Your number 2 goal is totally awesome! I went though a time in my life after my ex-fiance and I broke up where all I did for a month and a half (I am not exaggerating, you can ask my old roommate) where all I did was get fucked up drunk EVERY night on coors and get high and do dope. I got REALLY messed up. I know how you feel. Once you get accustomed to that, (drinking, doing drugs, random sex) it does not help anymore with the depression and as I have honestly found out, once you realize that, it is really quite easy to stop doing those things that are really just bringing you further down and pick up your life. I take it from your entry that you have a roommate? Maybe things aren't going well? If not, if he is the reason why you are unhappy, GET OUT! My roommate talked shit about me and always wanted to party and she would have people over ALL THE TIME so I would party as well, because I didn't want to be left out and once I started thinking about it, it sounded fun. If you can get away, your life will change DRASTICALLY! Mine did!
you got me all wrong see,kingsfurdDecember 15 2005, 08:42:49 UTC
nah it's not like getting messed up every night or anything like that. it wasn't even really very often. i can't deny that alot of it was to alleviate lonliness and loss, i just don't really want/need to do anything any more. it's clearly for the best. i do apritiate and adore lortabs when they're around tho.
i'm actually kinda pleased with how easy it is so far for me just like...go to bed or read something or something else instead. i guess im very lucky in terms of that.
also it's not like i was heavy into bad heavy stuff. i mean i've never/will never do meth or crack or anything like that, thats for sure.
& the thing about where i live is, it's a 45 minute drive everyday to and from work and january means back to school(full time), so im gonna twice as exhausted. plus, my dad for the most part lives with me now and we're two totally different guys, so it's not working out very well, to say the very least.
oh and by the way, it's your livejournal dear, but you update entirely too freakin much.
Re: you got me all wrong see,luckyafchickDecember 16 2005, 01:45:11 UTC
okay, first of all, it is my livejournal so i can update as much as i like. you dont know that i work from 4pm until 1am and there is alot of time in my job where i dont have work to do so i watch movies and surf the web. THAT, my friend, is why i update so much. I usually have nothing better to do! lol
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it's not like getting messed up every night or anything like that. it wasn't even really very often. i can't deny that alot of it was to alleviate lonliness and loss, i just don't really want/need to do anything any more.
it's clearly for the best.
i do apritiate and adore lortabs when they're around tho.
i'm actually kinda pleased with how easy it is so far for me just like...go to bed or read something or something else instead. i guess im very lucky in terms of that.
also it's not like i was heavy into bad heavy stuff.
i mean i've never/will never do meth or crack or anything like that, thats for sure.
& the thing about where i live is, it's a 45 minute drive everyday to and from work and january means back to school(full time), so im gonna twice as exhausted. plus, my dad for the most part lives with me now and we're two totally different guys, so it's not working out very well, to say the very least.
oh and by the way, it's your livejournal dear, but you update entirely too freakin much.
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