Fading Away
Oh father in heaven,
Take away this sweet heart which cries in vain,
So that I may not feel this breath-taking pain.
So that my mind and soul might not love again.
Please deny me smiles and tears.
Please deny me hopes and fears.
Please help me refrain from laughter, dreams, or making hurtful jears.
The sickness in me makes my very soul decay,
And if I ignore it, it just returns to me the next day.
This feelings rips my mind and life astray.
I wish, I wish my emotions would just fade away.
Because of my actions, there is an even larger price to pay.
And if you do not grant my wish, o lord,
I'll destroy myself this way.
-Jess 9/9/04