Entertainment wanted!
Update: STILL BORED!
Ok its not actually as bad as before, but I am bored. I really need to get my Disney pictures up, i mean Steff beat me with her prom ones! lol, but anyway. Sunday was nice. In church they, of course, talked about mother's and the Virgin Mary and stuff, but at one point the said something about blessing all the mother's that had lost a child and i could see my mom try to hide it but she cry like 3 times during the mass. like i don't think anyone else saw it but i was sitting next to her and honestly i knew she would so i was watching for it. i attempted to make her feel better, i'd hold her hand when i noticed and stuff but theres only so much i can do. But yea after that we had lunch, did the present thing (we're redoing everyone's birthday's and holidays later), then amy, my daddy, and steff got in the pool and me and my mom took a nap in the hamick (wow it looks funny, is that how you spell it? i dunno) then we all talked to Granny and that was pretty much the day.
Today wasn't exactly exciting but it was pretty nice. I had my normal TV schedule and then when in the garage and played with my dad's weight machine thing for like an hour til my mom got home, helped her bring the stuff in from the car, then went swimming. my daddy ended up going swimming with me so we played with the beach ball, i'm getting go at throwing it behind my head! haha, we watched TV while we were playing since my dad got it all set up outside and Neil Diamond was on Ellen. Then he got out and i watched The Nanny and then I got out, took a shower, had dinner and now I'm back to nothing. Currently trying to decided which movie i wanna watch tonight. We got Finding Neverland on Saturday night and it was good, I normally don't cry in movies but I did in this one. Anytime theres some kid of parent or kid death it makes me cry. Like on Dawson's Creek today, it was the final episode and I knew that Jenn was going to die, I'd seen the episode before, i didn't even like Jenn, and yet i still cryed cuz she left her daughter this tape and the monologue just made me cry, at freaking 11 in the morning! haha great way to start the day, actually i guess its nice to get a good cry in every once in a while.
so i was thinking again, this time about the fact that i get so bored by myself. i can't entertain myself. i've never been able to. i've always needed other people to have fun. so i'm thinking that if i'm not enough even for myself, why would i be enough for anyone else. i think i get it now. Like me on my own is not fun. i'm only entertaining when i can act stupid. i'm the person thats suppose to do something stupid and then we all laugh about, but if i can't then what am i there for? well i mean i'm good at being nice, i'm good at making other people feel better about themselves, but i can't do that for myself. so yea this really doesn't merit any kind of responce, its just what i'm thinkin about.
ww so I was just talking to Justin again, he's back in Lynchburg, lucky, but apparently its kind of boring there too. its really nice to talk to him, he was talking about school, he's not going back to the same one next year, not sure where's he going but i'm trying to talk him into a Florida school haha that would be fun. its nice to talk to someone who doesn't think i'm a total retard. back when we were little i was smart and popular (i know that kind of sounds bad for me to say about myself, but hey i'm being honest, i was president of the school for goodness sakes! lol but no really, I'd been at the school since kindergarten so i pretty much knew everyone hehe remember the fun elementary school times Kayleigh!) they knew me before i was the dizty, confused, random, not the brightest crayon in the box girl you all know today! which makes me wonder sometimes what things would have been like if i hadn't moved, but i guess there are some things we're just not meant to know.
So tomorrow we're going to the beach! YAY!! no more bored in my house blues for me! don't know exactly who is going or who i'm riding with but we'll figured that out tomorrow! i know that i talked jon, will, and matt into it and it was lauren and jenny's idea, and glenn is driving christian and raquel, but beyond that i'm not sure! hehe but whoever comes it shall be a fun day! Note to self: Don't forget camera! and keep it away from matt! lol
Ok so I have been on the phone since before 9pm and it is now almost 1am and i have not actually gotten off til now! (thank God for free night minutes or my mother would kill me!) now i wasn't on the phone with just one person the whole time, no I'm much more fun than that! haha i talked to julie and jessie cuz they're still on their trip, glenn, matt, will, christian, keriann, jon, jessica h and stephanie r, and rodney. but it was a constant stream of hang up and have to call someone else cuz either i had to tell them about tomorrow or they had called me while i was talking to another person and i couldn't switch over at the time. haha so i am now off to bed!
*~*Good night all! :)*~*