okay sooo...
Yeah. I've been MIA for a long while, haven't I? 2010 was not a good year for me, and really 2011 isn't shaping up so well either. I've been struggling with depression and loneliness, and it gets hard always having to pick myself back up again and again
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I'm sorry to hear life hasn't been easy on you, you might have gone through harder times than others but we all experience this...
I'm a forever lonely person even when I'm surrounded by people so I'm not very good at talking to people but I'm a good listener (that's why I'm reading & replying to this rather personal post ^^)
regarding your writing issue, I totally understand. the ideas are here but like you said I have no motivation...sometimes I try to force myself but then again I realize that it's supposed something I enjoy & not an obligation so I've just given up until I find my motivation again
spam you with pics you said?
that sounds good maybe I'll be back with some
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I hope you'll feel better as the days pass by
& welcome back again ^^
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I'm much like you.. lonely even in a crowd, but I suppose that's just how I am. And like you I've tried to force myself to write as well, but I only wind up getting irritated and upset, and want to do it even less. But I'm hoping I'll get some pics that inspire me. :-)
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well I'm back with some gifs
sorry it's not pics, it's old & it's probably not that inspiring...
it's just that I miss Geng & miss them together like this :(
& there's something about them holding hands I can't explain...
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Ah depression and loneliness, I'll probably never know what you went through but there have been too many times I've felt depressed and lonely. Probably because I'm not one to voice out my feelings... But I'm glad you've picked yourself up again! :)
pictures... I haven't been saving much ever since Geng terminated his contract D:
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As for what I've been through, sometimes I think I'll write about it and get it off my chest, other times I don't want to write about it because I'll have to think about it, and I just want to move on, so instead I wind up constantly stuck in the middle.
I have so many ideas for fics... I just never seem to have the motivation to sit down and get them out. I wish there was a plug you could just.. plug into your brain and have it transfer your thoughts into words. That would be awesome.
How have you been?
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You can't force yourself to write, cause it'll come naturally when your mood is right I guess. Except the mood isn't ever right hahaha. I know how you feel - sometimes ideas come to me so fast and I get so excited thinking about how the story will unfold but when I actually sit down in front of the computer to write, I'm not in the mood anymore. So I haven't written a fic in years, just uncompleted chapters saved in my harddisk ;_;
I've... been coping, just got my GCE 'A' Level results and having a headache thinking about what Uni courses to choose. You?
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I'M SO SORRY FOR NOT COMMENTING EARLIER!!!! /waaails/
Hi? ♥ I've been... Alive? I haven't been posting as much as I want to because it's my final year in college and things are getting tough. Sigh. And I'm scared? Coz my college years will soon be over and I'll have to go out into the 'real world'? I know it's all superficial and all that, but still... I'm human. Hahaha.
I seriously need to start posting some fics.
Anyways, it's not over until the fat lady sings. Or something like that. Like one gun-slinging monk once said, 'If you meet the Buddha, kill the Buddha. If you meet your father, kill your father. Free from all bonds, living life as you are'. Life is a learning process, and it only gets tough before it gets better. Don't give up on it ok? I know it may suck real bad now, but it's just a bumpy stretch of road now. You'll get to the smooth tar roads soon, I promise. :D
I missed you? Seriously? /shuffles shuffles/
And I owe tees2mai a fic... So. Yeah.
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I'm doing a little bit better.. things aren't necessarily getting better, but I've reached the 'f-it I don't care' stage. Plus one of my friends sent me a gigantic box of chocolate chip cookies.. cookies make anything better.
And we still have to collab on something! Once we both get our mojo back.
If you want me to write you a little ficlet post a pic, and I'll see what I can come up with. And good luck with your final year of college, btw! Congrats for almost being finished. I miss college a lot.
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Ooo... Coookie~~ /steals one and hides in the corner/
Oh yes. Cookies are the cure to all ailments. ^__^ It's a good stage to be at right now. I still hope everything picks up for you though.
Oh, to collab with you would be a total dream! I'll hold you to it ok? :D
It's ok. You don't need to write me something, really. It's already beyond lovely that you still remember me and are well eventhough RL is being a bitch. I think I'll miss college, but I think I'll be glad to be moving on in life? I'm nervous and scared beyond any doubt. But I... want to see what's in store beyond the horizon? hahaha... I'm sounding like an old woman, aren't I?
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Do you have any messengers? Maybe we could keep in touch/plot that way.
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