Fic nr 13
Title: In My Dreams
Author: kiriga
Fandom: Air Gear/Airmyu
Character/Pairing: Agito, Akito
Rating: G
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: Sorry, not Oh! Great.
Prompts: soul/fall
Note: 552 words
I don’t know exactly when I was born, but it was in your deepest need of help. I knew nothing and all, one thing was the knowledge I was born with; I was born to help you, to take your place in battles. That is the only reason I exist.
And still sometimes I wonder how it would be to have a body of my own, to meet you in person, not like it is now. How would I look like, I wonder, and how would my voice sound? Would you still make it, without me by your side to help you? Then I stop ponder.
It once happened during a match, and your body got injured. Because I was too busy thinking selfishly. It wouldn’t matter if it was my own body, but it’s your, and therefore much more important and precious. Unless unavoidable, it must not be harmed, yet I still let it get hurt so carelessly. But I still wonder.
One night, when you were sleeping so deeply, I awoke to find tears on your cheeks. First I almost panicked and got a fit, before I remembered than my mind had been in control the whole night, so it couldn’t possibly be your tears. But the idea of me crying in my sleep was so fucking idiotic, so I denied it with my whole being. Then I remembered something I dreamt about that night, albeit I couldn’t remember even one bit of what had happened in the dream.
It was the feeling of having a whole body of my own that I remembered. Not even now have I forgotten it, I’m still falling. It’s a dream that must be kept secret from everybody, especially from you. How would you react if you knew of my musings? Would you be sad, thinking that I don’t like you or something like that? You would be hurt, and that’s the reason as to why I’m keeping it from you.
If I had a body, then I wouldn’t have to just watch you anymore. Then I could be with you, talk with you, play with you, save you. Now I have to watch the birdbrain do it instead. What does he have that you like so much? If I didn’t share this body with you, could like me too? Still, if I had my own body, then I wouldn’t know you as well as I do now. That’s what he can’t say, he doesn’t know you even half as well as I do.
But I’m still forced to watch him catch you, learn you to fly, while I’m forced to stay down here. It’s like one of those nightmares, only that this one is my ‘life’. One day I’ll disappear, and leave you forever. You have Ikki and the rest of the idiots, so I can leave you with them. It’s just that I don’t want to leave you, you’re my birth, my life, and you will be my death too. If I just didn’t feel like this, then it wouldn’t be as hard. It’s too fucking unfair! No use acting like a child, I know. Just accept it. Just accept that I’m going to leave you, and that you will be just fine without me. But, for me, it seems impossible.
~Owari~
Author: kiriga
Fandom: Air Gear/Airmyu
Character/Pairing: Agito, Akito
Rating: G
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: Sorry, not Oh! Great.
Prompts: soul/fall
Note: 552 words
I don’t know exactly when I was born, but it was in your deepest need of help. I knew nothing and all, one thing was the knowledge I was born with; I was born to help you, to take your place in battles. That is the only reason I exist.
And still sometimes I wonder how it would be to have a body of my own, to meet you in person, not like it is now. How would I look like, I wonder, and how would my voice sound? Would you still make it, without me by your side to help you? Then I stop ponder.
It once happened during a match, and your body got injured. Because I was too busy thinking selfishly. It wouldn’t matter if it was my own body, but it’s your, and therefore much more important and precious. Unless unavoidable, it must not be harmed, yet I still let it get hurt so carelessly. But I still wonder.
One night, when you were sleeping so deeply, I awoke to find tears on your cheeks. First I almost panicked and got a fit, before I remembered than my mind had been in control the whole night, so it couldn’t possibly be your tears. But the idea of me crying in my sleep was so fucking idiotic, so I denied it with my whole being. Then I remembered something I dreamt about that night, albeit I couldn’t remember even one bit of what had happened in the dream.
It was the feeling of having a whole body of my own that I remembered. Not even now have I forgotten it, I’m still falling. It’s a dream that must be kept secret from everybody, especially from you. How would you react if you knew of my musings? Would you be sad, thinking that I don’t like you or something like that? You would be hurt, and that’s the reason as to why I’m keeping it from you.
If I had a body, then I wouldn’t have to just watch you anymore. Then I could be with you, talk with you, play with you, save you. Now I have to watch the birdbrain do it instead. What does he have that you like so much? If I didn’t share this body with you, could like me too? Still, if I had my own body, then I wouldn’t know you as well as I do now. That’s what he can’t say, he doesn’t know you even half as well as I do.
But I’m still forced to watch him catch you, learn you to fly, while I’m forced to stay down here. It’s like one of those nightmares, only that this one is my ‘life’. One day I’ll disappear, and leave you forever. You have Ikki and the rest of the idiots, so I can leave you with them. It’s just that I don’t want to leave you, you’re my birth, my life, and you will be my death too. If I just didn’t feel like this, then it wouldn’t be as hard. It’s too fucking unfair! No use acting like a child, I know. Just accept it. Just accept that I’m going to leave you, and that you will be just fine without me. But, for me, it seems impossible.
~Owari~