I've almost come to my last straw... There are so many guys who want me, whether for sex or they're in love with me, that I feel like I'm going crazy. I went to the bar with Jenni tonight and Jacob was there, trying to be all over me and the center of my attention--as usual. Then just after last call one of Kenton's creepy friends came up and was ( Read more... )

Why am I stuck in this time? Why am I stuck in this shithole town? I hate it here. I keep talking to my "friends". They must all be too stupid to understand me. I want to live the Bohemian Life, I want to be able to go anywhere and do anything without the limits. But in this day and age, you have no money? You can't do ANYTHING ( Read more... )

Not really much going on today. I felt I should post something though. I apparently have a reader now :) That's kinda cool. So, hi reader ( Read more... )

Okay, so today has been pretty shitty. Sadly for all the most stupid, most ridiculous, and most petty reasons, but I'm just fed up with all the little shit that I keep piling on my heap. I'm tired of living in a house where I can't fucking breathe, I'm tired of losing my shit because of all Mom's shit being in the way. I'm tired of being the only ( Read more... )

I hate to have to admit these things, but if I don't, they'll consume me. I have something I have been holding in much too long: I started falling out of love with Shawn long ago, like the end of June. I still loved him wholeheartedly, but I was no longer "in love" with him. I composed some lines in my phone one day when we went to one of his ( Read more... )

Oh man, I am starting to hate FrontierVille...I can't stop playing it. I'm so addicted...grr ( Read more... )

I've been doing really well lately. I have read three books in the last week, I'm starting to finally get back to being the "real me". Which I find perfectly wonderful :) I'm really feeling insanely better than I had been. I really feel like a weight was lifted when I wrote that letter to Shawn. I honestly don't expect him(and kinda don't want him ( Read more... )

So this morning I had a dream that was like a sequel to a dream I had like a year or two ago. I woke up feeling just as scared as I was when I had that first dream ( Read more... )

What the hell is my problem?!!! GRRR....I have so much shit on my plate, all my friends have problems that I'm trying to help them through--which I don't mind helping those who help back. I have this friend on Facebook who seems to be having a lot of problems, and I want to be nice and let her know I'm here if she needs someone to talk to. I did ( Read more... )

I've been doing a lot better. I haven't heard from Shawn, but I'm sure I will eventually. Someone will show him that note on Facebook and he'll think he has something to say...That's how he is ( Read more... )