GRIM REAPER: personification of death | FINAL UPDATE
“will you stay?” hyukjae asked but donghae remains silent. “why don’t you answer me?” hyukjae could feel the heavy aura surrounding the both of them. “donghae~ look at me and tell me, will you stay?” hyukjae was crying as well, he doesn’t know why donghae is acting like this, he knows the other has duty and they’ve been friends with Siwon but he doesn’t know why is donghae crying like this.
Donghae knows what he did was the best thing and he never regrets it, he’s crying because in no time he knows he have to leave hyukjae, leave as in forever not coming back. It’s true, there is no rule regarding a reaper falling in love with a human but there is a rule that he never can prolong life and once he did it he will vanish, vanish like he never existed. He doesn’t want to leave hyukjae but he doesn’t want the other to die either so he chooses to prolong hyukjae’s life and die for him. “eunhyukkie, I love you.” Donghae gets the courage to look at the crying from of hyukjae.
“I don’t get it hae. If you have other souls to guide then I’ll wait for you.” Hyukjae doesn’t have an inkling that donghae would be gone for good. He saw the other shook his head and confusion over took him.
“I would never take souls, I would never come back. Hyukkie, im sorry.” Donghae said suddenly.
“I don’t get it hae, I really don’t. you never prolong anyone’s’ life so-“ and hyukjae’s voice trailed away as realization dawned on him, donghae prolong his life but how? Siwon is the one who protects him, how come donghae prolong his life? “hae~ tell me how.”
“I called him to tell him where you are. Im sorry I have to put him in danger just to save you.” Donghae explained. “by telling him where you are I prolong your death and im sorry, I don’t regret doing it, im sure he didn’t regret it either.IM SORRY”
“STOP SAYING YOU’RE SORRY BECAUSE I ALREADY KNOW YOU ARE!!” hyukjae shouted tears continuously falling down his eyes. he took his hands away from donghae’s chest and palms his face covering it for donghae not to see. “why do you have to do that hae?”
“because I love you. I love you so much I can’t take It if you die this early.”
“no you don’t, because if you do you won’t leave me, if you do you would know that not having you means dying, may be not physically but mentally and emotionally, donghae if you love me you would know that you’re my life.” Hyukjae said with his hands still covering his face.
Donghae gasp at hyukjae’s statement, he feels so love but part of him wasn’t happy, it’s getting hard for him to leave hyukjae and hearing those words means hyukjae would take time just to heal his wounded heart.
“I love you. Please believe me. I love you. Hyukkie, look at me.” donghae grabs hyukjae’s hand and took his chin just to look at him. “I love you.” And he leans forward and captures hyukjae’s lips in his. It was a press of lips on lips at first; he keeps it still wishing for it to last forever. Later he feels hyukjae’s arm circling his neck and he took it as a signal to deepen the kiss. He bites the other’s lips and the other knows he’s asking for entrance, seconds later the other opens up and invites him, he enters hyukjae’s warm cavern and he feels wet, warm and complete. Donghae knows that he would never taste this; he would never feel this so he savors every moment. “do you believe me now?” donghae says as he pulls away. and he feels hyukjae nods, and he crash their lips again.
Hyukjae could feel the longing in donghae’s kisses, he could feel the love the other wants to share with him so he lets him self indulge in their love. He closed his eyes and kissed donghae back with the same intense feeling. This would be their last, the last kiss and the last press of their bodies. He tightens his arms around donghae’s neck, take me. He blush at his own thought and realized that donghae could read minds. I will. He hears donghae said on his brain and he blush even more.
Donghae pulls away and moves to the hospital door and locks it. he looks back at hyukjae and saw the other blushing, he dash to hyukjae’s bed and kiss the other hungrily on the lips. “as much as I want to hear your voice you need to be quiet.” Donghae whispered and trails his kiss from hyukjae’s lips down to his neck, he pulls the thin hospital gown and reveals the milky white flesh of hyukjae, he kisses his way to the other’s collarbones, and he stops and sucks the sinful piece of skin. He will leave him a mark that will last forever and on top of hyukjae’s heart he kissed, suck and lick it until a red spot was made. He pulls away and looks at it. Hyukjae feels that donghae stops he opens his eyes and saw donghae staring at him, “why’d you stop?” he ask blushing.
“I want to see you; I want you to be the last image that I would see before I vanish.” Donghae kissed hyukjae on the lips again. And he remembers something, on how he could erase the pain the he would leave in hyukjae’s heart. He would take his memories again, he knows it would be unfair for hyukjae but that’s the only thing he could do. “hyukkie, you’re beautiful.” And he throws all of hyukjae’s clothing in the room which randomly falls on the floor. “very beautiful.” He moves lower and lower until he reach hyukjae’s throbbing member. “you’re sweet.” Then he licks the hard flesh in front of him making the guy beneath squirm in pleasure. Donghae starts bobbing his head, taking hyukjae in to early heaven and with one final suck hyukjae releases on donghae’s mouth, the other willingly drinking it.
Donghae wipes the remaining cum on the side of his lips and unbuttons his shirt, hyukjae raised his hands and helps donghae unbuttoning the barrier between their bodies seconds later they are both naked, bare to each others’ eyes. Hyukjae looks at donghae, drinking the sight of the other, absorbing each muscle and lumps for he to remember. Donghae took his member and pumps it until it was hard enough and leaking with precum, he spreads the liquid on his member acting as the lubricant he was looking at hyukjae in the process seeing the other blush every time he moans at his own ministration. Donghae could sense the want in hyukjae’s eyes so he took the other’s hand and put it on his member letting hyukjae to stroke him.
Hyukjae groans at the heat coming from donghae’s cock. “hae~” he moans as he could feel his body crying for donghae’s heat. Get inside. He thought, remembering that he could not shout because their on the hospital. Donghae chuckles and position his self on top of hyukjae letting his cock brush to hyukjae’s thighs making them both groan at the feeling it produce. Donghae guides his fingers on hyukjae’s waiting hole but hyukjae shove it away, he looks at donghae waiting for the other to get in, and donghae knowing it he put his hard rock cock in hyukjae.
“ahhhhhhhh~” hyukjae shouts but cover his mouth immediately. “can you take it?” he hears donghae whispering near his ear and he nods, he pulls donghae closer and ask him to move, the other complies but in a slow pace. He groans at every thrust donghae gives him, he moans wantonly every time donghae would hit his special spot. Donghae was indulge in their activity so much like hyukjae but the thought of taking hyukjae’s memory was still lingering on his thought. They could both feel their orgasm when donghae leans forward and kissed hyukjae hard on the lips. Don’t take it hae. Please, leave me with your memory. Donghae was shock on how did hyukjae know about his plan. Don’t take it, Im begging you. Donghae smiles and made up his mind. “I won’t.” and they both reach their orgasm with hyukjae in their abdomen and donghae inside hyukjae.
They pulls away but stay lying side by side, donghae regains his breathing and pulls hyukjae closer to his side, hyukjae cuddles him self closer and pecks on donghae’s lips. “thank you.” And he fall asleep in an instant.
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Hyukjae woke up in the same hospital bed with his hospital gown warmly wrapping his body, the room feels warm but his heart is as cold as snow, he was crying and tears continue to cascade on his cheeks, he was now alone as he could get, Everyone left him, alone and breaking. He was at lost and no one is there to even care. But that was what he thought, when every thing seems falling and breaking the door of his room opens and reveal another reason to live, sun kyu-His daughter that he promise to care and love.
“appa.” That was the voice of an angel that would push him to live and get back to his life. “I will be here for you appa.” And he knows that sun kyu is not ordinary. He signals his hand to ask the girl to go to his side; sun kyu immediately goes to his side and give him a comforting hug. “stay. Stay for me.” and he feels that sun kyu is nodding, assuring him that she would never leave.
When hyukjae woke up that day without Siwon or donghae by his side he feels like getting the knife resting on the fruits basket and slashing his wrist but he thought of the two and knows that they won’t allow hyukjae to die that way and if he kills him self the effort and the life of those two would be put to waste so he decided to live, he decided to use the life and enjoy it. It was siwon’s and donghae’s gift to him and he promise to put it in proper use. He will live the way the two wanted him to be. He would be strong and happy for the two and he still have sun kyu, he would never let the girl suffer from anymore heart aches and lose her love ones.
And hyukjae knows that his decision was never wrong. He will prove Siwon and donghae that their life is worth every thing to hyukjae as well.
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Months after the incident and everything were back to its proper place; siwon’s body was buried in the cemetery where hyukjae’s parents were buried. And donghae, no one remembers that a good doctor like him ever existed except hyukjae and sun kyu. It was a lost for hyukjae that no one remembers his love but for him it was ok as long as he remember him and he remember their love. He was satisfied with just the thought that for once a lee donghae, not a doctor nor a reaper just plain donghae, comes to complete his life. It was enough.
Sun kyu was back to her school and today was the school’s parent’s day. Hyukjae and the other parents were there to visit their kids and see their performance in school. While inside the room hyukjae feels a different aura, something very familiar to him but he shrugged it off and watch as his sun kyu do a dance and song number, he was just too proud. After the great performance he welcomes his daughter to his embrace and they both laugh heartedly.
“appa, let’s eat at the school grounds.” Sun kyu pulls hyukjae’s hands and lead him to their school grounds where most of the family set their picnic blankets and eat. Hyukjae do the same and fixed their basket once he finishes setting the blanket. He was taking their foods out when he notice that sun kyu was gone, he rounds his sight and saw his girl talking with a little boy, may be of the same age. He calls sun kyu and the other looks at him, he waves her a hand and the girl moves to him dragging the little boy too.
“appa, I want you to meet my friend Andre.” Sun kyu introduce the boy she was talking to earlier, hyukjae looks at the boy to say hello when he stop once he sees his face. He was never wrong, this face was way too familiar, and the aura coming from his eyes when they look each other in the eyes, unknown tears starts to fall from his eyes, “can I hug you?” he ask and the boy moves to him and he let hyukjae hugs him.
“Siwon.” Hyukjae could feel Siwon from this boy, the protection, the love and every thing about Siwon is in this boy. He hugs him tighter. “my angel.”
im not. But I still love you. He hears him reply, it shock him causing him to let go of their hug. “why are you crying mister? Did I hurt you? And who is Siwon?” hyukjae wipes his tears.
“Siwon oppa is appa’s best friend.” Sunkyu said. “ and protector.” She added, Andre puts his attention back to the crying hyukjae and raise his small hands to wipe hyukjae’s wet cheeks. hyukjae holds the hand that was caressing his face while looking at the peaceful face of the young guy, he was drunk by the appearance and the fact that he hears Siwon earlier but he was awaken when he hears a familiar voice shouting the kid’s name.
“Andre! Andre!” he looks at the direction of the voice and his crying just got harder. Air was getting hard to enter his body, he feels suffocated. He just can’t believe his eyes.
“im sorry, did he hurt you?” the new guy said. “andre, why did you make him cry?” focusing his attention now to the kid. “im really sorry.” And the tall guy was shock as hyukjae jumps on him and hugs him tight. Seeing this event sun kyu drags Andre to their other friends and let the two be alone for a while.
Hyukjae was not crying anymore yet continuous sobs escape his lips and but tears were still falling wetting the guy beneath him. He feels the guy’s arms moving around his waist, replying his hug. He nuzzles him self closer and he smells the familiar manly scent. “I thought I would never see you again.” He said not letting go and not even lifting his head from the other’s neck. “me either. I thought I would be missing you forever.” He hears the guy reply which makes his heart soar high in happiness. He pulls away and looks at the other’s face, it was him, and he was not dreaming donghae is back in his embrace.
Donghae lifts his hand on hyukjae’s wet cheeks, the other hand still resting protectively on hyukjae’s waist. He caresses the soft cheeks and smiles at the guy above gently. “im back.” And hyukjae leans to the guy and attach their lips. Donghae puts his hands at the back of hyukjae’s head pulling the other closer and deepening the kiss. It was so sweet, all longing and waiting was put on their kiss reuniting their hearts and feelings, Making up for their lost time.
They pulls away yet string of saliva still connecting them, hyukjae blush when donghae wipes it and kiss him on the cheek. “we’re on the school grounds.” Hyukjae said and move to sit up. Donghae chuckles at the blushing face of hyukjae, he follows the other and sit up as well. “who jumps on me and initiate the kiss?” he jokes making hyukjae blush harder. “im sorry I just really miss you.” Hyukjae says covering his face with his hands.
“how many times do I have to remind you not to cover your beautiful face huh hyukkie?” donghae pulls hyukjae’s hands away and make the other to look at him he was about to kiss hyukjae again but hyukjae stops him.
“not here, there are many people. And besides you have lots of explaining to do. “ hyukjae blush and busies him self by taking out foods from their basket then he waves at sun kyu again. The two kids moves to them and sat on the blanket, hyukjae’s heart flutter when andre and sunkyu beams a smile at him. he gives them sandwiches and juices then moves back his attention to donghae. “tell me how.”
Donghae heaves a sigh, it was a long story but he cuts it short he knows that hyukjae would insist on it no matter what. He told him that Andre was indeed Siwon, he was put on a new body to guard a new person, Andre just like sunkyu is back to being a guardian in a little kid’s form. Hyukjae ask who is the one that Andre would guard and he can’t believe his eyes when donghae points his finger to him self.
“does this mean you’re a-“ hyukjae wasn’t able to finish his statement when over whelming feelings dawn on him. Donghae nods and told him that his prayers where answered by the highest. It was hyukjae who made this all possible, with him praying time to time to let Siwon and donghae be happy where ever they are., the highest grants his wish and let donghae be back as a human in the same age as before and Siwon be a guardian for donghae meaning being a guardian to hyukjae too.
“but he didn’t know me earlier?” hyukjae ask confuse to how Siwon acted earlier.
“it was just an act we have to do, testing if you would still remember us.” Donghae chuckle while explaining earning a soft hit on the shoulder. “of course I would remember you two.”
Hyukjae looks up to the sky and held his hands on his chest. “thank you.” He whispered and he feels a hand on his waist pulling him closer.
He leans his head on donghae’s shoulder and tilts it a bit so he could see donghae’s face. Donghae looks down on him making their lips bump on each other thus making them kiss, they didn’t pull away and make them self be drunk to the feeling that they sure will share forever. “I love you.” They both whispered between their kiss.
From not so far sunkyu and Andre were standing looking at them. “I told you, you would end up with me.” sunkyu giggles and Andre looks at him. “maybe yes.” And they laugh and look back at the sweet couple, their new subject of protection, and their new parents.
Today is a new life and a new start.
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Giving your life to someone you love is not a waste especially if you know that he would keep his life safe just to show you how much you are worth to him. Though donghae’s love starts with a hurtful revenge meeting hyukjae and falling for him was never a lost because he believes that forever their love is blessed because they’re a match made in heaven.