some people might not like knowing where they'll be for the next 14 months but i love it.
ANGSTY LIVEJOURNAL ENTRY
So I've been having a lot of mixed feelings lately. Yesterday I found out I am going to get to be a counselor at Camp Crystal! I was pretty sure I would be, but it's official now as soon as I send in my contract. I'm thrilled. Maya got it too, but she needs to convince her parents to let her. I don't know what I would be if she doesn't work there with me, it would be very sad. Who would stop me from trying to seduce Brett? On that note, I don't know if that would be an issue. I'm thinking that I don't really intend to try and stay in a relationship with Hunter over the summer. I don't know, I mean, I've been having all these mixed feelings about him lately. Like, I know this sounds like a horrible (not to mention narcissistic) thing to be upset about, but sometimes I worry that he likes me too much. I mean, it's not like I don't like him. I do, but sometimes I feel like he likes me so much more and fgjkldfjerf idk idk. Maybe I'm a commitment-phobe but it doesn't kick in until two months in? I don't know. But it's not like I feel like this constantly - I go to bed feeling like I could break up with him in the next couple days and be fine, then I wake up like, what was that about? and then I see him and honestly don't know what I was thinking, I'm so happy.
Other good news: got into UF! Not that I want to go there, but it would have sucked pretty hard to have been denied. Better news: Auburn offers a $4,400 housing allowance to National Merit Finalists (which I just found out I am, hoorah!) meaning that housing will drop from $8,400 to about $4000 for me, making it an even more option. Oh, yeah, and I got that free t-shirt they send to people who pay their enrollment deposits (meaning it's not really free) so that's pretty cool. It says stuff like Class of 2013 and "Where will you be August 2009? I'll be making my ideas into reality at Auburn University" or something that basically means wearing it says "I'M GOING TO AUBURN." Which is something I would be pretty content doing. I'm loving the idea of going there even more and more and can't wait to visit which hopefully will be sometime before orientation but for all I know it won't be. Which could suck, but whatever.
Last night was Carnavale, an event put on by Spanish Club or Spanish Honor Society, where yo get to go learn to salsa and merengue and whatnot and dance dance dance. IT was kind of fun. Event recall courtesy of an earlier conversation with Heather:
Hayley: think of awkward ib kids at prom
Hayley: and then minus the ghetto
Hayley: thus increasing the concentration of awkward nerdiness
Hayley: and multiply it by dance lessons
Hayley: by some chick and denis
Heather: thats really just awkward
Heather: but amazing in its pure ib-ness
Hayley: yeah
Hayley: it was funny how they basically forced guys to dance with girls
Hayley: everyitme we learned a new step they were like, ok, what girl hasn't danced yet?....with a boy? ok boys, ask these girls to dance.
Hayley: i got there about half an hour after it started and when i did, hunter was dancing with keir's siter ella
Hayley: so in my head it was hilarious for reasons i couldn't explain
Hayley: and like when they taught us new steps they split us up with the boys on one side and the girls on the other
Heather: lmao
Hayley: and then eventually set us loose to find partners
Hayley: so once when someone beat me to hunter i was like, shoot, i'm not going to be one of the awkward girls standing around with no one to dance with
Hayley: i have girls balls and can ask whoever the fuck i want to dance
Hayley: so i asked josh rosenblat
Hayley: and i could tell he didn't really want to because he's like, i wasn't paying attention to the lesson and warning you i'll probably quit halfway through but sure, hayley cox
Hayley: he then proceeded to just be ridiculous and jessica, who i assume is historian for shs or spanish club, whichever put that event on, because she wastaking pictures, took one of us dancing so that's just lovely
Hayley: and then after a little while josh is like, ok that's enough of that
Heather: lmao you danced with josh
Hayley: oh it gets better/worse
Hayley: since the song wasn't over yet (spanish songs are really fucking long) and i refused to be one of the awkward girls without a partner, i started scopin' the floor for a new partner
Hayley: went over to oren and banaszek and someone else andwas mostly asking oren but made it sound like an open invitation to any of them because i didn't really care who i danced with
Hayley: and so i danced with oren for a little bit and he put his hand much lower then josh or hunter had (not that it was obscene or anything, josh's arm was basically parallel to mine, hand on my shoulder more or less) and it was cute how focused he was on doing the step right even though it meant doing so painstakingly slowly
Hayley: after a minute or so, banaszek is like, the point is to go fast oren, like this, and then i started dancing with him and it was both awkwardly intense and intensely awkward though he did in fact know what he was doing and told me i was a good dancer too
Heather: lmao lmao lmao
Heather: oh my gooddddd
Hayley: haha
Hayley: so yeah a pro to none of my friends being there really was having an incentive to ask random people to dance
Hayley: and then i danced with hunter the rest of the night and it was pretty much the closest i have ever seen him to the quintessential awkward dorky IB boy
Hayley: and thus wasn't as fun as i imagined
Heather: aw
Heather: maybe he just doesnt like to dance?
Hayley: well he seemed to be enjoying himself
Hayley: i kind of wanted to dance with other people too
Hayley: but after the forced instruction and pairing i didn't really get a chance too
Don't even get me started on the terribly sweet and romantic things Hunter did for Valentine's Day/asking me to prom...even though we were already planning on going...
So I've been having a lot of mixed feelings lately. Yesterday I found out I am going to get to be a counselor at Camp Crystal! I was pretty sure I would be, but it's official now as soon as I send in my contract. I'm thrilled. Maya got it too, but she needs to convince her parents to let her. I don't know what I would be if she doesn't work there with me, it would be very sad. Who would stop me from trying to seduce Brett? On that note, I don't know if that would be an issue. I'm thinking that I don't really intend to try and stay in a relationship with Hunter over the summer. I don't know, I mean, I've been having all these mixed feelings about him lately. Like, I know this sounds like a horrible (not to mention narcissistic) thing to be upset about, but sometimes I worry that he likes me too much. I mean, it's not like I don't like him. I do, but sometimes I feel like he likes me so much more and fgjkldfjerf idk idk. Maybe I'm a commitment-phobe but it doesn't kick in until two months in? I don't know. But it's not like I feel like this constantly - I go to bed feeling like I could break up with him in the next couple days and be fine, then I wake up like, what was that about? and then I see him and honestly don't know what I was thinking, I'm so happy.
Other good news: got into UF! Not that I want to go there, but it would have sucked pretty hard to have been denied. Better news: Auburn offers a $4,400 housing allowance to National Merit Finalists (which I just found out I am, hoorah!) meaning that housing will drop from $8,400 to about $4000 for me, making it an even more option. Oh, yeah, and I got that free t-shirt they send to people who pay their enrollment deposits (meaning it's not really free) so that's pretty cool. It says stuff like Class of 2013 and "Where will you be August 2009? I'll be making my ideas into reality at Auburn University" or something that basically means wearing it says "I'M GOING TO AUBURN." Which is something I would be pretty content doing. I'm loving the idea of going there even more and more and can't wait to visit which hopefully will be sometime before orientation but for all I know it won't be. Which could suck, but whatever.
Last night was Carnavale, an event put on by Spanish Club or Spanish Honor Society, where yo get to go learn to salsa and merengue and whatnot and dance dance dance. IT was kind of fun. Event recall courtesy of an earlier conversation with Heather:
Hayley: think of awkward ib kids at prom
Hayley: and then minus the ghetto
Hayley: thus increasing the concentration of awkward nerdiness
Hayley: and multiply it by dance lessons
Hayley: by some chick and denis
Heather: thats really just awkward
Heather: but amazing in its pure ib-ness
Hayley: yeah
Hayley: it was funny how they basically forced guys to dance with girls
Hayley: everyitme we learned a new step they were like, ok, what girl hasn't danced yet?....with a boy? ok boys, ask these girls to dance.
Hayley: i got there about half an hour after it started and when i did, hunter was dancing with keir's siter ella
Hayley: so in my head it was hilarious for reasons i couldn't explain
Hayley: and like when they taught us new steps they split us up with the boys on one side and the girls on the other
Heather: lmao
Hayley: and then eventually set us loose to find partners
Hayley: so once when someone beat me to hunter i was like, shoot, i'm not going to be one of the awkward girls standing around with no one to dance with
Hayley: i have girls balls and can ask whoever the fuck i want to dance
Hayley: so i asked josh rosenblat
Hayley: and i could tell he didn't really want to because he's like, i wasn't paying attention to the lesson and warning you i'll probably quit halfway through but sure, hayley cox
Hayley: he then proceeded to just be ridiculous and jessica, who i assume is historian for shs or spanish club, whichever put that event on, because she wastaking pictures, took one of us dancing so that's just lovely
Hayley: and then after a little while josh is like, ok that's enough of that
Heather: lmao you danced with josh
Hayley: oh it gets better/worse
Hayley: since the song wasn't over yet (spanish songs are really fucking long) and i refused to be one of the awkward girls without a partner, i started scopin' the floor for a new partner
Hayley: went over to oren and banaszek and someone else andwas mostly asking oren but made it sound like an open invitation to any of them because i didn't really care who i danced with
Hayley: and so i danced with oren for a little bit and he put his hand much lower then josh or hunter had (not that it was obscene or anything, josh's arm was basically parallel to mine, hand on my shoulder more or less) and it was cute how focused he was on doing the step right even though it meant doing so painstakingly slowly
Hayley: after a minute or so, banaszek is like, the point is to go fast oren, like this, and then i started dancing with him and it was both awkwardly intense and intensely awkward though he did in fact know what he was doing and told me i was a good dancer too
Heather: lmao lmao lmao
Heather: oh my gooddddd
Hayley: haha
Hayley: so yeah a pro to none of my friends being there really was having an incentive to ask random people to dance
Hayley: and then i danced with hunter the rest of the night and it was pretty much the closest i have ever seen him to the quintessential awkward dorky IB boy
Hayley: and thus wasn't as fun as i imagined
Heather: aw
Heather: maybe he just doesnt like to dance?
Hayley: well he seemed to be enjoying himself
Hayley: i kind of wanted to dance with other people too
Hayley: but after the forced instruction and pairing i didn't really get a chance too
Don't even get me started on the terribly sweet and romantic things Hunter did for Valentine's Day/asking me to prom...even though we were already planning on going...