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was up early today. 9ish. which is early for me considering my sleeping
schedual. ive been thinking about things. about where i am now. about
how much has changed in such a short time.
2 years
ago, i was stuck in akron, ohio, no dreams, no hopes, and aparently no
future. i was stuck with a shit life. then something changed. i met
someone who offered me some light. he was so sweet, funny and charming.
i didnt know it at the time, but at that moment, my path changed,
thanks to him. as time went on, and i talked to him, i was beginning to
see what was happening around me, and i didnt like it. i changed that
quickly. time continued, and then there was a chance to meet this
person who had made such a difference in my life. i took it quickly,
cause there was a feeling i had, that i wanted to verify was right. i
arrived in what now is my home, and i met him. the peeectures he sent
did him no justice, and as i stepped out of the taxi, i was breathless.
he was beautiful. i got scared then. i was afraid he would be repulsed
by me, and that i would go back to my miserable life. i was wrong by a
long shot. i stayed the weekend at his house, and in that time my life
improved so much, just by those few days, it made me realize that i had
something to work for. something to look forward to. someone to love
and who loves me in return. i cried the day i left. i felt silly in the
airport, tearing up, holding the gift he gave me. i knew, that i had to
see him again, so i made plans, scrimped and saved, eventually was able
to get enough to come back, and stay with him some more. two weeks i
was here, and i had two weeks of sheer nirvana. happiness flowed
through me all over. i met wonderful people, who would soon become my
family and friends here. as it ended, i cried again. again in the
airport, i cried, and held the gift he gave me. again, i did everything
in my power to see him again, and months later, i drove down with a
friend and saw him, and felt happy. a week, i was here, and i had to
leave. i cried, cause i didnt want to go. i made a promise. i would
move here, stay here and be near him. it took time, patientce, and alot
of fighting with my parents, but i achieved my goal. and just 4 months
ago, i started my life here, around people who care and people who love
me. i was away from the pain, and the bad memories. i owe
everything to these people, who made me feel like i had a purpose in
life, and the friends i have made me feel like i was a person.
david-when i met you, you had the jew fro goin on, and you pulled it well. ive seen you mature alot in the times ive come down and visited, and even now, i can tell your becomming more aware of life and how it works. you have a friend in me, whenever you need it. i know your mom cant see this, but tell her i thank her so much for what she has done for me, helping me, and welcoming me in her home. you guys were my first friends down here, and that will be with me always.
sam and dye- you go girls. you two have a bond thats strong, and never let anything break that. i met you two and jesus when we went to dolphin mall. god damn it was huge. you two are funny, and cunty ^_^. thanks to both of you for being a friend. you guys...wait, girls roxxors.
chynna-i met you at halloween, in your swiss maid outfit...i want some cocoa...gimme....i hope you never loose the friends you maid, cause you have the personality to bring in so many smiles....god your tall. ill let you wear my boots, hopefully i see you soon.
aysha-one of the coolest people down here, well, everyone down here is cool. it was nice to meet, you, and your a great artist. i hope the smell clears out of your room soon.
and to the one person who started all this change in me......danny. words cannot describe how much youve done for me, and how much youve changed my life for the better. you introduced me to people who ill be friends with forever, and showed me your heart and love. i dont know how i can ever show you, and let you know how much youve helped me realize what i can do, how much i can take control of my life. your love and friendship has given me a new start, and i thank you, from the bottom of my heart and every fiber of my being.
i dont know what else to say to everyone, but thank you so much for your kindness to a new person. you all have done something to help me in some way or another, and i dont know if i can ever express to any of you how much it means to me. and i dont think there are enough thank yous in the world to say and tell how much you all mean to me.
end of emotional post..........but never the end of my friendship......
EDIT:: Im happy with how my life is. The shit with my parents I deal with, the new surge of life I feel, Im happy. I can say now, for once in my life, im not upset with anyone, although some people I would still like to acid wash, but still. Im home, with a family that loves me, and watches out for me. I love my life, and everyone in it. ^_^
david-when i met you, you had the jew fro goin on, and you pulled it well. ive seen you mature alot in the times ive come down and visited, and even now, i can tell your becomming more aware of life and how it works. you have a friend in me, whenever you need it. i know your mom cant see this, but tell her i thank her so much for what she has done for me, helping me, and welcoming me in her home. you guys were my first friends down here, and that will be with me always.
sam and dye- you go girls. you two have a bond thats strong, and never let anything break that. i met you two and jesus when we went to dolphin mall. god damn it was huge. you two are funny, and cunty ^_^. thanks to both of you for being a friend. you guys...wait, girls roxxors.
chynna-i met you at halloween, in your swiss maid outfit...i want some cocoa...gimme....i hope you never loose the friends you maid, cause you have the personality to bring in so many smiles....god your tall. ill let you wear my boots, hopefully i see you soon.
aysha-one of the coolest people down here, well, everyone down here is cool. it was nice to meet, you, and your a great artist. i hope the smell clears out of your room soon.
and to the one person who started all this change in me......danny. words cannot describe how much youve done for me, and how much youve changed my life for the better. you introduced me to people who ill be friends with forever, and showed me your heart and love. i dont know how i can ever show you, and let you know how much youve helped me realize what i can do, how much i can take control of my life. your love and friendship has given me a new start, and i thank you, from the bottom of my heart and every fiber of my being.
i dont know what else to say to everyone, but thank you so much for your kindness to a new person. you all have done something to help me in some way or another, and i dont know if i can ever express to any of you how much it means to me. and i dont think there are enough thank yous in the world to say and tell how much you all mean to me.
end of emotional post..........but never the end of my friendship......
EDIT:: Im happy with how my life is. The shit with my parents I deal with, the new surge of life I feel, Im happy. I can say now, for once in my life, im not upset with anyone, although some people I would still like to acid wash, but still. Im home, with a family that loves me, and watches out for me. I love my life, and everyone in it. ^_^