Fanfic: Let's All Be Friends Together (Chapter 5)
Don't start reading here! Start at the beginning with the Master Index. I am posting my chapters in reverse order for later ease of reading.
CHAPTER 5: Frustrated
The panic didn't go away, but it stopped its sharp upward climb and somewhat stabilized.
When L could talk, he said, "Why? Why am I like this?"
Light said, "It's because you have a very strong will. You're resisting."
Misa said, "Stop thinking quite so much, and let us hold you tight."
"When will this end? If I give in, will it go away? Is it a punishment?"
It was all too much, too much. Everything inside was collapsing, fraying, unraveling.
Misa kissed him and it calmed him a little. She whispered, "It's not a punishment, L. It's a side effect."
Light added, "It will get much better before the first twenty-four hours have passed, and then you won't need to touch us so much. Don't worry; we'll help you through it, as much help as you need. We'll be here for you. We'll always cuddle you when you require it."
He needed to be fucked very badly. He struggled in their grasps, pulling at their clothing, trying to initiate the act before he quite realized what he was doing, and then he spread his legs wide and said, "Here, Light. I'm ready for you; I'll let you inside. I just... need it."
Light fumbled with the zipper to his jeans, pulling them and the underwear down and it wasn't fast enough.
L said, "I won't resist. Put your penis in me."
L wasn't quite aware of the room, but he dimly heard Light saying, "Not like this. You were very against penetration before and you're not in the right state of mind just now. I'd be taking advantage of you if I let your fear and agitation push you into it."
Hot kisses were planted all along the feverish skin of his inner thighs. He opened his legs wider, giving access, furious that Light was holding back.
"I can help you a little," Light said, "but this is the last time I'll give you this kind of sexual favor until you're truly ready for everything."
L felt Light's amazingly welcoming mouth slipping over his swollen, sensitive parts, and he glanced down to see the image that had sometimes appeared in his dreams and fantasies, Light sucking him off. Misa had slipped around to hold him from behind and he leaned back into her grasp, sliding downward onto her knees as Light's exquisite mouth sucked hard and furiously and just exactly how he needed it.
He clenched his thighs around Light's head and came, twisting in Misa's lap from the force of his orgasm, dimly aware of Light swallowing and swallowing just where the sensation was the strongest, throbbing deep within Light's throat.
Misa's breasts had somehow found their way into his hands and their bodies were twisted together again in a truly jumbled mess. L panted in satisfaction.
When he'd recovered enough to talk, he said, "You'll allow me to consent to blow jobs but not to anal sex?"
Light pulled L's clothing back into place and said, "It's because I know you're not actually against receiving blow jobs. However, anal sex is obviously a large mental hurdle for you, and you shouldn't be allowed to casually agree to it when you're in the middle of a panic."
L replied, "There is a difference, but not as much as you might think. I'm under your control. How do I ever know what my own true wishes are, regardless of whether I'm in a panic or not?"
"You might not know," Light said, "but I know. I'm the one who decided how much control to put you under, and I left most of your free will intact. Your natural desires are now more difficult for you to suppress, but I didn't create desires and place them in your mind. If you didn't want us to be engaging in sexual acts with you, then you wouldn't be letting us."
"Tell me exactly how you program me. Also, show me what was written alongside my name."
Light said, "What we wrote next to your name will always remain secret, but I'll tell you the rest. Do you know how I obtained Raye Penber's name?"
"You must have had some sort of direct contact with him, before the day he died on the subway, and you tricked him into saying or writing his name."
Light said, "That's right. I arranged that a criminal would hijack a bus that I was sure I would be riding while Raye was following me. Then I played a hapless hostage and got Raye to show me his FBI identification in order to prove to me that he wasn't in collusion with the hijacker. Otherwise, Raye would think that an innocent teenager would foolishly try to attack the hijacker and get himself killed. He had to protect me by revealing his name, even though I was completely safe."
"Interesting. But what does this have to do with what is happening to me now?"
"One of the rules of the death note is that, when you write the details of death, you can't make that person have actions towards any other specific person. If you try this by writing the second person's real name, all details of death become void and both people simply die of heart attacks. If you try this by writing a nickname or a title such as 'bus driver' or 'the chief of police' or 'her boyfriend', then only the person with the name you actually write dies, and the details become void. Nothing happens to the second person."
"Yes," Misa said, "if I had written something like 'Light Yagami marries Misa Amane' in my death note, Light wouldn't have married me, but instead we both would have gotten heart attacks in forty seconds."
L said, "You subverted this limitation by writing something such as 'hijack a bus' and then describing the bus you were planning to take, while knowing that the criminal would decide the details of how to hijack that bus, which would be impossible to do without threatening the driver. This way you would not have to specify any actions towards the driver, but those actions would happen anyway. Am I correct?"
"Exactly," Light said, "I tested some of these techniques before I killed Raye Penber, but ever since I kidnapped you, I've done far more extensive testing to figure out exactly how to control people into having actions or loyalties toward specific other people, regardless of whether those other people have had their names written or not. It was Misa who put me on the right track, and then I figured out the rest for myself. She does sometimes have quite inspired ideas."
Misa giggled against L's shoulder and said, "You don't think I'm very smart, L, but you know I managed to create a plan to find Kira, right under your nose. My plan was so clever, you almost didn't catch us at all."
"That is true. I must confess I underestimated you, Misa, repeatedly. If I had paid more attention to your actions when we were investigating Yotsuba, both of you would have been caught. Rem might have negated that victory immediately after, but at least I would have won momentarily."
Light stroked a hand along L's stomach and said, "You're still obsessed with winning. Don't you realize that both of us have won?"
"Whatever you say, Light. At least I admit I'm childish."
After a pause, Light said, "For an example of programming, I can write for the details of death that the controlled person will go to a particular place, retrieve a piece of paper, or perhaps a voice recording, and follow those instructions. In those instructions I can write or record whatever I want, including references to specific people. I might decide what to put there long after I've finished writing the details of death. Live voices can also be used as long as I write something such as 'any words heard' in the death note and then take steps to be sure the controlled person will only hear what I wish during the programmable time period. I can even have multiple points in time when the target person will receive these sorts of instructions, so I can refine my plan."
L understood and said, "When you gagged me and were talking to me, that was during a time period when I had been controlled to be receptive to any words I heard. You gagged me so that I would be unable to program myself. You also made me unable to consciously remember what has been said to me during these times, so that I will be less likely to find subtle loopholes in your words and act against you through them."
Light said, "Yes. You will have a number of times like this throughout your life, when you will be programmable for about an hour, by any voice you hear. Immediately before those times, you will shut up in obedience to any voice that tells you to, so that you don't program yourself by accident or on purpose. I know exactly when these times are, but they'll be kept a secret from you."
"What else did you do to me? Go ahead, tell me."
"Other than the bare minimum that is necessary to keep you from acting against my plan, I've made you dependent on myself and Misa. You're in a process of bonding with us, and you'll always wish to sleep in the same bed as us and you'll crave our touch. You can make your own decisions about whether to have sex with us or not, but, as long as all three of us are alive, you'll never be far from us for very long. If you reject us, any sex partners you find would need to put up with the fact that you will always live with us or near to us and will visit us quite frequently."
Misa excitedly added, "Also, we've made it so you now get attracted to men and women equally! If it was bothering you before, then you won't have any more reservations about Light being a man."
L said, "Sexual orientation is innate. I don't think you actually did that."
"We can," Light said, "within limitations. A heterosexual person cannot be made exclusively homosexual by the death note, or vice versa, but anyone can be pushed towards the center of the bisexual spectrum, so that gender stops being an issue for romance. It's apparently part of human biology to be somewhat bisexual, and it's not at all difficult to increase that tendency."
L grabbed Light's shoulders, looked him hard in the eyes and said, "You've experimented on the sexual orientation of human beings... that is unconscionable! There is no possible way to justify this morally. Do you understand what you've done? This is monstrous, and it proves that you shouldn't regard yourself worthy of ruling the world!"
Light pulled back at that statement, looking upset and just a little insane. L couldn't stand the missing contact and crawled forward on his knees and elbows until he could curl up with his head settled into Light's lap. Misa followed, cuddling up to L's back.
Light said, "I didn't use people just for experiments in sexual orientation. I was performing lots of experiments at once, and I saw the chance to add those experiments in as well, making the entire process efficient. Kira is not a monster. I need to understand every detail of what the death notes can and can't accomplish if I'm going to change the world without anything going wrong."
L muttered, "I suppose it is a lesser evil compared to murdering people, but I am still very disappointed in you, Light."
L was shaking again and Light pet his hair. When L's mood had stabilized once more from the soothing touches, he said, "This is annoying. By tomorrow, will I no longer need to remain in contact with the two of you so much?"
"Probably," Light said, "but the time it takes for a bond like this to form is variable. We'll go to sleep soon, and that will help, with the three of us sleeping in one bed."
"Did you do this to the others before you let them go? All this cuddling and bonding?"
"No," Light answered, "because it is only necessary for them to not betray us. I programmed them, and it was simple enough to make it impossible for them to ever believe that I am Kira or that Misa is the second Kira."
Watari will never believe that Light is Kira!
Light continued with, "With you, a very strong bond must be formed because we're letting you in on the secret. Even if you reject us, we need to be able to keep close track of you always, and the only way to do this without removing your free will is to make you want to be around us a lot."
L looked up in surprise. He said, "I can truly reject you? I could take some other lover and ignore both of you?"
Light answered, "I suppose it would be difficult to get any lover until after you're able to leave this building, but we won't stop your attempts. Technically, you could lean out a window and proposition people who walk past."
"So, there's no internet here, or phones?"
"No, and you're not going to dismantle any of the electronic devices we have in order to build your own modems or communication devices. You simply won't be able to."
L said, "You don't quite trust the amount of control you have over me, or you would not seek to limit my movements and communication so severely. You're desperately afraid that I'll find a way to slip out of your control."
Light emphatically said, "It's that I have respect for your mental abilities, L. All of this has been worked out to account for everything you might try to defeat Kira. You won't be able to leave this building until you've decided, of your own free will, to support my plan. Until then, you'll be in this place and under frequent observation in case any adjustments need to be made. Regardless of what you decide, you can't turn in Kira or the second Kira to the authorities, and you won't be able to give the authorities any information on us, even indirectly, but you still need to be managed and observed because of your very high intelligence."
The sexual need was beginning to return. It really had been a long time with almost no relief for the frustration, and two orgasms simply wasn't enough to drain away all that tension. L resolved that he would take matters into his own hands, quite literally. He slipped his hands into his underwear, curling fingers around his penis, and then simply stopped.
Impulses battled inside him. Confused, he realized that he'd withdrawn his hands, so he put them back in place, ready to stroke his half-hard erection into fullness, but once again his fingers merely rested lightly around his organ, not stroking at all, and then he withdrew them.
I'm not embarrassed. I wouldn't be ashamed to do this while they watch, and I feel no shame at this moment.
L tried a third time with the same result and then said, "You are interfering with my ability to masturbate. Tell me exactly in which ways you've influenced my sexual habits."
Misa said, "We only did two more things. You can't masturbate, which you've already guessed, and you really like anal stimulation."
L said, "That's very mean and it impinges on my rights. Both of you want to force me to submit myself."
Light said, "If we wanted that, we could have written it, and you would have submitted completely. You would even have done it happily, if I'd written that you'd enjoy the process. No, we want you to decide to submit yourself, of your own will."
"It's not exactly my will if you use coercive techniques."
"What part of life isn't coercive? For example, many people do not wish to work difficult or dangerous jobs, yet they do so because economic conditions coerce them into it. If you really think about it, there are very few choices that anyone can make without influences of some kind pushing them in one direction or another."
"You made me unable to masturbate, Light. That's rather extreme. And you've modified my anal sensitivity in an effort to convince me to give in to your wish to top me."
Light reached down and massaged L's butt through the material of his jeans. It did feel very good and L caught himself just before he would have unconsciously pressed into Light's touches.
Light said in a husky whisper, "I can guarantee you'll like it when you finally decide that you want my penis in here. It will feel extremely nice."
L slapped at Light's hand and smirked when Light withdrew it.
"I've decided," L said, "that I won't be having a sexual relationship with you, Light. You don't deserve it. I'm going to demand that you supply me with enough cuddling to deal effectively with this strange disability you've given me, but there will be nothing between us other than cuddling and companionship."
Light said, "You're not going to get Misa without me."
L shrugged his shoulders and said, "Perhaps."
"And you're not going to get relief through masturbation, and with your stubbornness it might be a very long time until you can freely leave this building in order to approach other potential sexual partners."
L chewed on a finger and said, "That is fine."
"Why are you being like this?"
L said, "It is probably some residual resentment, because you rewrote my personality without my permission."
In an exasperated tone, Light said, "I didn't rewrite it. You're still you, L, and you're being childish."
It warmed L's heart to hear that tone.
L replied, "We can all be childish together, then. You should suffer some consequences for programming my mind without my permission."
"You're actually going to deny yourself any orgasms, in order to punish me?"
"Exactly," L replied.
"Misa," Light snapped, "it's time to show L more of what he's missing."
She giggled in a sickeningly cute way and began shedding clothing. Light rolled on top of her and helped with the process. L scrambled along, keeping contact with both, a panic overtaking him just at the thought of letting go.
L said, "You're seriously going to do it again? Right now?"
She panted, "Watching Light suck you off got me really hot, Ryuzaki. I've been waiting a long time for your conversation to be over."
L muttered, "Light, you are evil."
Light only smiled in return, the first time L had ever seen Light react positively to being called evil. A few moments later, they were rutting furiously, almost on top of L's body. Out of pure curiosity, he slipped a finger alongside Light's penis and penetrated Misa, curling it up on each in-stroke in hopes of hitting her G-spot.
She writhed and sobbed in response, her face a mask of pleasure.
L began making plans for seducing her privately. Anytime in the future that Light might be gone would be an opportunity that shouldn't be wasted.
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A/N (Author's Note):
This loophole to get past the 23-day rule is entirely an invention for this fanfic, and so it operates according to how I want it to operate instead of according to canon.
In canon, there is no way to get past the 23-day rule except for a different method outlined in the canon supplement material, which is to write that a person will die of a disease that always takes more than 23 days to kill, and to not write in a time of death. The person will acquire the disease within 23 days and then die as soon afterwards as is possible.
There are a few diseases that are never known to kill within a short time period, such as prion-caused diseases, and I've seen some fan speculation about characters making themselves immune to the death note but simultaneously making sure they will have a lifespan measured in years, not days, by using this method on themselves.
I am not using that particular loophole. For one thing, it doesn't allow for a specific death time, let alone a death time exactly one day less than a person's lifespan. For another thing, it would require that every controlled person be diseased and die within about 20 years at most, which simply doesn't fit the requirements of this fanfic.
So my loophole should be viewed as an entirely made-up thing specific to this fanfic, which has nothing to do with the only canon method of getting past the 23-day rule.
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