I See You, in a Quick Glance.
Title: I See You, in a Quick Glance
Author: kimxihun
Pairing/Members: Kris/Suho
Rating: G
Prompt: mamihlapinatapai - n. a look shared by two people, each wishing that the other would initiate something they both desire but which neither wants to begin
“There’s no real explanations of what eye contacts mean.
Is it hope, or is it only a glance in a quick second.
What you don’t realize is, it takes a bit of your souls.
The latter who stares back into you, can see right into your heart.”
Suho has been wandering around the cafetaria, until he finally setlles in the place right on the corner. With his lunch box at his hands, he carefully sits there. Suho has two best friends to color his life: Chanyeol and Jongdae. And somehow, life has been great. Although, Suho is never interested in his love life for the past few years because of his undying love to Kyungsoo. Then suddenly, Kyungsoo has Jongin in his life and he starts to build the wall so high. It’s hard to forget though, because he loved Kyungsoo so much at that time. And he thinks that Kyungsoo might not be the one for him. So, he grows his courage and probably try to believe in love again.
Suho then looks into his watch and wonders, because his best friends should’ve been here. Classes are over minutes ago. With a heavy sigh, Suho looks around until his eyes stops on a direction. 1, 2, 3. Beep. 1, 2, 3. Beep. 1, 2, 3. Beep.
There’s the rhytm of his heart when he sees a boy sits in front of him. Suho can clearly see that his hair is still wet and there’s these wonderful sharp eyes stared back into him. Suho doesn’t even know but every cell in his body starts blossoming and it feels so ticklish that he wants to smile widely. There’s the shine on this boy that makes him rooted into his seat and doesn’t want to look anywhere else.
“SUHO!!!” Jongdae screams before he sits in front of Suho. Suho snaps back into reality, although there’s still weird feeling inside. Suho looks up to see Jongdae as Jongdae sits next to him.
“Hey, why are you so late? I’ve been waiting for 10 minutes!” Suho says. Suho starts to open his lunch box.
“Because of Mrs. Jung! You know, there’s this guy who didn’t do the assignment and she’s so mad at us...”
Jongdae continues his talks and complains whereas actually Suho doesn’t really pay attention to. And from the leaps of his heart, he really wants to get to know the guy.
The next day, Suho sits in the same corner. The cafetaria is much more crowded this time. Suho waits for the break time to come. This is not his typical, because Suho always loves to study. He’s fond of Biology and Korean. Suho sees the guy finally coming with a binder in his hand as he starts to jot down everything from the notebook beside it. Suho starts to act like he’s eating, Because, he’s not. He feels like it’s creepy. How only in one glance he suddenly feels this way and he can’t stop staring. Suho loves the way the guy really is and he doesn’t know what to do.
Suddenly, the guy looks at him. Right on the eyes and his heart does the same thing again. 1, 2, 3. Beep. 1, 2, 3. Beep. 1, 2, 3. Beep. Suho can’t even makes himself stay still.
‘Oh God, what should I do?’ Suho deeply thinks. And he finds out, he should be drinking water to look like he’s not staring. Yup! So, there Suho goes as he takes the bottle and drinks from it. Then, he feels hot in the tongue and it’s getting hotter.
‘Wait, shouldn’t a water taste good? Why does it taste so spicy?’ Suho thinks. Until he looks at the bottle. It’s no other than a tabasco sauce. Suho starts to jump because he needs water. Suho search for his water but he doesn’t find it everywhere.
‘Do I left it in the class?’ Suho thinks again as he jumps around and he feels like an idiot. This is so stupid. Suho starts to teary up because he doesn’t handle spicy things really well.
“Hey, this is my water. You can have this.” A deep voice behind him says. Suho looks up at the guy and it’s his crush. Suho wants to wail and he mentally slaps himself. But, Suho then takes the bottle and drinks gulps and gulps of waters.
“Y-you’re a life saver. Thank you. I’m so sorry that I drank your water too much.” Suho says to the person. And that person smiles at him. Suho feels like a melting chocolate this time because of that stare.
“That’s okay. I was actually worried, I thought you were quite weird that you have the habit of drinking tabasco sauce.” The person laughs. Suho then laughs. Yes, he laughs about his stupidity.
“N-no, I mistakenly thought it was my water.” Suho answers and the person is still laughing. Until, the person taps his shoulder and leaves him. Then, Suho literally slaps himself in the cheek.
Suho finally gets caught by Jongdae. Well, Suho keeps on spacing out when Jongdae and Chanyeol talk. But, Chanyeol is super insensitive about these kind of situations, especially because Chanyeol only has his right mind when it comes to Baekhyun.
“Dude, seriously, are you falling for Kris?” Jongdae finally asks when Suho keeps staring to his crush.
“Kris? Who?” Suho asks back.
“That guy that you’ve been staring into. He’s Kris. He’s Chinese but he moved to Seoul several weeks ago and decided to be transferred into our school. He might be taking Minho’s position as the Captain of the Basketball team.” Jongdae tells him.
“Oh, so, that’s his name! I’ve been trying to figure out his name! Anyway, what else do you know about him?” Suho asks with such a cheerful face.
“He’s handsome, lots of girls chase him. He’s godly handsome. And nope, I haven’t really talk to him. But, he’s nice and tall. He also got a six pack tummy because he’s in my gym class and I saw it! Yeay!” Jongdae says.
“WHAT?! OH GOD?! I WANT TO SEE IT TOO. SGJWAGUUGAUJGUGAG.” Suho says and Jongdae whacks him in the back of his head.
“You need to stop being that creepy, okay. Unless, you want him to be scared of you. You really need to talk to him and introduce yourself.” Jongdae says.
“Nah, I think I’ll sit that one out. I’ll just continue staring at him.” Suho answers and makes a sad face.
“Hey, find the courage! It won’t be as bad as Kyungsoo. Anyways, he was just too stupid to realize how much you love him!” Jongdae says.
“Really?” Suho asks.
“Yeah, you guys can be together if fate lets you. If fate doesn’t, force it!” Jongdae says. And Suho thinks it is right.”
After two weeks of having little leaps of his heart, the weird feeling on his tummy and the way he has been day dreaming. Suho is sure that he’s officially in a crush towards Kris. Jongdae has try to find some basics information and Suho feel thankful. Although, Chanyeol has finally on his right mind and finally, realized that Suho has a crush on someone. And Suho likes to keep Chanyeol very curious about this.
“Oh my God! You need to tell me your crush. We’ve been friends since forever, don’t you feel like you should tell me!!! Please!!!” Chanyeol begs to Suho with a pouty face and Suho thinks that it’s not cool at all and it makes him wonder why people think Chanyeol is adorable.
“I’m not having a crush on anyone. So, can you please shut up.” Suho says with a straight face and his hands crossed over his chest.
“Jongdae! Then you must know about the crush, right?” Chanyeol asks to Jongdae when he’s back with a tray of food.
“What crush?” Jongdae simply asks. Suho winks at Jongdae to keep it as a secret and Jongdae seems to respond anything.
“The one that Suho has a crush one!” Chanyeol suggests.
“It’s Kris.” Jongdae simply answers and mischievously smiles. Suho feels that he’s on fire and quickly stomp Jongdae’s feet.
Minutes later, Jongdae gets two bruises in his body: one on the feet that Suho stomped and on the lap when it hit the cafetaria table.
Suho finds out that Kris real name is Wu Fan. Kris is very competitive and ambitious to everything, he wants to achieve good things and make his parents proud of him. He’s very talkative to the people he’s close too, and somehow, Yixing, another Chinese has been with him for about two weeks.
Suho doesn’t even know what to say when he sees the both of them and they’re really close. Suho gets to see Kris everyday, but doesn’t find the courage to talk to him and introduce himself. Because, deep down, he feels he’s not that up to par to be with Kris. Plus, he doesn’t know if Kris would be interested.
Kris is an epitome of perfection in Suho’s everyday life. When Suho doesn’t see Kris, he feels terrible. Suho had eye contacts with him and Kris would shot him a stare too. It feels like hope. It’s like his wounded heart has finally found the Armor to protect it. Then suddenly, Yixing appears and sits next to Kris. Suho starts to gulp on his drink as he gulp the hurt feelings. ‘Would he want to be with me?’ Suho thinks.
Suho comes to school earlier than the usual today. He had to go with an umbrella along with him everyday since the rain always starts in the morning. He wears a super thick sweater but it’s wet a little bit since he has to run a few blocks away. He looks down and shivers because the cold isn’t bearable. His body never tolerate cold things, he wears the thickest of everything to be put in his body.
Suho quickly gets into the locker room and changes to his thicker sweater and puts the umbrella there. Suho then closes his locker and is about to go out of the room. Suho’s feet stay rooted because there’s Kris in front of him and he’s about to get in while Suho is supposed to move away and he can’t. Kris then sees Suho and gives him a smile. Suho feels like his body is heating up. Suho feels the leaps of his heart again, not the wounded heart of his.
“You’re cold, aren’t you?” Kris asks as he puts his hand on Suho’s arm.
“Urhm.... A-a little bit. I was running from the bus stop.” Suho answers. Suho’s eyes meet Kris and he has just notice that it’s a dark brown colored.
“Same as me, though. My mom made me this tea and she said it can keep me warm. Do you want some? Because, I think you really need one. You look pale.” Kris says.
“Really? I must look terrible. My body can’t tolerate the cold. So, that’s why I look pale.” Suho answers. Kris pours him a good amount of tea in the paper cup.
“You’re my different side then, I can’t handle the hot.” Kris answers and smiles again. Suho drinks the tea slowly and it’s different from all the tea he had taste.
“It tastes really good.” Suho compliments and Kris nods along.
“My mom made this with some ingredients, she loves to put Chinese herbals in the tea.” Kris explains. When Suho is done, he smiles whole-heartedly to Kris.
“Thank you, for the tea.” Suho says. Suho quickly takes his bag to leave and he’s already walking, suddenly Kris grabs his arm.
“Will you at least tell me your name? I’ve seen you around a lot and the last time we talked, I gave you my water to save your mouth from that Tabasco sauce.” Kris says. Suho feels like his heart leaps faster than the usual, his stomach churns and his eyes meets Kris ones.
“I’m Suho.” Suho replies and Kris moves away his hand from Suho’s arm.
“Then you can call me Kris, or Wu Fan. Whatever, it’s your own preference.” Kris says.
“Kris. I think I’d call you Kris.” Suho answers. Kris feels satisfied.
Jongdae has always been the one to notice things that happen to Suho, simply because they've been close to each other. Jongdae is very sensitive about these things.
“So, you finally introduce yourself?” Jongdae asks before he takes a spoonful of lasagna into his mouth.
“Yeah, he asked me to at least tell my name and I did.” Suho answers.
“That’s great! Then, when will you confess?” Jongdae asks excitedly.
“Urhm, not that fast. And I probably won’t. Remember when I told Kyungsoo and he rejected me, I cried myself for two weeks.” Suho says.
“Hey, he’s not bad. I heard the worst love will only happen once to everyone. And you had it. This might be the brighter chance of your love life. Besides, Kris is cool and he already protects you even before he knows your name. Don’t you think he’s already interested?” Jongdae asks.
“I hope so. Besides, he may not be interested when he has Yixing tailed him around like that.” Suho says and makes a frown.
“No, they’re just friends. Trust me!” Jongdae says cheerfully and Suho just sighs. Jongdae hugs him tightly and Suho smiles.
‘I hope so, Jongdae. I hope he likes me too.’ Suho thinks.
Suho lets go of the hug with a smile. Then, when he looks to the table in front of him, there’s Kris. Suho is about to come to Kris and Jongdae pushes him from the back. But, Yixing suddenly comes and covers Kris’s eyes.
“Guess who~?” Yixing says with a failed attempt to deepen his voice.
“It’s obviously you, Xingxing.” Kris answers and they laugh about it. Suho’s face turns sad and sighs. Small little tears start to form in his eyes. Suho coughs to hold on his cry and eventually, walks away. Suho hears Jongdae calling him, but he disappears.
It’s finally Saturday and Suho plans to do a healing to himself. So, in the morning he already has money shoves into his wallet and wears the most comfortable clothes. He also plans to go to Chanyeol’s place to return his sweater. Suho starts walking to he nearest book store he can reach and reads some book. He also looks around for good books that his friends reccomended. Suho thinks that this way is the best healing way, other than to watch tv shows like Hannibal because it might stress himself more. Suho looks around the stationery place and he likes to look at cute things. It slowly makes him forget about his broken hearted state. Suho likes to keep cute note books with his signature along with it and he simply puts them in his special wardrobe. Though, he won’t do anything at them because sometimes the colorful papers are too pretty to be touched by the inks of his pen. Suho finds himself a set on rillakkuma’s things: a note book, 2 pencils and a pen. Suho feels so happy and decides to purchase it.
The next place he goes is the Han River, Suho takes a steady stand starts to capture picture of the beautiful panorama in front of his eyes. The sky is very clear blue and the heat permeated into Suho’s skin makes him happy. Suho gets into the hobby of photography since he was a kid and never really pursue it to be a profesion, he likes to keep it only as hobby and stress-reliever. In every breath when he captures a picture, he thanks God because of the beautiful life has. Suho manages to capture a lot of photos during the few minutes and he then sits on one of the seat. Suho checks the photos and he smiles.
Although, he stops on the photo of Kris’s side profile that he took on the cafetaria. The shining sun is in contrast of Kris’s serious face, but it seems like the real shine is from Kris. Suho can still feel the charismatic figure, he feels the leaps of his heart starts, even if it’s only a photo. Suho starts to cry again as he wipes his tears. The sky grows darker when it’s only 12 p.m. and Suho is sure that he sees some lightning. He puts his camera back into his bag and walks away. He’s too far from home right now, he should probably walk for 30 minutes to reach there.
Suho manages to keep his walk slow, he sees a beautiful pair of kids and they’re playing with the balloons and he thinks it’s cute. He also sees that there are cool sport cars. He always love this city, especially when it’s around 4 p.m because it’s still warm and there’s a lot of people.
Little amount of rain pours from the sky as Suho starts to use his umbrella and run. A few minutes later, the rain turns into a big one so, he quickly turns left into the beautiful coffeeshop. The delicate and warm coffeeshop welcomes him as he takes the seat next to the window.
The waiter comes to ask, but Suho quickly says he wants to order a cup of hot cappucino. The rain heavily pours and minutes later, a cup of hot cappucino is already in front of Suho. Suho smiles to the waiter to thank her. Suho smiles because he thinks that this is what a healing should be. A cup of nice coffee while rain is outside, gives the refreshing smell.
A lot of people enter the coffeeshop because of the rain and eventually it’s full of people. Although, Suho is glad because it’s not crowded. Suho listens into the songs from his phone and sings along the few lines that he memorized before.
“Suho?” And Suho looks up to that person. Damn, it’s Kris and he’s soaked wet.
“Kris. What are you doing here?” Suho asks.
“I was just walking and suddenly, it rains. So, I got here. May I sit here?” Kris asks back. Suho nods politely.
“You’re soaked. Do you bring another clothes?” Suho asks back. Kris shakes his head.
“It’s okay, though. I think I’ll be fine.” Kris replies and smiles. Suho starts to worry and finally, he pulls out Chanyeol’s sweater.
“This is Chanyeol’s, you can wear them. I also brought a little towel. You can use this.” Suho offers to Kris.
“Are you sure that Chanyeol will be okay?” Kris asks.
“Yeah, he’ll be cool about it.” Suho answers.
Kris has changed into Chanyeol’s sweater and it fits. Suho orders a hot chocolate for Kris though, just in case he feels cold.
“So, how are you? Jongdae told me you’re not going to school for 2 days.” Kris asks.
“I was feeling sick.” Suho shortly replies. He tries to not keep this awkward tension between them.
“T-thanks for the sweater though.” Kris says.
Soon, the rain magically stops pouring and Suho finishes the coffee quickly. Kris and Suho don’t talk a lot instead there’s only silence between them.
“Yeay! Finally the rain is over. I’ve paid for everything. And, I’ll just go home now. Bye, Kris!” Suho says as he packs up his things and leave immediately. Suho starts to run away so quickly. But, Kris got the longer legs, so he quickly pulls Suho.
“W-wait! Let me walk you home!” Kris says.
“It’s too far. You can just go home.” Suho says, even though he doesn’t want to be rude but he thinks that this is the best idea.
“Just please, only this once.” Kris begs and Suho nods. So, they walk together. Suho looks to Kris and he’s glad that Kris is still fit after the rain.
“So, how are you and Yixing?” Suho starts the conversation.
“Didn’t Jongdae tell you? He’s dating with Yixing two days ago. And they’ve been doing fine. Yixing is very happy.” Kris answers.
“
Oh, I thought you and Yixing were... Urhm, nevermind.” Suho says.
“Yixing is very sweet and he really likes Jongdae from the beginning. I sometimes overheard your conversation with Jongdae and I think Jongdae had told you that he likes Yixing. I’m very surprised that you didn’t notice.” Kris explains.
“But, really, I thought you were with him.” Suho says and he laughs.
“He’s my own cousin, Suho! There’s no way I’d do that.” Kris says. Suho feels like hating himself because of his stupid jealousy rage.
“Then since you’re new to the school, do you found someone interesting?” Suho asks carefully. They lock their eyes when they talk and Suho feels the leaps of his heart again.
“Yeah, I guess. This person is so interesting. But, I don’t know how to start with him.” Kris says. Suho looks down though, because he thinks that there’s no chance that it’d be him.
“Why don’t you talk to him?” Suho asks again and Kris smiles.
“I tried to grab a hold of him, but it seems like he’s walking away.” Kris answers. Suho can see there’s a glint of sadness in Kris’s eyes.
“Don’t worry, he’ll like you back.” Suho pats Kris’s shoulder. Suho smiles, hoping that it would make Kris be fine and strong.
The walk seems to be short, in Suho’s opinion as they both finally arrive in front of Suho’s home. The small house with the creme colored walls next to the cotton candy shop.
“Is this your house?” Kris asks and Suho nods.
“Yeah, it is.” Suho answers.
“It’s so close to mine. You need to visit my house sometimes!” Kris says and Suho excitedly says yes.
“So, I should probably get going right now.” Kris says and Suho nods. Kris looks into Suho’s eyes deeply and feels like he’s frozen. They both locking they’re eyes without breaking the eye contact, and they move closer to each other. Suho closes his eyes when he feels Kris’s lips on his. Suho feels his heart melts, he can feel his blood rushing and above all, the soft lips against his is really warm. Kris releases the kiss and smiles to Suho. Both of them already know what this means and smile.
“I’ll see you at school on Monday!” Kris says, before he ruffles Suho’s hair, gives him another peck and leaves. Suho feels his heart is already ripped into two; half is in him and half is with Kris. In the end, Suho finds out what their eye contacts mean: we love each other.
Author: kimxihun
Pairing/Members: Kris/Suho
Rating: G
Prompt: mamihlapinatapai - n. a look shared by two people, each wishing that the other would initiate something they both desire but which neither wants to begin
“There’s no real explanations of what eye contacts mean.
Is it hope, or is it only a glance in a quick second.
What you don’t realize is, it takes a bit of your souls.
The latter who stares back into you, can see right into your heart.”
Suho has been wandering around the cafetaria, until he finally setlles in the place right on the corner. With his lunch box at his hands, he carefully sits there. Suho has two best friends to color his life: Chanyeol and Jongdae. And somehow, life has been great. Although, Suho is never interested in his love life for the past few years because of his undying love to Kyungsoo. Then suddenly, Kyungsoo has Jongin in his life and he starts to build the wall so high. It’s hard to forget though, because he loved Kyungsoo so much at that time. And he thinks that Kyungsoo might not be the one for him. So, he grows his courage and probably try to believe in love again.
Suho then looks into his watch and wonders, because his best friends should’ve been here. Classes are over minutes ago. With a heavy sigh, Suho looks around until his eyes stops on a direction. 1, 2, 3. Beep. 1, 2, 3. Beep. 1, 2, 3. Beep.
There’s the rhytm of his heart when he sees a boy sits in front of him. Suho can clearly see that his hair is still wet and there’s these wonderful sharp eyes stared back into him. Suho doesn’t even know but every cell in his body starts blossoming and it feels so ticklish that he wants to smile widely. There’s the shine on this boy that makes him rooted into his seat and doesn’t want to look anywhere else.
“SUHO!!!” Jongdae screams before he sits in front of Suho. Suho snaps back into reality, although there’s still weird feeling inside. Suho looks up to see Jongdae as Jongdae sits next to him.
“Hey, why are you so late? I’ve been waiting for 10 minutes!” Suho says. Suho starts to open his lunch box.
“Because of Mrs. Jung! You know, there’s this guy who didn’t do the assignment and she’s so mad at us...”
Jongdae continues his talks and complains whereas actually Suho doesn’t really pay attention to. And from the leaps of his heart, he really wants to get to know the guy.
The next day, Suho sits in the same corner. The cafetaria is much more crowded this time. Suho waits for the break time to come. This is not his typical, because Suho always loves to study. He’s fond of Biology and Korean. Suho sees the guy finally coming with a binder in his hand as he starts to jot down everything from the notebook beside it. Suho starts to act like he’s eating, Because, he’s not. He feels like it’s creepy. How only in one glance he suddenly feels this way and he can’t stop staring. Suho loves the way the guy really is and he doesn’t know what to do.
Suddenly, the guy looks at him. Right on the eyes and his heart does the same thing again. 1, 2, 3. Beep. 1, 2, 3. Beep. 1, 2, 3. Beep. Suho can’t even makes himself stay still.
‘Oh God, what should I do?’ Suho deeply thinks. And he finds out, he should be drinking water to look like he’s not staring. Yup! So, there Suho goes as he takes the bottle and drinks from it. Then, he feels hot in the tongue and it’s getting hotter.
‘Wait, shouldn’t a water taste good? Why does it taste so spicy?’ Suho thinks. Until he looks at the bottle. It’s no other than a tabasco sauce. Suho starts to jump because he needs water. Suho search for his water but he doesn’t find it everywhere.
‘Do I left it in the class?’ Suho thinks again as he jumps around and he feels like an idiot. This is so stupid. Suho starts to teary up because he doesn’t handle spicy things really well.
“Hey, this is my water. You can have this.” A deep voice behind him says. Suho looks up at the guy and it’s his crush. Suho wants to wail and he mentally slaps himself. But, Suho then takes the bottle and drinks gulps and gulps of waters.
“Y-you’re a life saver. Thank you. I’m so sorry that I drank your water too much.” Suho says to the person. And that person smiles at him. Suho feels like a melting chocolate this time because of that stare.
“That’s okay. I was actually worried, I thought you were quite weird that you have the habit of drinking tabasco sauce.” The person laughs. Suho then laughs. Yes, he laughs about his stupidity.
“N-no, I mistakenly thought it was my water.” Suho answers and the person is still laughing. Until, the person taps his shoulder and leaves him. Then, Suho literally slaps himself in the cheek.
Suho finally gets caught by Jongdae. Well, Suho keeps on spacing out when Jongdae and Chanyeol talk. But, Chanyeol is super insensitive about these kind of situations, especially because Chanyeol only has his right mind when it comes to Baekhyun.
“Dude, seriously, are you falling for Kris?” Jongdae finally asks when Suho keeps staring to his crush.
“Kris? Who?” Suho asks back.
“That guy that you’ve been staring into. He’s Kris. He’s Chinese but he moved to Seoul several weeks ago and decided to be transferred into our school. He might be taking Minho’s position as the Captain of the Basketball team.” Jongdae tells him.
“Oh, so, that’s his name! I’ve been trying to figure out his name! Anyway, what else do you know about him?” Suho asks with such a cheerful face.
“He’s handsome, lots of girls chase him. He’s godly handsome. And nope, I haven’t really talk to him. But, he’s nice and tall. He also got a six pack tummy because he’s in my gym class and I saw it! Yeay!” Jongdae says.
“WHAT?! OH GOD?! I WANT TO SEE IT TOO. SGJWAGUUGAUJGUGAG.” Suho says and Jongdae whacks him in the back of his head.
“You need to stop being that creepy, okay. Unless, you want him to be scared of you. You really need to talk to him and introduce yourself.” Jongdae says.
“Nah, I think I’ll sit that one out. I’ll just continue staring at him.” Suho answers and makes a sad face.
“Hey, find the courage! It won’t be as bad as Kyungsoo. Anyways, he was just too stupid to realize how much you love him!” Jongdae says.
“Really?” Suho asks.
“Yeah, you guys can be together if fate lets you. If fate doesn’t, force it!” Jongdae says. And Suho thinks it is right.”
After two weeks of having little leaps of his heart, the weird feeling on his tummy and the way he has been day dreaming. Suho is sure that he’s officially in a crush towards Kris. Jongdae has try to find some basics information and Suho feel thankful. Although, Chanyeol has finally on his right mind and finally, realized that Suho has a crush on someone. And Suho likes to keep Chanyeol very curious about this.
“Oh my God! You need to tell me your crush. We’ve been friends since forever, don’t you feel like you should tell me!!! Please!!!” Chanyeol begs to Suho with a pouty face and Suho thinks that it’s not cool at all and it makes him wonder why people think Chanyeol is adorable.
“I’m not having a crush on anyone. So, can you please shut up.” Suho says with a straight face and his hands crossed over his chest.
“Jongdae! Then you must know about the crush, right?” Chanyeol asks to Jongdae when he’s back with a tray of food.
“What crush?” Jongdae simply asks. Suho winks at Jongdae to keep it as a secret and Jongdae seems to respond anything.
“The one that Suho has a crush one!” Chanyeol suggests.
“It’s Kris.” Jongdae simply answers and mischievously smiles. Suho feels that he’s on fire and quickly stomp Jongdae’s feet.
Minutes later, Jongdae gets two bruises in his body: one on the feet that Suho stomped and on the lap when it hit the cafetaria table.
Suho finds out that Kris real name is Wu Fan. Kris is very competitive and ambitious to everything, he wants to achieve good things and make his parents proud of him. He’s very talkative to the people he’s close too, and somehow, Yixing, another Chinese has been with him for about two weeks.
Suho doesn’t even know what to say when he sees the both of them and they’re really close. Suho gets to see Kris everyday, but doesn’t find the courage to talk to him and introduce himself. Because, deep down, he feels he’s not that up to par to be with Kris. Plus, he doesn’t know if Kris would be interested.
Kris is an epitome of perfection in Suho’s everyday life. When Suho doesn’t see Kris, he feels terrible. Suho had eye contacts with him and Kris would shot him a stare too. It feels like hope. It’s like his wounded heart has finally found the Armor to protect it. Then suddenly, Yixing appears and sits next to Kris. Suho starts to gulp on his drink as he gulp the hurt feelings. ‘Would he want to be with me?’ Suho thinks.
Suho comes to school earlier than the usual today. He had to go with an umbrella along with him everyday since the rain always starts in the morning. He wears a super thick sweater but it’s wet a little bit since he has to run a few blocks away. He looks down and shivers because the cold isn’t bearable. His body never tolerate cold things, he wears the thickest of everything to be put in his body.
Suho quickly gets into the locker room and changes to his thicker sweater and puts the umbrella there. Suho then closes his locker and is about to go out of the room. Suho’s feet stay rooted because there’s Kris in front of him and he’s about to get in while Suho is supposed to move away and he can’t. Kris then sees Suho and gives him a smile. Suho feels like his body is heating up. Suho feels the leaps of his heart again, not the wounded heart of his.
“You’re cold, aren’t you?” Kris asks as he puts his hand on Suho’s arm.
“Urhm.... A-a little bit. I was running from the bus stop.” Suho answers. Suho’s eyes meet Kris and he has just notice that it’s a dark brown colored.
“Same as me, though. My mom made me this tea and she said it can keep me warm. Do you want some? Because, I think you really need one. You look pale.” Kris says.
“Really? I must look terrible. My body can’t tolerate the cold. So, that’s why I look pale.” Suho answers. Kris pours him a good amount of tea in the paper cup.
“You’re my different side then, I can’t handle the hot.” Kris answers and smiles again. Suho drinks the tea slowly and it’s different from all the tea he had taste.
“It tastes really good.” Suho compliments and Kris nods along.
“My mom made this with some ingredients, she loves to put Chinese herbals in the tea.” Kris explains. When Suho is done, he smiles whole-heartedly to Kris.
“Thank you, for the tea.” Suho says. Suho quickly takes his bag to leave and he’s already walking, suddenly Kris grabs his arm.
“Will you at least tell me your name? I’ve seen you around a lot and the last time we talked, I gave you my water to save your mouth from that Tabasco sauce.” Kris says. Suho feels like his heart leaps faster than the usual, his stomach churns and his eyes meets Kris ones.
“I’m Suho.” Suho replies and Kris moves away his hand from Suho’s arm.
“Then you can call me Kris, or Wu Fan. Whatever, it’s your own preference.” Kris says.
“Kris. I think I’d call you Kris.” Suho answers. Kris feels satisfied.
Jongdae has always been the one to notice things that happen to Suho, simply because they've been close to each other. Jongdae is very sensitive about these things.
“So, you finally introduce yourself?” Jongdae asks before he takes a spoonful of lasagna into his mouth.
“Yeah, he asked me to at least tell my name and I did.” Suho answers.
“That’s great! Then, when will you confess?” Jongdae asks excitedly.
“Urhm, not that fast. And I probably won’t. Remember when I told Kyungsoo and he rejected me, I cried myself for two weeks.” Suho says.
“Hey, he’s not bad. I heard the worst love will only happen once to everyone. And you had it. This might be the brighter chance of your love life. Besides, Kris is cool and he already protects you even before he knows your name. Don’t you think he’s already interested?” Jongdae asks.
“I hope so. Besides, he may not be interested when he has Yixing tailed him around like that.” Suho says and makes a frown.
“No, they’re just friends. Trust me!” Jongdae says cheerfully and Suho just sighs. Jongdae hugs him tightly and Suho smiles.
‘I hope so, Jongdae. I hope he likes me too.’ Suho thinks.
Suho lets go of the hug with a smile. Then, when he looks to the table in front of him, there’s Kris. Suho is about to come to Kris and Jongdae pushes him from the back. But, Yixing suddenly comes and covers Kris’s eyes.
“Guess who~?” Yixing says with a failed attempt to deepen his voice.
“It’s obviously you, Xingxing.” Kris answers and they laugh about it. Suho’s face turns sad and sighs. Small little tears start to form in his eyes. Suho coughs to hold on his cry and eventually, walks away. Suho hears Jongdae calling him, but he disappears.
It’s finally Saturday and Suho plans to do a healing to himself. So, in the morning he already has money shoves into his wallet and wears the most comfortable clothes. He also plans to go to Chanyeol’s place to return his sweater. Suho starts walking to he nearest book store he can reach and reads some book. He also looks around for good books that his friends reccomended. Suho thinks that this way is the best healing way, other than to watch tv shows like Hannibal because it might stress himself more. Suho looks around the stationery place and he likes to look at cute things. It slowly makes him forget about his broken hearted state. Suho likes to keep cute note books with his signature along with it and he simply puts them in his special wardrobe. Though, he won’t do anything at them because sometimes the colorful papers are too pretty to be touched by the inks of his pen. Suho finds himself a set on rillakkuma’s things: a note book, 2 pencils and a pen. Suho feels so happy and decides to purchase it.
The next place he goes is the Han River, Suho takes a steady stand starts to capture picture of the beautiful panorama in front of his eyes. The sky is very clear blue and the heat permeated into Suho’s skin makes him happy. Suho gets into the hobby of photography since he was a kid and never really pursue it to be a profesion, he likes to keep it only as hobby and stress-reliever. In every breath when he captures a picture, he thanks God because of the beautiful life has. Suho manages to capture a lot of photos during the few minutes and he then sits on one of the seat. Suho checks the photos and he smiles.
Although, he stops on the photo of Kris’s side profile that he took on the cafetaria. The shining sun is in contrast of Kris’s serious face, but it seems like the real shine is from Kris. Suho can still feel the charismatic figure, he feels the leaps of his heart starts, even if it’s only a photo. Suho starts to cry again as he wipes his tears. The sky grows darker when it’s only 12 p.m. and Suho is sure that he sees some lightning. He puts his camera back into his bag and walks away. He’s too far from home right now, he should probably walk for 30 minutes to reach there.
Suho manages to keep his walk slow, he sees a beautiful pair of kids and they’re playing with the balloons and he thinks it’s cute. He also sees that there are cool sport cars. He always love this city, especially when it’s around 4 p.m because it’s still warm and there’s a lot of people.
Little amount of rain pours from the sky as Suho starts to use his umbrella and run. A few minutes later, the rain turns into a big one so, he quickly turns left into the beautiful coffeeshop. The delicate and warm coffeeshop welcomes him as he takes the seat next to the window.
The waiter comes to ask, but Suho quickly says he wants to order a cup of hot cappucino. The rain heavily pours and minutes later, a cup of hot cappucino is already in front of Suho. Suho smiles to the waiter to thank her. Suho smiles because he thinks that this is what a healing should be. A cup of nice coffee while rain is outside, gives the refreshing smell.
A lot of people enter the coffeeshop because of the rain and eventually it’s full of people. Although, Suho is glad because it’s not crowded. Suho listens into the songs from his phone and sings along the few lines that he memorized before.
“Suho?” And Suho looks up to that person. Damn, it’s Kris and he’s soaked wet.
“Kris. What are you doing here?” Suho asks.
“I was just walking and suddenly, it rains. So, I got here. May I sit here?” Kris asks back. Suho nods politely.
“You’re soaked. Do you bring another clothes?” Suho asks back. Kris shakes his head.
“It’s okay, though. I think I’ll be fine.” Kris replies and smiles. Suho starts to worry and finally, he pulls out Chanyeol’s sweater.
“This is Chanyeol’s, you can wear them. I also brought a little towel. You can use this.” Suho offers to Kris.
“Are you sure that Chanyeol will be okay?” Kris asks.
“Yeah, he’ll be cool about it.” Suho answers.
Kris has changed into Chanyeol’s sweater and it fits. Suho orders a hot chocolate for Kris though, just in case he feels cold.
“So, how are you? Jongdae told me you’re not going to school for 2 days.” Kris asks.
“I was feeling sick.” Suho shortly replies. He tries to not keep this awkward tension between them.
“T-thanks for the sweater though.” Kris says.
Soon, the rain magically stops pouring and Suho finishes the coffee quickly. Kris and Suho don’t talk a lot instead there’s only silence between them.
“Yeay! Finally the rain is over. I’ve paid for everything. And, I’ll just go home now. Bye, Kris!” Suho says as he packs up his things and leave immediately. Suho starts to run away so quickly. But, Kris got the longer legs, so he quickly pulls Suho.
“W-wait! Let me walk you home!” Kris says.
“It’s too far. You can just go home.” Suho says, even though he doesn’t want to be rude but he thinks that this is the best idea.
“Just please, only this once.” Kris begs and Suho nods. So, they walk together. Suho looks to Kris and he’s glad that Kris is still fit after the rain.
“So, how are you and Yixing?” Suho starts the conversation.
“Didn’t Jongdae tell you? He’s dating with Yixing two days ago. And they’ve been doing fine. Yixing is very happy.” Kris answers.
“
Oh, I thought you and Yixing were... Urhm, nevermind.” Suho says.
“Yixing is very sweet and he really likes Jongdae from the beginning. I sometimes overheard your conversation with Jongdae and I think Jongdae had told you that he likes Yixing. I’m very surprised that you didn’t notice.” Kris explains.
“But, really, I thought you were with him.” Suho says and he laughs.
“He’s my own cousin, Suho! There’s no way I’d do that.” Kris says. Suho feels like hating himself because of his stupid jealousy rage.
“Then since you’re new to the school, do you found someone interesting?” Suho asks carefully. They lock their eyes when they talk and Suho feels the leaps of his heart again.
“Yeah, I guess. This person is so interesting. But, I don’t know how to start with him.” Kris says. Suho looks down though, because he thinks that there’s no chance that it’d be him.
“Why don’t you talk to him?” Suho asks again and Kris smiles.
“I tried to grab a hold of him, but it seems like he’s walking away.” Kris answers. Suho can see there’s a glint of sadness in Kris’s eyes.
“Don’t worry, he’ll like you back.” Suho pats Kris’s shoulder. Suho smiles, hoping that it would make Kris be fine and strong.
The walk seems to be short, in Suho’s opinion as they both finally arrive in front of Suho’s home. The small house with the creme colored walls next to the cotton candy shop.
“Is this your house?” Kris asks and Suho nods.
“Yeah, it is.” Suho answers.
“It’s so close to mine. You need to visit my house sometimes!” Kris says and Suho excitedly says yes.
“So, I should probably get going right now.” Kris says and Suho nods. Kris looks into Suho’s eyes deeply and feels like he’s frozen. They both locking they’re eyes without breaking the eye contact, and they move closer to each other. Suho closes his eyes when he feels Kris’s lips on his. Suho feels his heart melts, he can feel his blood rushing and above all, the soft lips against his is really warm. Kris releases the kiss and smiles to Suho. Both of them already know what this means and smile.
“I’ll see you at school on Monday!” Kris says, before he ruffles Suho’s hair, gives him another peck and leaves. Suho feels his heart is already ripped into two; half is in him and half is with Kris. In the end, Suho finds out what their eye contacts mean: we love each other.