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Eclipse Mania! I took the day off & ended up doing a lot of maintenance tasks. Finally getting my license renewed, making a dent in the fallen tree in my back yard, putting things away since I moved everything to have new floors installed...
Lots going on. I figured I'd go downtown for it but slept till 10 and didn't have the time to get to everything I need to get to. Busy & also, just not feeling good. Kind of for a few days. Friday I'm out with the chums at the Venture household. It's been a long time - we've been blowing off sessions for a couple of weeks so it was good to meet with the boys again. I think we're all now old enough to not take for granted that we have regular hangouts with friends a few days a week. Apparently that's not the situation for most dudes in our cohort. It's pretty good! NASATim is running his own homebrew & he's got a killer mechanic hidden in there. I'm looking back & realize that he's using kind of a lot from my Knights of the Lost Zone project. You know I discarded that after testing once because it just felt too board-gamey to me. Good when your friends iterate on your work to improve it. It's 100% my intention in all the things I make. Hope that other people will like them enough to carry them forward. It's a weird ambition maybe & it's linked in a lot of ways to the continuity of civilization. It's no problem if your herculean labors occur in obscurity so long as a remnant can be found by intrepid people of the future. There's a good feeling about being the only person to have every borrowed a book from the library though it's been there 80 years. Like the card has one stamp from the 50's and that's all. Eh, these things lost to time like tears in the rain.
After, I take a long walk in the bad cold to get tacos & tequila at midnight. On the train these junkies get on and sit next to me & start smoking. I'm all: "Dude, the whole train is empty why you gotta sit next to me to do that - go over there!" When there's junkies there's always like a bashful reserved one who's apologetic about his buddy who's forceful & rude. So I'm at the rude one about "Don't smoke next to me fella." And his pal is apologetic & trying to get him to go but rude face-tattoo guy wants to mumble at me. It's a funny interaction that you sometimes have on the train. It occurs to me later that this kind of ordinary encounter would be kind of life altering to the nerds I hang out with. I put it together that they play these games because real life is too intimidating & I play these games because real life is too boring. I think on this all tequilaed up as I wander on home.
Saturday I feel just okay, hang out with Brent who comes up. He's not even going to KB's party in the woods for his/his wife's birthdays. I was hoping for a ride but whatever. Whatever, maybe I'll persuade him. KB wants me to paint a painting of his little family so I will. Oooh, neighbors out, sunglasses on - here it comes.
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Well damn, it really was a thing to see. Everyone's porch lights came up in the back yards down the block. Now it's not dark but the sun's emergent again. Funny to hear people in this town cheering for the sun - you'd think we'd do it more as dark & rainy as it is here but maybe every 40 years or so we remember. But no, really, it's a hell of a thing. A cool thing to see.
I remember Schumaker-Levy or Hale-Bopp. Never understood that there's a difference. Do you remember? It hung in the sky all summer long it felt like - it was the most ominous thing. Hm. Everyone's going back inside & the porch lights are going down. Farewell eclipse. 2024's big thing come & gone.
Me and Brent just walk around and talk & eat. Bad food, and then on sunday bad food. I let the Disobeybie keep on yammering on the phone but I get up and have to go be super-sick for like, all afternoon. She's breaking up with someone so is constantly on the phone with me. I'm... I think Perpetual is the word. She quizzes me about if/when I date. I'm all. If I meet someone & have a magical connection with them I sleep with them immediately but I'm not able to be responsible enough to be someone's boyfriend. Brief, exciting encounters based on favorable circumstances. I guess what I'm always looking for. I have a hard time thinking about like, what if your girlfriend's dog needs surgery? Or if she gets sick or if I get sick. Being alive is kind of gross & unlucky, it's best to only exist in flashes of brilliance. Hard to explain but you know what? Fuck her, she's not True. Didn't deserve to get jerked around her whole life but it's not like I did the jerking. I'm just real, real regular. Anyway - I also feel badly today & I think, really, that people are including more eggs in the things they make after easter. I can't have too much eggs but I'm feeling bad/sick in the way that I do if I have like, a cake made with too many eggs. 2 is enough weirdos. Once I ate frozen custard instead of ice-cream, it's like this, just bad. Maybe I'm getting more allergic on top of things. That seems likely. But life of constant goings-on. I'm as close to full-activity as I'm comfortable being nowadays.