The Excellent Weekend Followed by Brian's Bigger Questions
There's a lot floating around in my head this morning so I'm gonna try and do a fair job of getting it all down. We'll see how much of it makes it into the ol' LJ and how much of it I just let percolate in my noggin a bit longer.
On Friday night I picked up a shift at the bar. The night went by super fast (Mocha Monster Energy drink!) thanks to a pretty steady flow of friends and regulars. It wasn't super crowded but we were kept busy. I really enjoy working that back station on the inside bar with Jasper. I got home around 2:30am and set my alarm for 10am so I could clean up the house a bit before my guests arrived.
Yup, I had the great pleasure of playing host to both bigsabu and martini_tim on Saturday and part of Sunday. We had a grand time I must say. They are both just the cuddliest most all around fun people you'd ever want to stroke pussy with (yeah, Isaac my cat enjoyed having 'em around too). We putzed a bit on Saturday (conversation, Wii, what not) before going to dinner with sluggobear. Then we headed off to Bear Night at Bacchus House. This was my first time going and I had a really fun time. The drinks were strong and cheap, the music was a bit better than decent, and the crowd/friends were definitely there making it happen. I really dug on the classic rock mixes they tossed in too (Enter Sandman, Whole Lotta Love, and More than a Feeling). There's something oddly unsettling and yet comforting about getting yer gay dance on while listening to Metalica. I give points to maverick1303 for getting on the go-go box and rocking his SHIT to a mix of P.Cat D's Buttons and Brit's Toxic. My guests were showing signs of baroverload so we scooted out (sorry if I missed saying night to some of y'all) and headed back to the apartment. Quality chatting was had and then I settled in on my comfy couch and caught some Zs.
I was awake by 9:30 or so (having guests sure put my productivity in gear) and after we were all showered and presentable we met up with bearxxl for some really tasty crepes at the spot around the corner from me. The owner (the place is called Big Daddy's) isn't really "big" per se but he has some great ideas for the spot. He has the shop next door and is turning it into a Bronx style pizza place (with the help of the guys from Bronx--SDers will know how cool this is) including a deck that runs along the back of both places. He was excited and I thought it was nifty that he took the time to show us. He even gave us free Lemon Drop Crepes that were mighty good! From there we got some YogArt and headed to the Farmer's Market to find cool stuff that Robert and Tim could make juice out of. I'm thinking about getting a juicer - Robert has given me the koolaid on this one and I might just try it out. I eat so poorly that maybe this'll be the way I ingest non-crap at last.
I said goodbye to the guys after that and relaxed a bit at home. Called up jpinsd and we decided to go see Sweeney Todd. Met up with John, Gary, Jeff, and Dave as well. I really got a kick out of the movie - enjoyed it quite a bit. I think Jeff was the only one who found it boring. I'm now three for three in having to tell people to be quiet at movies. This time it was a woman who was talking full voice to her husband. They left during the "neck-centric" song by Depp as Todd (thank goodness).
I topped the night off by getting cozy on the couch and watching, of all things, Mission Impossible III. And you know what? I actually sorta liked it. For all the Tom Cruising going on in it I still dug it. Philip Seymour Hoffman makes everything better. He should sell spices... Just a dash of PSH will make your food (or movie) sing!
So now I'm back to work and I really did have a great weekend. Somehow I'm still bogged down with different things. Mostly how I feel about being single and how I feel about being ready to date (or not)... How I feel sometimes that even though I'm on my own and living my own life that I'm still a kid living in his bedroom and that I need to grow up. I remember seeing a post about how bears are essentially just children--men with Peter Pan Syndrome--and how people just flipped out over the theory. Sometimes I really feel like I'm so far away from true adulthood. And I think back to that post. But then I think about how I'm generally a happy guy and why is it that I have to find things--go out of my way--to make myself unhappy? It's nutty don't you think? Can a person grow without having to constantly look for flaws or things that need to be fixed? Can I find a balance between my childish behavior (disney, wii, WoW, pop-culture obsession) and my desire to grow? (travel, diverse friends, education, personal responsibility). I guess you'll have to stay tuned to find out, eh?
I didn't do a Resolutions post for '08 but with this last bit perhaps I did. I want to be better than I am. It's that simple.
Desktop Meme: Here's a shot of my work desktop... it keeps me smiling throughout the day
On Friday night I picked up a shift at the bar. The night went by super fast (Mocha Monster Energy drink!) thanks to a pretty steady flow of friends and regulars. It wasn't super crowded but we were kept busy. I really enjoy working that back station on the inside bar with Jasper. I got home around 2:30am and set my alarm for 10am so I could clean up the house a bit before my guests arrived.
Yup, I had the great pleasure of playing host to both bigsabu and martini_tim on Saturday and part of Sunday. We had a grand time I must say. They are both just the cuddliest most all around fun people you'd ever want to stroke pussy with (yeah, Isaac my cat enjoyed having 'em around too). We putzed a bit on Saturday (conversation, Wii, what not) before going to dinner with sluggobear. Then we headed off to Bear Night at Bacchus House. This was my first time going and I had a really fun time. The drinks were strong and cheap, the music was a bit better than decent, and the crowd/friends were definitely there making it happen. I really dug on the classic rock mixes they tossed in too (Enter Sandman, Whole Lotta Love, and More than a Feeling). There's something oddly unsettling and yet comforting about getting yer gay dance on while listening to Metalica. I give points to maverick1303 for getting on the go-go box and rocking his SHIT to a mix of P.Cat D's Buttons and Brit's Toxic. My guests were showing signs of baroverload so we scooted out (sorry if I missed saying night to some of y'all) and headed back to the apartment. Quality chatting was had and then I settled in on my comfy couch and caught some Zs.
I was awake by 9:30 or so (having guests sure put my productivity in gear) and after we were all showered and presentable we met up with bearxxl for some really tasty crepes at the spot around the corner from me. The owner (the place is called Big Daddy's) isn't really "big" per se but he has some great ideas for the spot. He has the shop next door and is turning it into a Bronx style pizza place (with the help of the guys from Bronx--SDers will know how cool this is) including a deck that runs along the back of both places. He was excited and I thought it was nifty that he took the time to show us. He even gave us free Lemon Drop Crepes that were mighty good! From there we got some YogArt and headed to the Farmer's Market to find cool stuff that Robert and Tim could make juice out of. I'm thinking about getting a juicer - Robert has given me the koolaid on this one and I might just try it out. I eat so poorly that maybe this'll be the way I ingest non-crap at last.
I said goodbye to the guys after that and relaxed a bit at home. Called up jpinsd and we decided to go see Sweeney Todd. Met up with John, Gary, Jeff, and Dave as well. I really got a kick out of the movie - enjoyed it quite a bit. I think Jeff was the only one who found it boring. I'm now three for three in having to tell people to be quiet at movies. This time it was a woman who was talking full voice to her husband. They left during the "neck-centric" song by Depp as Todd (thank goodness).
I topped the night off by getting cozy on the couch and watching, of all things, Mission Impossible III. And you know what? I actually sorta liked it. For all the Tom Cruising going on in it I still dug it. Philip Seymour Hoffman makes everything better. He should sell spices... Just a dash of PSH will make your food (or movie) sing!
So now I'm back to work and I really did have a great weekend. Somehow I'm still bogged down with different things. Mostly how I feel about being single and how I feel about being ready to date (or not)... How I feel sometimes that even though I'm on my own and living my own life that I'm still a kid living in his bedroom and that I need to grow up. I remember seeing a post about how bears are essentially just children--men with Peter Pan Syndrome--and how people just flipped out over the theory. Sometimes I really feel like I'm so far away from true adulthood. And I think back to that post. But then I think about how I'm generally a happy guy and why is it that I have to find things--go out of my way--to make myself unhappy? It's nutty don't you think? Can a person grow without having to constantly look for flaws or things that need to be fixed? Can I find a balance between my childish behavior (disney, wii, WoW, pop-culture obsession) and my desire to grow? (travel, diverse friends, education, personal responsibility). I guess you'll have to stay tuned to find out, eh?
I didn't do a Resolutions post for '08 but with this last bit perhaps I did. I want to be better than I am. It's that simple.
Desktop Meme: Here's a shot of my work desktop... it keeps me smiling throughout the day