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Chapter 3
After a while he comes into the room and holds his hand out for me.
"Up" he says and i stand up and he wraps his arm around my waist. He kisses my cheek and then my mouth. I let his tounge slide in mine and he holds me tight.
"You're alright" he says holding my chin up so I'm looking into his dark eyes. "Your a good girl" he says and the complement makes me more than happy. I smile at him and he smirks back. He loves it that i get so happy for him. Malik continues to kiss me, he kisses my neck and my shoulders. I place my hands on his back as he slips off my nighty and it falls to the floor around me. He smirks and touches my body, he gently runs his hands over my stomach and hips.
"Yeah, You're alright" he says amused.
The alarm screams in the morning and slowly regain consciousness. I'm still so tired, Malik kept me up so late and i just can't get out of bed yet. I don't move and Malik turns the alarm off. He slides out of bed and i curl up under the blankets and try to be quiet so he doesn't make me get up yet.
"Aiko baby girl, time to get up" He sings to me when i don't move. I don't make a sound, i fake sleep.
"Oh, i know your not sleeping Aiko, what's wrong?" he says and i open my eyes a little.
"I'm so tired Malik can't i sleep a little longer?" I say making sure not to whine. Malik can't stand whining. Malik stretches and puts his pants on.
"Sure, sleep as long as you need, i guess i did keep you up very late."
"Thank you sir" i say sleepily and bury my head in soft pillows and fall back asleep before Malik can kiss me goodbye.
I wake up over-slept at around noon. I get up out of bed covered in sweat, oil and sex residue. Pretty much feeling terrible, and bad breath too. I slump into the shower and take a very cold one to wake me up properly. I brush my teeth and braid my hair and put yellow eye shadow on. Naked, i walk into the bedroom and get dressed in faded, holy, comfortable jeans and a worn cotton yellow shirt. I put a few clips in my hair to keep in absolutely still.
The kitchen is a dreadful mess, which is what i expected Malik to leave. He always does when he tries to make his own breakfast. But it still amazes me how he can make such a mess preparing cold cereal. I smile at myself at his sillyness as i clean up the mess. I mop the floor and scrub the oven.
I don't mind housework. I really don't. My mother put me to work in our house when i was old enough to hold a rag. I like a clean house, and that's something that i do for me. I do everything for Malik, and i don't mind keeping him happy. But i clean the house because I want it clean. But don't think i wouldn't keep it clean if Malik wanted me too.
I turn the radio on while i vacuum the floor. I sing along to some weird pop song i don't really like and have never heard but somehow know all the words. After i vacuum i stretch out in the living room, doing the few Yoga stretches i know a bunch of times and then i meditate on the floor.
The phone rings two hours later and i an distrupted from the meditation. I don't get angry though and i get up and answer the phone.
"Hello?"
"Aiko?"
"Yes, this is her"
"Aiko, this is Ted from Tootsies, I'm sorry to call you but i never did get your dress size for your uniform."
"Oh, im sorry, im a size 4" i say and stretch out my leg muscles, i was starting to get a cramp i realize. I must have been sitting a little off, because i shouldn't have gotten a cramp.
"Thank you, see you Monday"
"You too, bye"
"bye" he says and i hang up.
I wish i had a dog sometimes. I have spent most of the past year trying to think of things to amuse myself with while Malik is at work. I go out with Kiki, but she has to work sometimes too. Of course this problem will be solved Monday when i start my job, but I'd still like a little puppy to care for and love and feed. I have wanted a dog for so long, a little black German Shepard puppy. Or an Alaskan Malamute. I have never told Malik that I want a dog, simply because he hasn't asked.
I have started Curried Chicken for dinner and I am reading a Spin magazine when Malik comes home. He kisses my cheek and pulls my pig tail.
"what's cookin?" he asks in a singsong voice, I'm glad he is happy.
"Curried chicken" I say and close the magazine.
"Yum, what did you do today?"
"Nothing, cleaned up the house, streched out"
"how are your wrists?"
"Oh fine, no problems" I say and smile at him.
"Here c'mon on my lap" he says and i get up and sit on his lap. "Are you okay Aiko?" he asks looking right into my eyes and into my soul.
"Of course, what's wrong?" I ask, confused why he would ask me if i was okay, i look fine, i think.
"Nothing sweetheart, but are you Happy?"
"Of course I'm happy, I'm happy if your happy" i say and start to play with his hair. I run my hands through it then start to tickle his scalp because i know he likes the feeling. I don't want him to ask me weird questions like this. He smiles at me and kisses me. He wraps his arms around me and swings me onto the bed and starts to tickle.
I love and hate to be tickled. The feeling makes me want to jump out of my skin but it also makes me laugh so hard and i like laughing. Malik tickles me until i beg him to stop.
"Aiko, have you ever thought about having a baby?"
"Yes, of course, since my mom told me where babies come from i've thought about it?"
"Would you want to?" he says laying on the bed now with me, his hand still on my sides and his legs wrapped around mine. His voice is serious but also curious.
"If you wanted me too." i say honestly, trying to find the warmest softest part of his shoulder to lie in.
"No, that's not what i mean Aiko, would you want a baby?"
"Malik, Master, you know i don't know what i want. Only you know what i want, and only you know what i'm ready for. If a baby would make you happy, it would bring unfathomable joy to me. You know this, why are you asking me this?" trying to explain my feelings.
"Oh, i don't know Aiko. I have just been thinking about it for a while, will you think about it?"
"About what?" i say
"Having a child" he says
"Oh, of course"
"Is there anything you're thinking about?" he says and starts to touch me face, he pokes me nose like a buttons then traces my eye brows.
"No sir" i say and then remember thinking about dogs
"Really?"
"Well, i want a dog. I get so lonely in the house all day, i want someone to hang out with"
"Really, well you'll be busy soon, remember your job"
"I know, i was just thinking about it."
"Okay, I'll think about it and we can talk about it in a few weeks after you get aclamated at your new job"
"k" i say and look down at his neck.
"Now what's wrong Aiko?" he says
"Oh nothing, im just nervous"
Monday I find Ted in the office and he gives me my tan and peach uniform. It's your seterotypical diner uniform but i don't care, i look cute in it and he will let me keep my collar on. That was my only concern, that i would have to quit before i even started because i couldn't wear my collar. Ted must think it's just jewelry, because he also let me keep my ear rings in.
My first day of work is just learning the menu and how to take orders and such. Being a waitress isn't exactly rocket science and i learn pretty quickly. Kiki picks me up at 5 when my shift ends and we drive back to the apartment. It a cool summer afternoon and I'm glad to get out of the chilly wind.
"So what should we do?" Kiki asks and i make us some sandwiches and tea.
"Your such a good little wife Aiko, you should come party with me this weekend. Remember Jacky-john, that weird guy with the henna orange hair?" i nod yes "yeah, he's having a really awsome show at the house he rents. You should totally be my date" she says and finishes her tea.
"I'll ask Malik" I say and she laughs
"I'll ask Malik" she mocks "Jeez Aiko, he's not your daddy. C'mon, be crazy, we haven't gone to a show together is ages, ages."
"I said I'll ask Malik Kiki, I'm sure he'll be fine with it, but it's nice to make sure we don't have any plans or anything." I say and she rolls her eyes. She can be a bitch sometimes. But she does look beautiful today. I admire her pretty eyes as she rolls them in her head.
"So you make any tips?" she changes the subject
"i didn't do anything but learn the ropes today" i tell her and start the clean the sandwich plates when Malik comes in the door from work.
"Hey Aiko What's happenin' !?" he says and hugs me.
"Hello Kiki" he says apon noticing her. She nods to him.
"Am i interupting something?" he says coldly and i remember in an instant that i didn't ask Malik if Kiki could come over. My stomach goes cold, that's a big rule i broke.
"Oh no Malik, you're not interupting anything. Kiki picked me up from work so i wouldn't have to walk, i invited her in for sandwiches and tea as a thanks. She's got be going soon though." i sy quickly and Kiki gets the hint and sighs loudly and gets her things together.
"Remember Aiko, Jacky-john, saturday" she says before dissapearing out the door.
"What the hell was that?" Malik says backing me into a corner "I don't want to come home to that bitch, you know i don't like her. You know your supposed to ask, don't you?"
"Yes sir, i know" i say pinned to the wall
"Then why didn't you?"
"I don't know, I'm sorry. I forgot, i really did"
"Well, i guess ill have to remind you, go to your room and wait for me" he says and moves so i can exape. I quickly scamper to my room, which is the extra room i hardly go into. All it has in it is a stury wooden chair, a dresser and a sleeping mat in the corner. I sit in the chair and fiddle with my collar hoping to get some comfort from it.
God im stupid. God im so stupid. How could i forget that? That's one of the biggest rules, Malik does not like to come home to anyone but me. How i could i be so dumb. I deserve whatever he does to me. I deserve worse. God Damn it, I'm so dumb. I feel horrible, like i want to tear my flesh off. I start to hyperventilate and i catch myself and calm down. I do my yoga breathing exorcise but it doesn't help much. God, i promised i would please and obey and respect Malik, but i just forget. I'm so horrible to him. Why can't i please him?
God, i wish he'd just come already. I wish he'd just walk in the door and make everything alright.
I don't know how long it takes until Malik finally opens the door, it feels like forever but must have been two hours at the most. He still looks angry, but calmer.
"Put your training collar on, obviously you need a refresher on the house rules. But this time I'll make sure you don't ever forget them."