why i put myself down so much. maybe ive done something to deserve all of it. im losing weight, in a good way. my family all told me that im looking so much better. maybe if i lose ( Read more... )

im babysitting little Eric and he is passed out on the chair. we just watched Shrek and he fell asleep in the middle of it. he's the cutest little kid ever. i guess my bf is outa town and thats why he hasnt called me, or atleast thats what im using as an excuse until i talk to him. oops. oh well. andy told me that i dont need this shit,and i agree ( Read more... )

Ive got a lot of things on my mind. maybe im just one of those people who people just pretend to care about. i mean, yeah, i have a boyfriend and all, but that doesnt mean he cares about me. i doubt he even likes me anymore. maybe im completely wrong. who knows. i mean, i havent been truly loved since around thxgiving. and that was Tony. I messed ( Read more... )

yea, this weekend was...interesting. I almost got killed. not good. im not sposed to talk about it tho, so anyone who wants to know just email me or something and i might tell you. im very scared of relationships now, even tho im still in one, and today is 2 months, but i doubt he cares enough to remember. wow im a happy person.

yes, well today was graduation. It was sad, but i liked seeing all my friends up there. Congrats Kelly ( Read more... )

well, i guess things arent always as they seem. Happiness IS a false reality, a false sense of security that only lasts until whatever or whoever is making you happy decides not to be there anymore. Then its hurts, and then you pretend to be over it when deep down inside it hurts like hell. you put on your fake smiles and make everyone believe that ( Read more... )

all i want is to be loved, and apparently its not happening ( Read more... )

Excuse me, Sir. I'm sorry, i didnt mean to run into you like that. Please forgive me ( Read more... )

I guess i cant write how i really feel anymore becuz some people think they know me so well and know other ppl that i care about so well and i guess its wrong to feel the way i do about a certain person. so i guess maybe i wont write very emotional things anymore. my happiness means nothing to some ppl. just becuz im not engaged, and just becuz i ( Read more... )

I feel like im flying. no im not on drugs. I think......i think im in love!!! I havent felt this way about someone since alex (R.I.P) and i dunno, i feel, i dunno, i just cant describe it. i just wish i knew how he felt...but i guess ill just have to ask him. its been 3 weeks since i first saw him again since 6th grade (when i first met him) and ( Read more... )