Kink Me! #30

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Kink Me! #30
*closed to new prompts*Welcome to Kink Me! Merlin #30! :D

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[anonymous]

Arthur/Merlin, modern AU based on A Primer for the Small Weird Loves by Richard Siken:

"The blond boy in the red trunks is holding your head underwater

because he is trying to kill you,

and you deserve it, you do, and you know this,

and you are ready to die in this swimming pool

because you wanted to touch his hands and lips and this means

your life is over anyway.

You’re in the eighth grade. You know these things.

You know how to ride a dirt bike, and you know how to do

long division,

and you know that a boy who likes boys is a dead boy, unless

he keeps his mouth shut, which is what you

didn’t do,

because you are weak and hollow and it doesn’t matter anymore.
"

Re: Small Weird Love 2c/?

[lullabylily]

Intriguing! I'd love to read more!

Re: Small Weird Love 2c/?

[anonymous]

I started to screm: "NO MERLIN! DON'T GO TO THE WATER NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"

I have this bad habit that I get little too exited :D lol

Gotta say you are awesome

Re: Small Weird Love 1/?

[katie_andrew]

Oh. ♥

Re: Small Weird Love 3a/?

[anonymous]

Merlin had followed Arthur out of the shade. It had felt weird somehow. Like their differences were somehow exacerbated by this simple act. Merlin was all pale and dark-haired with skin that hated sunshine, and therefore he spent most of his summers inside, or safe in the shade of trees and parasols. Arthur was all golden and blond and sun-kissed, spending must of his time outside, running on football fields and swimming in the pool. It was unfair but quite inevitable that it would be Merlin who would crossed into Arthur’s world and not the opposite, after all he was the one wanting something he couldn’t have. Something he shouldn’t even want in the first place

Re: Small Weird Love 3b/?

[anonymous]

The mocking tone in Arthur’s voice had made Merlin smile. There. That was more familiar.

But then Arthur had been there, grasping the other side of the board and Merlin had opened his eyes to see him, mere centimetres away, flashing that stupid smile at him, and his eyes reflected the water and the water his eyes and Merlin hung somewhere between the two, not sure if he had to swim or sink or drown, and too close too close too close

“So. Merlin. Don’t tell me you would rather stay by yourself or hang out with girls than play sport with me and my mates.”

And yes, yes Merlin would rather.

“I…I mean…It’s not that I…I don’t know how to play, that’s all”

Arthur had rolled his eyes and Merlin had bitten his lip.

“Fine, fine, Merlin, be like that. Say no to the birthday boy on his birthday and eat all his food and

Re: Small Weird Love 3c/?

[anonymous]

~

His chest was hollow and possibly filling with water, he wasn’t sure, the shifting blues around him strangely comforting. All he could see, though, like a short movie on repeat, were Arthur’s eyes as he had pulled brusquely away form Merlin’s kiss, full of shock and anger. Before promptly grabbing him and pushing him underwater. In his surprised gasp he had swallowed quite of bit of water. It filled his nose and burned his lungs.

Merlin decided, in one moment of clarity, as he was suspended in the water with Arthur’s hand gripping his hair, that Arthur’s eyes were really the blue of the pool, because he thought that he would drown in them, and he was drowning in this pool and it was all the same in the end and it didn’t matter.

Except he was struck with one thought, one bright realization: there hadn’t been disgust in Arthur’s eyes.
There had been no disgust and it did matter. It mattered. It mattered. Merlin mattered, right

Re: Small Weird Love 3c/?

[alby_mangroves]

OH MY GOD. I don't think I breathed the whole time it took to read this.

"...his eyes reflected the water and the water his eyes and Merlin hung somewhere between the two, not sure if he had to swim or sink or drown, and too close too close too close..." - Gorgeous.

Thank you <3

Re: Small Weird Love 3c/?

[anonymous]

Oh dear, Arthur did not see THAT coming, and I think has responded with a knee-jerk "don't do that" possibly feeling shamed in front of his mates. I'm guessing he's not repulsed by Merlin, but more afraid of the consequences. Now Merlin has been nearly drowned, and that is all kinds of crazy.

Re: Small Weird Love 3c/?

[anonymous]

This is absolutely gorgeous, anon.

Re: Small Weird Love 3c/?

[anonymous]

This is just wonderful. And hopeful somehow. I love it.

Re: Small Weird Love 3c/?

[anonymous]

i've honestly not reacted this way to a fic in such a long time. stunning. <3

Re: Small Weird Love 4a/?

[anonymous]

Merlin was in a bit of a daze, too busy trying to get his breathing back under control to pay much attention to what surrounded him. He still had enough presence of mind to steadfastly keep his eyes off Arthur, though. He thought he could feel everybody’s eyes burning holes in his body, desiccating his flesh

Re: Small Weird Love 4b/?

[anonymous]

“I think…I think I surprised him that’s all” mumbled Merlin. Morgana scuffed.

“Don’t defend him, Merlin. He’s a giant arsehole and doesn’t deserve your pity. I mean, even surprised he really didn’t have to hold you underwater like that, even if it was for only twenty seconds or so. He’s a good for nothing pillock”.

Twenty seconds. It had felt longer than that. Of course, twenty seconds felt quite long when you’ve barely had time to take a breath and had swallowed a lot of water in the process.
And had had your heart broken.

“I called your mum” continued Morgana.

Merlin whimpered, he didn’t really want to have to explain anything to his mum right now. She would be all loving and caring and soft, like Gwen, he was sure, but he didn’t think he could take the disappointment that was sure to be there as well. The unhappiness at knowing that your only son is not what you wished he’d be. Maybe he wouldn’t have to tell her though. Maybe she would never hear about this and he could just continue pretending that he wasn’t…wasn’t…this“Don’

Re: Small Weird Love 4c/?

[anonymous]

He normally loved this kitchen, especially in the mornings. It was the perfect place to wake up to. It was bright and airy and it always smelled good. His mum hummed while cooking, happy silly songs that made Merlin smile even if he was thirteen and had heard them a thousand times before. Sometimes, she put on the radio instead and chose obnoxious popular stations that made her frown at the state of music nowadays and made Merlin laugh, because she still tapped her feet to the beat and unconsciously danced to it while making food.

This morning though, the cheeriness hit him like a punch in the face and for one moment he almost wished he was back in the pool, where things had not been yellow and sunny and bright and so harsh. He was still suspended in blue. His mum saw him and kissed him on the head, never stopping her humming and dancing while she flipped pancakes over the stove. Merlin sat down in his chair and picked up his fork. He stared at his food a long time

Re: Small Weird Love 4d/?

[anonymous]

Much later, when he didn’t have any more tears in him, the pool in his chest seemingly empty for now, Hunith wiped away his tears with soft hands and a gentle smile, turned him back toward his plate and put back the fork he had dropped in his hand