Essence - Statistics
Title: Essence - Statistics
Chapter: 3/?
Author: kiroyo
Genre: Angst, Drama
Warnings: Implied smut
Disclaimer: I own no one.
Rating: PG15
Pairing: Kai x Reita, Uruha x Reita
Synopsis: He feels, tastes, and smells of someone else.
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Kai’s pov
Love is selfless.
Or so they say. By construing that literally, is that to mean the one in question losing themselves and succumbing to love, or one just being plain selfish?
Or do I take it that one is willing to die for the other.
All has been status quo. I’m maintaining my usual cheery front, Uruha and I fooling around in rehearsals, and my other half coming home late smelling filthy.
Is it not ironic that the 2 other leads in this scenario are fooling around in another sense? One's playing with my heart while both of them are "playing" with each other behind my back.
I've always believed that we all belong to someone out there in this world, that there's someone made for us somewhere out there. That's my simple concept of love. That’s my interpretation for this "other half" logic. But apparently, I'm not even worthy enough to constitute a 0.5. In his eyes now, I've been downgraded to a mere third. A 0.33333 with no end, no conclusion, something which carries on for infinity.
However I’m not a numerical value. The current me is unable to continue like this for infinity and beyond. I don’t know how long it has been. It’s not me losing count, but rather, me who can’t bear to keep count. God knows how long this would go on and what am I do or think if I pause and tabulate the days, hours, minutes and seconds.
Let me do something heroic for once. Let me make this right and spare everyone from these wavering mathematical calculations. Let me disappear.