The paperwork section of the assignment (1A), I got a "credit plus" on. I had mucho stress and problems just getting it done, so that was a bit of a relief. The actual video (1B) was given a "distinction". I did not get any top marks for the sections of the assessment, but I either got a step up from average or somewhere between the step up and average.
The person doing the assessment specifically wrote what they thought I did wrong in the assessment page (basically, one or two cuts were a bit badly executed, which I completely agree with).
And the worst part of that is that I am going to be remembering such things for months on end, whereas my classmates have probably forgotten it already (assuming they were even aware of it to begin with!)
That sooooo happens to me. Other people may not care or something but I keep thinking about it. Maybe it's an autistic thing?
Tony Attwood definitely seems to think it is an autistic thing. I spend hours, days, weeks, months, even years repeating things to myself in my headspace. There are songs and music videos from the 1980s that I remember and, upon seeing them again nowadays, end up getting a rush of joy from. So I guess it works both ways.
That last statement came as a bit of a "what the...?" to me until I reread what I was writing about shirts. :D Oddly enough, I only have about half a dozen pairs of pants. It is very difficult for me to find new pairs that I happen to like, and will fit me properly.
I spend hours, days, weeks, months, even years repeating things to myself in my headspace
So do I! I keep telling myself the other people don't care but it doesn't work really. I still feel uncomfortable thinking about it even if it was like 3 years ago..
Yeah..a lot of them are too uncomfortable (and long haha)
Many is the time I have spent thinking to myself about how I would explain to my classmates that I am autistic and what that actually means. Thoughts of telling them how, when I walk into the campus grounds, I "see/hear" the ghost of ten year old me crying and screaming that he wants to leave and such.
Wait until you get near to 30. You will be flash-remembering things from when you were five years old and squirming on the inside. At least, if you are anything like me. *chuckle*
I have that problem with pants all the time! Whenever I buy a new pair, the legs are also at least a couple of inches too long. I am too Dwarvish. *giggle*
Well, I kinda sneaked and saw the results that you commented back to the first commenter haha. That sounds like you have actually been doing quite well! You put yourself down too much. :) I have a funny feeling that you will be doing just fine in this course.
That's kinda cool that one of your classmates invited you to join the conversation...nice! Haha and I have to say, your paragraph on clothing amused me, mainly because of your last two sentences. :P
That photo is awesome! I don't know what it is I like about it, but I just do. Maybe it's the composition of the two teddy bears flanking your head haha.
For some reason, I did not want to include the results in the main text. Maybe it is because it is easier to delete any references to them from a comment, I do not know. Actually, that is not right. I dunno. I had another insulin reaction just a moment ago so I am not making sense to myself.
The funny thing is, when I was riding the bus from Caboolture rail station to the uni, I could sort-of hear several of the other students talking about something that had to do with shopping or clothing or something very closely related. And I remember thinking to myself "oh my god, do I really even want to know these people?" at that time. But then, when I write or talk about my attire, the details are rather different. If I could, I would turn up to classes in a suit of Dwarf armour. *nods
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*hugs* See, people do want to talk to you, and they can learn a lot from you, so I hope you stay at uni, though I wish I could be there to keep you company and maybe make it easier. Love the photo too... :)
I do not know that they actually wanted to talk to me. In fact, I do not know what prompted this person to do so. But I am going to stay at uni because I owe it to autistic people in general to be able to say that a specialist with a PhD. thinks I have an IQ of over 130 and I am working on earning a degree.
I think you will change the uni for the better, the longer you stay. :D
About clothing: everything I own is either a work uniform or some old bit of tat(as you Brit types would call it :P) that is hardly worth the $2.00 in quarters it takes to wash and dry it in the laundry room. I neglect my appearance in order to feel invisible, but it backfires at times, when people patronize me. I hate to shop but my clothes are such rags, I must replace them soon. At least I could get some new socks without holes in them!
I would like to be able to help other people on the autistic spectrum go to uni and accomplish things, but I would not know where to begin.
One thing I have started to think of as a goal is to make fan videos for a couple of songs. My DyING BRIDE's ShadowHaunt is one. Mr. Bungle's Goodbye Sober Day is another.
I tend to buy things in bursts. When I buy shirts or socks, I buy them in lots of four or even eight, and I just do not stop until I feel I have more than enough clothes to go a couple of weeks without washing any. The only clothes I do not burst-buy are pants because I am too Dwarvish to buy pants without needing to have the legs shortened by at least a couple of inches. I have trackpants where the backs of the lower legs just above the heel have literally worn through from being walked on. Oh, and I have enough socks that I could probably fill my washing machine with just them.
I'm happy a student spoke to you :) and I'm glad it wasn't AS tough for you. I think you're actually making amazing progress you just don't think you are :) baby steps *hugs* you'll make it through, I know you will and you'll be 100 times stronger in the end.
I wanna know what your assignment said :) but I see you commented them to someone else so don't worry about telling them to me *hugs*
Things just seem so different, and yet so much the same, since then. If this had happened earlier, it would have made the last month or so far easier. But oh well. The important thing is where to go from here. I am still worrying myself sick about the next assignment, really.
I was actually very surprised by my results, truth be told. A credit-plus and a distinction exceeded any expectations I had. Especially since I was feeling very much thrown in at the deep end.
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The person doing the assessment specifically wrote what they thought I did wrong in the assessment page (basically, one or two cuts were a bit badly executed, which I completely agree with).
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That sooooo happens to me. Other people may not care or something but I keep thinking about it. Maybe it's an autistic thing?
I have the same problem with pants
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That last statement came as a bit of a "what the...?" to me until I reread what I was writing about shirts. :D Oddly enough, I only have about half a dozen pairs of pants. It is very difficult for me to find new pairs that I happen to like, and will fit me properly.
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So do I! I keep telling myself the other people don't care but it doesn't work really. I still feel uncomfortable thinking about it even if it was like 3 years ago..
Yeah..a lot of them are too uncomfortable (and long haha)
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Wait until you get near to 30. You will be flash-remembering things from when you were five years old and squirming on the inside. At least, if you are anything like me. *chuckle*
I have that problem with pants all the time! Whenever I buy a new pair, the legs are also at least a couple of inches too long. I am too Dwarvish. *giggle*
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That's kinda cool that one of your classmates invited you to join the conversation...nice! Haha and I have to say, your paragraph on clothing amused me, mainly because of your last two sentences. :P
That photo is awesome! I don't know what it is I like about it, but I just do. Maybe it's the composition of the two teddy bears flanking your head haha.
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The funny thing is, when I was riding the bus from Caboolture rail station to the uni, I could sort-of hear several of the other students talking about something that had to do with shopping or clothing or something very closely related. And I remember thinking to myself "oh my god, do I really even want to know these people?" at that time. But then, when I write or talk about my attire, the details are rather different. If I could, I would turn up to classes in a suit of Dwarf armour. *nods ( ... )
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The bears loved being in the photo. *nods*
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About clothing: everything I own is either a work uniform or some old bit of tat(as you Brit types would call it :P) that is hardly worth the $2.00 in quarters it takes to wash and dry it in the laundry room. I neglect my appearance in order to feel invisible, but it backfires at times, when people patronize me. I hate to shop but my clothes are such rags, I must replace them soon. At least I could get some new socks without holes in them!
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One thing I have started to think of as a goal is to make fan videos for a couple of songs. My DyING BRIDE's ShadowHaunt is one. Mr. Bungle's Goodbye Sober Day is another.
I tend to buy things in bursts. When I buy shirts or socks, I buy them in lots of four or even eight, and I just do not stop until I feel I have more than enough clothes to go a couple of weeks without washing any. The only clothes I do not burst-buy are pants because I am too Dwarvish to buy pants without needing to have the legs shortened by at least a couple of inches. I have trackpants where the backs of the lower legs just above the heel have literally worn through from being walked on. Oh, and I have enough socks that I could probably fill my washing machine with just them.
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I wanna know what your assignment said :) but I see you commented them to someone else so don't worry about telling them to me *hugs*
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I was actually very surprised by my results, truth be told. A credit-plus and a distinction exceeded any expectations I had. Especially since I was feeling very much thrown in at the deep end.
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