I'm going to kill myself in 3 minutes.

[kinetikeric]

In three minutes I'm going to put a gun in my mouth and splatter brain all over the wall... actually no, I'm not. I'm totally just fucking around. I can't sleep, and I sorta wanna die, but brain is just so hard to get off the walls, so I'll find another way to do it, or fall asleep first. Y'know it takes a whole lot of wanting to die to kill

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[trackster817]

you are crazy... and you eventually did want to die bad enough, but it wasn't a gun in your mouth, or starcing to death, or even a spike through your ear... you hung yourself in the mailroom or something like that on base... because for all your joking i think there are many times when you probably were contemplating suicide and the paxil just helped you finally go through with it. and i still don't know why i keep reading these cause they just make me more upset and i'm sitting in the student union on campus tearing up, but i don't care, i miss you and you're gone... forever