I don't even recognize you anymore.

I think the only thing I associate you with now
are lies and let downs.

I never need any of the shit you put me through,
and you never deserved half of the shit that I put up with.
I bent over backwards for you just so that you
could come home safe
and not fuck yourself over like you always
kept complaining about.
I think ( Read more... )

If there was ever a time to really start over,
and to really get any closure on past events,
it would be now.

I'm honestly in way too much of a good mood to dwell on things,
but i think i will another night.
right now, it's just me and faith having fun,
and i really love having laid back company.

i love people who relax me,
because i dont know too many ( Read more... )

Just by working six days with faith at the fair in frederick,
me and her are going to bank.
I'm spending half of it, and saving the other half,
and then once I get back from that,
I'm getting applications.
I would have gotten them earlier, but I knew I was going to do this
fair thing, and I didn't want to get a job and then right away ask for a whole
week ( Read more... )

I'm officially seventeen years old.
And of course, I spent it with one of my best friends...


( Read more... )

I think I'll go to a Berryville show tonight.
or maybe I'll just stay home and
dance my frustrations away.
or maybe ill just hang out in winchester and randomly
make new friends.
I don't know.
I don't know i don't know.
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My birthday's on monday.
I'm not so sure what to say about that.

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"This"  is more crippling than it really should ( Read more... )

...well its not really me changing my mind.
it's moreso me making up my mind to shut the hell up,
and to just go out and stop letting my pathetic bad habits take the best of me.

i should stop worrying,
and just have more faith that things will happen the way they're supposed to happen.

I've no control over anything anyway,
except for myself,
and what I ( Read more... )

I've felt like shit,
like that dirty, hollow feeling you have
where it feels like the person you are is this burden
that you have to carry around
on your chest or on your shoulders,
and that you're just so unsure of what youre doing
with anything in your life that
you try to act like you're not thinking about it,
and you do all these stupid things to get ( Read more... )

I really miss Tasha.


( Read more... )

well according to that message,
at least he's doing better than I am.
which is fine.
I said I wanted him to be happy,
and he is.
and I'm glad.
Maybe i just thought that, ah whatever.
forget it.

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I can't sleep anymore.
I can't sleep at night for some reason, and when I do finally sleep,
I wake up at like eightish and I can't fall back to ( Read more... )

I'm being forced to go to Hooters tuesday
as a goodbye party for Michael.

im being offered 57 dollars so far to wear bootie shorts Pete bought me
and braid Michael's hair while sitting on his lap before he
moves away to college.
I...almost took the offer,
only because they're my friends and im definitely not a skankhobag,
but fiddy seven bucks sounds real ( Read more... )