Essence - Broken
Title: Essence - Broken
Chapter: 10/10
Author: kiroyo
Genre: Angst, Drama
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: I own no one.
Rating: PG15
Pairing: ? x Kai
Synopsis: He feels, tastes, and smells of someone else.
Comments: Comments make me happy, like little bits of candy :3
Pushing the cold steely round knob inwards, I was greeted with a bloodied Reita in the middle of the room and Uruha's legs poking out from the door which I was currently holding ajar. So... They're both gone huh?
Ignoring the two of them who wouldn't be aware of my presence anyway, I called out to who I came for. He didn't respond though I was sure he could see me from his position on the bed. Skirting the random bloodied mess, I tiptoed over to him and slowly sat down on the plastic chair next to his bed frame. However he still didn't flinch. My heart clenched. It's all cause of those 2 conniving bastards.. My poor poor Kai.
"Aoi?"
My head snapped up. I jumped slightly at the sudden realisation of his palm against my cheek. His warm bloodstained touch against my cold wet skin.
"What's wrong? Why are you crying?"
Oh Kai, you care too much. You've always cared too much. Despite what the doctors said about you now, you still haven't lost that trait in you. That trait which encaged my heart 8 years ago till this day.
"It's nothing Kai. I'm probably tired that's all." I closed my right hand around yours and you smiled. Do you see how yours fits perfectly against mine? Do you see how mismatched you and that asshole are now? Why didn't you see it before Kai? Why couldn't you? Why wouldn't you see it until I had no choice but to intervene...
It doesn't matter now though. The ache I felt, and the living hell that crashed upon me and consumed me whole when you first came to tell me about your crush and whether you should confess and come clean about it. That killed me right there and then. But the stupid me wanted you to be happy. So I didn't allow my grin to falter, I patted your back and told you to go for it, and that he would have no reason to reject you. Why would he? Why would anyone? Perfection itself came in the form of you Kai. Lo and behold, things went well, and you were the epitome of felicity. I was content that you were overjoyed, but the selfish part of me was crushed, devastated that the one you were happy with wasn't me. Yet I kept it up, cause' I convinced myself that I would be fine living everyday seeing that smile on your face.
So imagine the unexpected second blow of anguish that came on the day you lost your smile. I had given up my whole lifetime's worth of happiness to that asshole and he had given up yours to pursue his own. No one in the band is blind. Ruki and I knew, that he and his best friend were intimately involved. But Ruki, being the one slogging his guts out for the band since the beginning of time couldn't bear to see all of us go to waste. He already had a breathing corpse, me, as a member. He didn't need a leader who was on the verge of a mental breakdown, nor did he need two band mates who couldn't stop fucking each other.
I was a lone ranger. It was all up to me to expose the two of them to you and make you accept the harsh reality you were escaping from or continue to be the living dead that I was.
I chose the former.
I rang you up and brought you over to Uruha's. It stung me to see you cover your ears and clamp your eyes shut when we stood at their door step, sounds of their atrocities leaking from the gap beneath. But my rage blinded me. I grabbed your wrist, flung the door open and stormed in, further verifying the hard truth with our very eyes.
I had broken my resolve to mind my own business and suffer in silence alone. I had broken you.
The longest days of my life had got to be the span of 2 weeks you got admitted in here. When I received the news, I swore to myself that I would follow after you if you really did leave the face of this earth. Fortunately, and thank god you didn't. You are here now, and those two are gone.
They said you've gone too Kai. Your sanity, and your memories are in shambles. You don't remember your living nightmares and you only retain the good ones. But you remember me don't you? That must mean that I am still someone worthy in your eyes.
You cup your other hand round my other cheek, framing my face completely, and you tilt your head to the side.
"Why are you still crying Yuu? Are you not happy to see me?"
What sort of question is that? How could I ever not be happy to see you? I laughed, mildly surprised at your mention of my real name, and you wiped away my tears. We'll be fine Kai. You are still here, broken or not, I'll never leave your side ever again.
A/N: No points for guessing whose pov this is LOL.